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CHAPTER 18
Krist's POV
"KRIST PERAWAT!"
I bolted up on my seat when someone screamed my name.
"I'm awake, and definitely not sleeping!" I said as I blink my blurry eyes, still with a hazy mind, trying to focus the person in front of me, which I assumed who called my name.
As my sight becomes clearer, the person that’s standing in front of me is tapping his shoe, crossing his arms, with an unimpressed face.
"Hehe~ Yes, prof?"
Prof. Nont just sighed and turned his back on me as he went in front of the class again.
"Next time, I will not tolerate sleeping students inside my class. Even if you are one of the top students in our department. This will be my last warning, Khun Krist Perawat, and I mean it.
Again! Your midterm exams or recitals for this semester will be in less than three months. I hope you'll prepare something that will worth your grades. Krist Perawat, in my office after class. Class dismissed!"
I close my eyes and groaned as I smack my head on my desk creating an audible thud.
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Dragging my feet, walking in to my dorm building's lobby as I deeply sighed, head looking down.
"Phi'? Are you okay? What happened?"
I look up as I saw Bright stood up straight from sitting on one of the sofas. Pacing fast to him as he engulfed me in a bear hug and squeezed me tight. I relieved a sigh, being comfortable in his arms.
He kissed the top of my head and asked me what happened.
"I slept." I said and pouted, my chin resting on his chest.
"Prof. Nont's class really bored you, that you slept?" He chuckled as he caresses his thumb on my cheeks.
"Come on. Let me help you to relieve your stress." Bright said, his voice raspy.
"Are you okay? Are you not feeling well? You sound like you're having a cold." I asked worriedly then touched his forehead and mine to compare our temperature, because he really sounds like he is not feeling well.
He groaned then suddenly laughed. I look at him confused why he suddenly laughed like a madman, and in the middle of the lobby, looking around and saw Khun Anuchit's shoulder shaking as he is trying to mask his laughs.
"Nothing, phi'. Let's just go." He said, shaking his head and grabbed my wrist, him leading us out.
"Bright, wait! Where are you taking me?" He looked back at me and smirked, getting inside the elevator and pressed our floor button.
"Let’s go anywhere and do what you want. But first, let’s change. Okay?” He ruffled my hair and smiled. I grinned widely at him and nodded. ‘Ohhh… this is going to be fun!’
“No backsies? Anywhere and anything I want?” I look at him expectantly, as his eyes are now reluctant at his offer. “Let’s seal it with a handshake.” I grabbed his hand, forced him to seal the deal. I’m already laughing evilly in my mind, even though I know it is very obvious of my wide, excited grin plastered on my face.
Before he could say anything, I bolted out on the elevator as it dings and opens. “We’ll meet at the lobby in 15 minutes! Don’t be late!” I said to Bright as I was running towards my room. I heard him shout back, “See ‘ya!” as I closed my door. ‘Now, time to change. Mwahaha! Can’t wait!’
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“Why didn’t we just use my bike for transportation? And out of all the choices there are, you picked a train. A very congested, over-populated – busy people tightly pressed in a small tube – train. Were you planning to torture me? Because I would say, a job very well done.”
I giggled at Bright complaining and ranting behind me. Like any other gentlemen, or just men at general, standing on the middle part holding onto the designated hanging holder. Obviously, I don't know what it's called because this is my first riding a train so, yeah. I already give the impression of how ignorant I am with these types of things so, I want to check some on my bucket list, starting with riding a train.
The train halted at its next station. Some people went out, yet a lot of them came in.
I flinched when an arm suddenly snakes on my waist so, I look back to call Bright for help when I saw his face inches from mine; sweats dropping from his creased forehead and his cheeks reddened due to the hot temperature. I feel bad now. I could see he is pretty uncomfortable with all the people pushing to get out and getting in. He grunted when hard pushes were thrown at our way that there was no space left between us.
His chest is tightly pressed against my back, his breathing audible near my sensitive ear.
"I really hope these people will stop pushing, or else- Fuck!" He suddenly groaned, and his heavy breathing.
"P'Krist, I apologize in advance if... if you feel uhm... something. I really can't help it. I'm really sorry." His voice sounded restricted with all his heavy breathing that I really can't understand what he was trying to say.
I just heard Bright apologizing near my ear telling me about feeling something which I don't kn–
My eyes widen with the realization of what he was talking about, with something hard and poking near my butt. I whip my head back looking at him, asking if that's what he meant of feeling something.
"Is that your dick poking at my ass right now?" I hissed at his face as he bit his lower lip and slowly nodded. He moaned loudly on my ear, gripping his hand on my waist, when the people at the back starting to push again.
“I am fighting for my life here. Why did he even decided to ride a train? And on rush hours where most transportations are occupied?! Fucking hell, that feels so good!"
Bright is hissing and ranting even if he is whispering, but unfortunately, his mouth is near my ear, which is very sensitive so, I heard his words clearly now. Even his subtle moans, grunts, and heavy breathing.
I don't know why, but the way his breaths brushing through my very sensitive ear, his hand still gripping tightly on my waist, and of course the main show: his hard, twitching dick rubbing and poking against my ass - getting me feeling very hot, my stomach flipping inside and my heart beating hard inside my chest.
‘Holy fucking shit! My dick is also starting to get hard with all of these happening so fast. Perfect! Now, he is sniffing my hair. Fucking great! Why did I choose the train again? This was not on the plan!’
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Bright’s POV
Passing through the sea of people also going out of the train as I’m holding P’Krist’s hand tightly.
‘Thank God, it was the longest 20 minutes of my life. I would have to say, that was the most intense and strength-consuming that had happened to me. I tell you; I was barely holding on to a thread of control.’
As we got out of the station, the gold and orange hue of the sky starts to darken as it was nearing 6 in the evening. We hailed a cab to drive near the Hua Hin Night Market. As we seated, I haven’t looked at P’Krist once, since the incident at the train.
‘News flash: It didn’t come down as I thought it would when we got out. It is still proudly up, until now. And I can’t for the love of the gods out there, I’ve noticed P’Krist not so subtly looking at me, with his sweaty, blushing face.’
“Stop squirming, w-would you? I-It is normal f-for men to uh— to feel that w-way when in a… what do call it? Yes! Compromising situation. I’m a guy, too, Bright. You don’t have to uh— be e-embarrassed about uhm… it.” Says the one who’s still stealing glances at me, blushing and sweating too much that is now looking like a freshly washed tomato.
After a moment of silence…
“I was hard, too, you know? You wouldn’t know that because—”
“I can only drop you off here. That will be 185 baht.”
P’Krist quickly paid the driver and went out as I was still dumbfounded with what I heard from him.
“Bright? Aren’t you coming? Hurry up, slowpoke!”
As I went out of the cab, I saw P’Krist staring at the mob of people, walking around aimlessly at the busy streets in the Night Market here in Hua Hin. He suddenly whips his head at me with his excited smile that illuminates up the evening, brighter than most lights in here.
I smiled back then held his hand, intertwined tightly.
“Let’s go?”
He nodded still excited as we started to walk around, going from stall-to-stall, trying and eating different types of street foods, browsing unusual kinds of accessories and such.
“Bright! There’s a small stage at the center. Maybe someone will perform. Come on, let’s watch!” he grabs my hand as we pass through and stops not three meters away from the mini-stage.
Looking at the note on the side, “Phi, I think it’s an open mic kind of—”
I look up on the stage and there I saw P’Krist, sitting on the stool, with a guitar on his hand and lap, strumming.
Looking around and noticed little by little people are stopping and looking to my phi’ on stage. I look back at him with his sweet smile, his dimples peeking, as he started to close his eyes and hum.
*NOW PLAYING: Dandelion - Ruth B. (Acoustic Vers.)
Maybe, it's the way you say my name
Maybe, it's the way you play your game
But it's so good, I've never known anybody like you
But it's so good, I've never dreamed of nobody like you
And I've heard of a love that comes once in a lifetime
And I'm pretty sure that you are that love of mine.
I had no idea that as he began to sing, my heart would begin to beat faster and louder, like if it was acting independently and wanting to go up to P'Krist and hold him. Even though there were many onlookers who came to see and listen to my phi' sing, it still felt like the first time he played in my dorm room, just the two of us savoring the moment. I can only see him and hear him above my heartbeat, which is much louder.
Podd’s POV
'Cause I'm in a field of dandelions
Wishing on every one that you'll be mine, mine
And I see forever in your eyes
I feel okay when I see you smile, smile
Wishing on dandelions all of the time
Praying to God that one day you'll be mine
Wishing on dandelions all of the time, all of the time
Zooming in, on Krist's face while looking at my phone. Innocent, exuberant smile while facing the camera. His adorable dimple and crinkling of the eyes. Who could resist falling in love with someone like him? He is incredibly simple to adore. ‘Do I truly love him? Or is it just to fill this void in this heart of mine?’
I shut my eyes and ponder on earlier.
‘I am aware that I have moved on. He moved on from me to focus on his business. I wasn't worthy of taking a risk on and fighting for. He's here now. What for? I was alright before.’
Looking up at the moon, which was shining brightly in the pitch-black night sky, I heaved a loud sigh.
‘Why did you even come back, P’Earth?’
Bright’s POV
I think that you are the one for me
'Cause it gets so hard to breathe
When you're looking at me, I've never felt so alive and free
When you're looking at me, I've never felt so happy
And I've heard of a love that comes once in a lifetime
And I'm pretty sure that you are that love of mine
His hazelnut orbs met my darker ones. I’ve never felt like this before, not to anyone, but just to him. The lyrics pierced through my heart and soul. As he sang those lyrics, he stared at me, like he is staring in to my soul, telling me that he’s happy that he is with me.
‘Oh, P’Krist! If you only know what I’m feeling right now, we wouldn’t be right here as we would be somewhere just the two of us.’
I have never dreamed or even thought that I will be in a relationship, much less in love, and that of a guy. My sweet, innocent, ball of sunshine, cute, adorable, and other words that describes my wonderful man. My once boring and uneventful life, became interesting, lively, and happy again because of him.
‘Yes, love. You are my only and always will be that love of mine. I am always yours, phi’. I love you, my P’Krist.’
Godt’s POV
'Cause I'm in a field of dandelions
Wishing on every one that you'll be mine, mine
And I see forever in your eyes
I feel okay, when I see you smile, smile
Wishing on dandelions all of the time
Praying to God that one day you'll be mine
Wishing on dandelions all of the time, all of the time
Walking out the org. room, I noticed a picture frame with the current org. officers. Particularly, a certain face that caught me off-guard the first time I saw that cute smile. I chuckled unconsciously as I caress my thumb on his smiling face against the glass.
I know I’m too late to tell him how I feel, but I wish him the best and his happiness.
‘You will be my forever ‘what if’, Krist.’
Stepping back as I decided to just move on and love him from afar. Went out the room and locked the door, leaving my unrequited feelings for him and will start to move forward from now on. But as of now, my feelings are still here.
‘Someday, I’ll find someone. Someday…’
Krist’s POV
Dandelion, into the wind you go
Won't you let my darling know?
Dandelion, into the wind you go
Won't you let my darling know that?
I didn’t plan to sing this specific song but when Bright looked at me with his loving and sincere eyes, I just started to close my eyes and hummed the melody. But now, even though it is very crowded, all I can see is him, standing with his signature smirk and eyes lighting up, looking at me. I can’t help but to dedicate this song to him.
I know I lack so much in this relationship, but not even once did Bright made me feel any guilt. He did all the things that makes me comfortable. Even though sometimes I seem whiny and throws tantrums, he is there to pacify and gives me what I want, even I didn’t say anything. He is willing to do and give everything for me. I am so blessed and thankful that he loves me. I promised myself to love this man unconditionally, just like him loving me, reciprocating what he has done for me.
‘Don’t worry, Bright. I will always love you as long as you love me. I may be slow in terms of our relationship, but I will do everything I can for you. I love you, Bright.’
Earth’s POV
I'm in a field of dandelions
Wishing on every one that you'll be mine, mine
And I see forever in your eyes
I feel okay when I see you smile, smile
Wishing on dandelions all of the time
Praying to God that one day you'll be mine
Wishing on dandelions all of the time, all of the time
Looking through the city lights in my floor to ceiling window from my office, musing through my head with a lot of 'what ifs', if Podd and I didn't break up or I even pursued my dream to be in the army.
Straight up drank the scotch, the bitterness and cold went pass my throat, sighing.
Still hoping, wishing, that he will be mine even after all these are happening, that even with all the struggles and problems we'll be facing, I want him to be with me always, just like the old times.
Old times that I'm re-living just to keep me going in my life. But seeing him happy and smiling, that's all I ever wanted for him. Even if I'm not the reason of his smiles anymore.
‘But I always wish, I’m one of the reasons and the receiving end of your smiles, Podd. I’m still waiting for you to come back, my love.’
Bas’s POV
Seeing him even in his stoic and strict aura, he still helps other people and cutely smiles at them shying away from thanking him. For the past 2 years since I saw him the first time, the only difference, I was the receiving end of his help and smiles. His charming and cute smile was - is the reason for this unrequited love of mine.
"Bas! Are you okay? I've been calling you, but you suddenly zoned out." He asked, with his sparkling eyes staring at me.
I nodded and smiled my widest. "I'm good, P'Godt. I'm sorry, I was just thinking of something. Let's go?" I sheepishly smiled then turned my back at him, with him following behind me.
I'm in a field of dandelions
Wishing on every one that you'll be mine, mine…