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“Sajin, wait,” you say softly. You reach for him, marveling for a moment how small your hand looks pressed against his chest. You look into his eyes and see that his eyebrows are knitted together in concern.
“Am I hurting you?” He asks immediately. His amber eyes glimmer in the hazy light from the candles and lamps scattered around the room. He reaches for your other hand and entwines your fingers together, squeezing down lightly.
“No, no I’m fine, I just…need a moment to breathe,” you say with a little smile. He’s been working his way inside of you, slowly, but it’s still a lot for you to handle. Everything about Sajin looms larger than life. He towers over you, long blond hair flowing down his back. He’s so strong, he can easily pick you up and toss you over his shoulder, something you’ve never experienced in any relationship before. Despite his stoic demeanor, you’ve come to discover that he’s soft and kind, especially to those that he loves.
Well, you’re not sure if he loves you…neither of you have said anything of the sort to each other. But he’s waited this long to sleep with you, three whole months of nothing but kissing and touching. You’ve had plenty of orgasms…he’s made you come more times than you can count using his mouth and fingers alone. Tonight, you finally decided that you’re ready for him. After spending a considerable amount of time making sure that you were wet enough, he finally began to push the head of his cock inside of you. The pressure of it was enough to make your head spin and that’s when you reached for him.
“We can stop-”
“We’re not stopping. Just…give me a minute,” you say softly. “Kiss me.”
He smiles and dips down for a kiss, his lips meeting yours. Sajin shifts his weight, the bed creaking with his movements. He begins to press hot kisses next to your mouth, slowly making his way to your ear. He knows how sensitive that area is for you, and he spends a few moments nibbling on your earlobe, smiling when a soft moan escapes your lips. Your hands begin to move on their own, one rubbing his ear, the other, threading through his hair. “I’m ready,” you say quietly. He pulls back and looks at you, a very serious look on his face.
“We don’t have to do this now, you know…I’m fine with waiting a little longer,” he says. His eyelids droop as you continue to rub his ears. They’re covered in the same soft fur that runs along his forearms and along his chest. A stark reminder of his wolfish nature.
You smile even though he can’t see it. You know he’s content to wait, and that he probably would wait a lifetime for you. If there’s one thing you admire about him…it’s the strength of his will. He’s steadfast, strong and dedicated. Whenever you’re with him you always feel safe and grounded. It’s something that you’ve come to love about being with him. The feeling of being cherished, protected and loved. You suck in a breath as the weight of it all hits you.
Loved. When you’re with him you feel loved.
Tonight, you’re determined to give some of that love back to him. You want to connect with him on a deeper level than you have before.
“I want you, Sajin…” your voice is soft but strong. You pause, contemplating your choice of words. Do you want him…or do you need him? “No…I don’t want you, I need you,” you say, putting emphasis on the word need.
There’s something in your voice that makes him open his eyes. He looks at you curiously for a moment, and you can almost see the wheels turning in his head.
“Need?” He asks, his voice a low rumble in his chest.
You lick your lips and nod before clasping your hands behind his neck. “Yes, need,” you repeat. You stare deeply into his eyes, feeling your cheeks burn as they begin to heat up. You’re not ashamed of admitting it, but it does make you feel seen…exposed.
Sajin smiles and leans in to bury his face in the crook of your neck and shoulder.
“Oh?” He says softly. His breath is warm against your skin. “Tell me more about what you need…” he says as his voice trails off.
You close your eyes, feeling that hot pool of desire in your stomach. You allow that version of you to take over, the one you keep hidden deep inside…dark eyes and wild hair, skin covered in sweat and dirt and blood. She rises slowly, steam curling from her skin. “I need you inside of me,” you say quietly. “Now,” you add. You can feel his body ripple as he takes in a deep breath. His hands have found your arms and he digs his nails into your skin. You let out a little gasp at the sharp prickle of pain.
“Why do you need me?” He asks. He continues to nose at your neck, inhaling deeply. He’s memorizing your scent, you realize. You pull him closer, savoring the feeling of his body pressed against yours. The hard lines of muscle, arms that could easily crush you, a sharp contrast to your softness and curves.
“Because I need to be yours…and I want you to need me too,” you mumble. As you say the words a strange emotion comes over you, and you find yourself blinking back tears.
Sajin pulls back and looks deeply into your eyes. “You have no idea how much I need you…how much I want you,” he says softly.
You tenderly cup his face in your hands, finally ready to say the words that have been flitting around at the edges of your mind. “I…I love you, Sajin,” you confess with a small smile. As soon as the words leave your lips, you feel a huge weight lift off of your chest. You said it, and there was no taking it back now. You can hear your heart beating wildly in your chest. Sajin has gone still and for a moment, you swear that he’s stopped breathing. Finally, he closes his eyes and leans in towards you, pressing his forehead against your own.
“I love you too,” he replies, his voice shaking.
“Please fuck me,” you whisper.
A deep growl escapes his lips. “Once we do this…you’ll belong to me, and I’ll belong to you,” he says.
You nod desperately. There’s nothing more that you could possibly want in the world. A tiny glimpse of a potential future flashes in your mind. You see a soft life, blankets, lazy kisses, the two of you making love in the early morning light, maybe one day even children…the sounds of their laughter echo in your ears.
“Yes,” you say as you brush your fingers along his cheekbones. “Yes.”
He begins to push his cock into you once more and you spread your legs to accommodate him. He leans in for a kiss, and the moment his lips connect with yours, he slides his entire length inside of your heat. For the briefest of moments, you forget how to breathe as your body adjusts to the feeling of him stretching you out. He’s thick, and you find yourself thinking back to the times when you’ve taken him in your mouth, how you struggled to take him in. His cock is splitting you open, and despite how wet you are, you still feel the slight burn, the pressure. When he bottoms out inside of you, he lets out a choked moan. You can feel him inside of you, all of him. He kisses you tenderly and begins to move his hips, slowly at first, testing the waters. You lift your legs and wrap them around him, giving him more access to you. This encourages him and he smiles. He begins to increase his pace, slamming his cock into you. You hold onto his arms, needing something to ground you, to keep you anchored.
Sajin reaches down and finds your clit. He begins to rub it softly, making you squirm. Your body is overwhelmed by pleasure. The feeling of him so deep inside of you, the roughness of his finger, the feeling of his warm lips on your skin…he’s making you feel so good, you can only hope that he’s feeling the same. You clench down around his cock, smiling when you feel his hips shift. His kisses become more urgent, trailing down your neck to your breasts. His teeth scrape lightly against your bare skin before he sinks them down into your flesh. You cry out, digging your nails into his skin and scratching him. He sucks a rosy hickey on your breast and then licks it, pressing a soft kiss against the your now sore skin.
The two of you fall into a steady rhythm. The room is punctuated by the sounds that escape from you both, your soft moans, his grunts, along with the sound of skin slapping skin. You can feel your mind emptying out, and soon, all you can think about is the white hot pleasure you feel running through your veins. A vision of yourself on top of him suddenly pierces through your mind and you squeeze his arm.
“Sajin…I want to…” your voice trails off and he looks at you expectantly. “On top…I want to be on top…” you whisper shyly. His eyes widen and then he smiles. He quickly rolls onto his back and waits for you to climb on top of him. You brace yourself on his chest as you sink down onto him, your pussy swallowing his cock in one fluid motion. You wiggle on top of him, rolling your hips and smiling. Sajin is looking up at you, his eyes shining in awe.
“You’re so beautiful,” he murmurs. His hands find your waist and he squeezes down lightly before bucking up into you. He begins to thrust upward, fucking his cock deep into you. You arch your neck back, letting out an obscene moan as he fucks you. He splays his large hand out across your stomach, pressing into you as he slams himself into you. You begin to move in tandem with his thrusts, finding your rhythm. He threads his fingers with yours and pulls you close. Your breasts press against his chest as he kisses you, your sensitive nipples rubbing against his skin. He cups his hand around the back of your head tenderly, fingers running through your hair. You can feel heat rising in your body, starting in the pit of your stomach, spreading through your limbs. You’re coming, you realize, in shock.
“Sajin, I’m…I’m coming,” you manage to stutter. He pulls you close, cupping your face in his large, warm hands.
“Come for me,” he whispers before he kisses you. You let out a strangled sound as your orgasm crashes over you. You can feel your muscles contract with the sheer force of it. Sajin holds onto you and continues to thrust deeply inside of you, drawing your orgasm out even longer. “That’s right, you’re doing so good for me, so good,” he mumbles. You press your forehead against his own, your body twitching as you begin to come down from the high of your release. You can feel your heart pounding wildly in your chest as you continue to grind on him, searching for stimulation against your clit. Almost as though he has read your mind, his fingers find it, and he rubs soft little circles around your sensitive bud. You nearly collapse against him, breathless and as spineless as a fish.
Somehow, in one swift movement, Sajin manages to switch your positions without moving from inside of you. You’re suddenly on your back once more looking up at him. Gently, you reach up to cup his cheek with your hand. You summon the little energy you have left and you wrap your legs around him. “I want you to come inside of me,” you whisper.
Sajin nods as he looks deeply into your eyes. “I will,” he replies. “Fuck,” he moans. His lips make their way to the crook of your neck once more. You can feel his teeth as they ghost against your skin. He’s going to bite you again, you realize, but this time, harder than before. He’s hesitating, still unsure, pressing soft kisses against your skin and licking it. You reach up and curl your hand around the back of his head, mirroring what he had done to you only moments ago. You push his head gently against you, letting him know that you are okay.
When he comes, he sinks his teeth into your flesh and begins to suck a mark into your skin. The pain is sharp and you suck in a breath as your shoulder begins to sting. Sajin calls out your name, his voice thick with arousal. His hot tongue begins to lap against the bite and you realize that the pain is fading away. His entire body shakes and then he goes limp, wrapping an arm around you and burying his face in your neck. The two of you remain silent for a few minutes, waiting for your hearts to stop racing.
“Are you alright?” He asks, breaking the silence.
You blink softly and let out a raspy little chuckle. “Guess…” you tease.
He lifts his head and looks at you, concerned. “Did I hurt you?” He asks.
“I think I’m okay. My shoulder doesn’t hurt…where you bit me,” you say.
He smiles at you and nods. “My saliva…has small traces of a healing compound. It can temporarily numb pain, but the effects of it won’t last forever, at some point you should go see Lieutenant Isane so she can administer the proper aid.”
“I wonder how that conversation would go…excuse me Lieutenant would you mind healing this very big bite that Captain Komamura gave me while we—”
He lets out a loud laugh and kisses you.
“Maybe if you lick it some more it will heal…” you say with a giggle.
Sajin hums and kisses you again. “Maybe I will…” he says.
You reach for him, wanting him to wrap you in his arms. He does, and you allow yourself to relax against him, listening to the soothing sounds of his breathing.
“Thank you,” you say softly. He stirs and presses a kiss against your shoulder.
“For?”
You think about it for a moment, wondering what to say. You turn to face him and you smile. “For everything. For being so…for being you,” you say with a shy grin. His gaze softens and he smiles.
“I should be the one thanking you. I never thought I would…experience this type of bond in my lifetime,” he says softly. “You’ve given me so much,” he says. He entwines his fingers with yours and squeezes down on your hand. He brings it to his lips and tenderly kisses your knuckles.
You can feel your cheeks heating up, touched by his words. “So about that…healing compound…there are a few other spots that I could use some help with…” you say.
“Oh?” He asks, a wolfish grin curling on his lips. He leans in and kisses you. “Tell me where it hurts…” he says.
You feel that familiar stirring between your legs and you squeeze them together. You meet his gaze and smile.
“How about I show you?”