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Remus felt like his heart stopped beating for a moment,eyes glued on the faded bite mark on your rib. This couldn't be real,his eyes must be deceiving him,he must be dreaming or someone is just playing a sick joke,game with his mind. You couldn't be…He stood there,mouth agape,the shock not quite leaving him yet. It felt as if time had stopped for him. He closed his eyes for a moment,trying to process the new learned information and when he did ,he saw the silhouette of his own body,the dark shadow had hung its head low and when it tried to move ,rusty gears of metal started moving slowly,the screeching sounds they made sent a wave of nausea all over his body.
Remus felt as if someone had used some kind of spell to crush his organs,he just couldn't comprehend the fact that you were a werewolf. Its not like the reaction his body had to this information happened due to that ,no,it happened because he realised how much he had fucked up,all the things he had said in self hatred,without even thinking for a moment that you could have been in the same position as him,had hurt you. Guilty. He locked eyes with you,the tears uncontrollably running down your cheeks,them having flushed from the action. He wanted to move,he wanted to wipe your tears,he wanted to hold you close and tell you that it was okay,apologise to you for all the pain and suffering he had put you through but at the same time ,when he tried to move he noticed this enormous wall,full of cracks and he realised what it meant. You had put that wall up to protect yourself and all the hatred you had received,had created a new crack on it and he be dammned if he didn't hate the uncountable number of cracks on it.
To the naked eye ,it might seem as if it would be easy to move through that wall but that wasn't the case. He couldn't ,even if he wanted to. He couldn't move because he was holding back. He was on a rollercoaster and the wild ride he had hopped on,made him want to hop off as fast as possible because the emotions were eating him alive from the inside . Damn it. How could he even comfort you,he had hurt you to the point of no going back. He had been a hypocrite,he was everything you had said about him. But what he hated the most was the simple fact that to you,he had been what other people had been to him his whole life and he hated himself for that.
He heard you sniffle one last time,you wiped your tears with the sleeves of your shirt,threw him one last look and turned your back on him. He knew that if you as much as took one step out of his door,he would lose you forever. He did not know just exactly when his muscles started working,he did not recall having paced after you,he did not remember grabbing you firmly by your wrist and pulling you closer to him. Using a non verbal spell he had slammed the door close and backed you against it. You had furrowed your eyebrows at him,in pure confusion,silently asking for an answer.
He couldn't find the right words to explain this big misunderstanding you found yourselves in,so he chose not to speak,instead he let the actions do the talking. He took a deep breath,exhaled it and closed his eyes as he removed his shirt,revealing his scarred upper body to you. You put two and two together pretty quickly as you scanned his whole upper body,your eyes taking him in. Remus bit his upper lip nervously. Sure this wasn't a proper apology but it would excuse his behaviour in a way or he hopped that you would understand why he had acted the way he did.
There's no way...no...this was a joke right.There was no way in hell professor Lupin was also a lycanthrope. Just...unbelievable. He spoke no word yet no word were needed...he was a werewolf,the fact should have made you feel sad ,because another wizard had been infected with the same incurable disease yet for some reason,it had the opposite effect. It brought you closure...it made you feel...accepted.
You stared at him under you lashes,eyebrows furrowed yet your expression reflected vulnerability. His expression was neutral,he was good at keeping poker faces. None of you was speaking a word and perhaps the silence was needed in this moment as you both communicated through your eyes. You didn't realise when exactly but the professor had clashed his lips with yours and on reflex you did return it,enjoying the awaited moment,even if it did not last long.Fuck.You pushed him away and slapped him firmly against the face,he had put you through so much and you were so confused with what you wanted right now.
"Well deserved." The professor smirked as he rubbed the spot,his eyes were filled with nothing but lust and you couldn't help but feel your knees get weak at that. You needed him right now. All the times you had longed at the idea of him,made you miss him,want him…You had time to properly discuss later about your situation,right now you just wanted to feel him.
"Definitely." Some may call it weakness,but you couldn't care less. You grabbed the professor by his belt and pulled him closer to you,crashing your lips on his.
Point is,you had always thought that a make out session with Remus Lupin would be gentle,slow,romantic in a way but this...definitely wasn't it. You both were kissing each other as if it was the last thing you two would do on this earth,your kisses were needy,hurried. His touch on your skin as he explored set a fire in your skin,making it feel as the flames which had been lit would never perish. You had wrapped a hand around his neck and the other stayed on his belt,you needed him as close as possible and clearly he thought the same.
The professor moved his lips to your neck,making your breath catch,he took a deep breath through his nose and exhaled it,the hot air making you have goosebumps all over your body.You started palming his erection as he slowly thrust in your hand,his breath getting heavier by the minute.
"Fuck." He muttered as he gently bit on your shoulder,making your muscles tense. He paused his movements and locked eyes with you,he had this expression on his face which made him irresistible. His lips were plumped,his cheekbones were covered in a light shade of red,his hair was messy.
"I'd love to take my time and worship this body of yours as it fits you,but can't resist anymore. Need you right now." He wrapped a firm hand around your waist." And I sincerely hope you're feeling the same way." His chest was heaving up and down fast,you licked your lips as you stared at him.
"This is going to happen,don't think I've forgiven you though." You were fast to unhook his belt and throw it somewhere on the floor. To your words he ran his tongue over his upper teeth cheekily and next thing you know he's taking the rest of your clothes off,all the while kissing you.He attacked your neck as he caressed his hands over your upper body,slowly inching lower,spreading your folds and rubbing circles on your clit,making your breath get heavier.
"So fuckin' wet." He murmured under his breath,shoving a finger inside your cunt,all the while staring at you,wanting to see just how good his touch made you feel. Your mouth was hanging open,eyes squinted almost shut as he shoved yet another finger and immediately found the spots that would definitely make you reach your orgasm. The heavy eye contact,the concentrated look on his face,and that little smirk that he was trying to hide,made your abdomen clench and your walls flutter around him.
"Fuck-" you moaned in pleasure as he cocked his fingers inside of you,making you let out those cries of pleasure which were music to his ears. With shakky hands you were able to find his cock and gently started stroking it,using the precum on his tip as a lube. Suddenly you got a feeling of deja vu,his office,the first time you actually got to experience pleasure with the professor.
"What was that phrase?" You sighed in pleasure then immediately took short quick breaths." You make me cum and I make you cum?" You grinned slightly as you sped up your movements ,the professor groaning in pleasure.
"So you can pay attention when you want to ,huh?" The professor grinned as he bit his lower lip. He immediately slammed his lips in yours,both of you swallowing each other's moans.
"When it's something that benefits me,definitely." You licked your lips,then immediately threw your head back as you felt your orgasm coming. Your legs started trembling,your chest was heaving faster and you were able to mutter only four words to which you prayed to Merlin the answer would be yes,as you had zero control over your body." Can I cum,please?" You begged and the professor was huffing in your ear as his own orgasm was close.
"Cum for me." His hot breath hit your ear and that's all you needed before the feeling of euphoria took all over your body and you finally reached your orgasm. It took you about thirty seconds or so to snap back to reality,and the professor was simply staring at your state,proud look on his face.
"That was-" before you could even finish your sentence he had thrown you over his shoulder and in a blink of eyes ,you found yourself laying on top of his desk,him between your legs.
"Dirty fucking tease." He wrapped a hand over his cock and stroked it gently."What happened to the phrase?" He slapped his tip right on your over sensitive clit,making you jolt. "I was going to be gentle but whores like you don't deserve it." He spat on his hand,then gave his tip a good rub and the next thing you know,your eyes are rolling in pleasure as he slipped his whole length in ,with no warning." Unless I cum,you're not allowed to." He moaned as he stayed still,grabbing hold of your hips so he could make it easier to fuck you into oblivion and punishing you for stopping your movements on his dick as you came." Do I make myself clear?"
"Yes sir." Usually you weren't one for being degraded but damn it,it those filthy words coming out of his mouth didn't make you feel some kind of way.
"Good girl." With that said,he slowly set up a rhythm,slow and steady at first then when he saw that you were 'relaxing' a bit too much and were barely vocal he started speeding up his thrusts and put more force behind them. The switch up was insane,from simple huffs,you were now moaning like crazy,he was hitting all them good spots inside of you,making you grab the desk for support which seemed useless. It was as if his only purpose was simply to destroy you and all the pleasure that was coming from his harshness,made it just more enjoyable.
"Tell me." He thrusted so deep inside of you ,you almost saw the stars. You eyes were on him,he had this predator look on his eyes,which made you even wetter." How much do you like it when I fuck you?"He changed his pace again and from the nice slow thrusts,his pace now was ruthless.The slapping sounds were echoing in the room. To think that him,the one who had put up all those unbreakable rules the first time you wanted to have sex with him,was asking this question. The tables had turned. He broke both rules,he kissed you,and he definitely fucked you. The whole idea that he had broken the rules,made your walls clench around his cock. This was such a fucking turn on.
"Very much-" you cried in pleasure.
"What was that?" He grabbed hold of your thighs one more time and this time,he placed them on his shoulders,making him go even deeper inside of you.
"I fucking love it." You voice cracked as he continued his movements. Your back arched due to the pleasure,fucking hell. Him ,inside of you,made you go feral.
"Such.a.tight.pussy." He accompanied every word with a thrust. His stamina was definitely something else. He had been going on for a while and it seemed as if he just couldn't get enough. Your legs were starting to get numb by now and the slight friction to your clit ,when he snapped his hips,was inching you closer to yet another orgasm.
"Fuck ,fuck ,fuck-" you moaned,the pleasure was so good you almost felt like crying from it. This was just incredible ,he exceeded your expectations. Older or not,you were sure that after he was done with you,you'd never be able to fuck someone else.
"I'm feeling you so much." He groaned as he continued to pound you mercilessly." It's as if this pussy of yours is sucking me in,can't get enough." He moved your legs again,this time folding them on your chest,bending forward so he could sneak a quick kiss and then continued his movements.
"Please,please,please "you begged. You were so close,your mind was hazy,your voice was needy but the look on your face just added more fuel to the fire,he knew what you wanted,yet he didn't give it to you.
"Not until I say so." He said that,yet his groans were more frequent and louder,he was definitely close,his self control was something else because any other man would have cummed by now.
"Pleaseee.I just can't-" you moved your head to the side ,eyes shut close,trying your hardest not to cum without his permission. "Please." You whined
"No." He simply stated." Gotta work for it darlin'." He grinned,this teasing asshole." Feel like swallowing?" He questioned as he kept his eyes on you. You opened your eyes, taking him in and damn it if ravished Remus Lupin wasn't the hottest person you had set your eyes on.
"Mhm." You nooded. He pulled out from you,making you whine in complaint. You just got robbed of your orgasm but knowing him,he'd make up for it. He sat on his chair,the latter squeaking under his weight. You got on your knees and replaced his hand with yours,palming him at first,then putting your mouth to good use. At first,you palmed what your mouth couldn't take,bobbing your head in a rhythm which he certainly liked by those groans he was letting out.He used his hands to hold your hair,so it wouldn't annoy you or get in the way. As your throat relaxed,you were finally able to deep throat him and his moans were certainly motivating you to not stop. His cock was twitching,he was so close.
"It's coming." He said as he threw his head back,not a second later ,he spilled his cum inside of your mouth,you swallowed as you kept going down on him. Of course he wouldn't be able to take much of it,his dick was already sensitive so he took it on his own hands to remove you from his cock,groaning loudly as he enjoyed his orgasm.
He closed his eyes as he relaxed,you were still on your knees,looking at him,adoring the state you had put him. He was like this because of you and you couldn't help but feel proud with yourself. He felt eyes on him,but needing a little more time to relax,he simply patted his thigh and you got the message. You raised yourself on your feet and then sat on his lap,making yourself comfortable.
"You were amazing." His voice was raspy,you couldn't help the proud smirk on your face. He tapped his lips with his index finger,motioning for you to kiss him. So ,without think twice about it,you crashed your lips with his,losing yourself on them.You could make out with him forever and certainly never get bored of it.
“We-“ you broke the kiss first,locking eyes with him and took a deep breath.” Need to talk.”
“Certainly.” He cleared his throat.” Sorry for jumping straight to -“ he formed circles with his index finger on the air,motioning the sex session you two just had. He blushed and you found that cute.” Couldn’t help myself.”
“Makes two of us.” You smiled at him,wanting to make him feel relaxed after noticing the way he had noticeably tensed up.
You ended up having the longest conversation,hours passed in a blink of eyes and you hadn’t even realised that. He explained everything to you from the very beginning,how he had become a werewolf,he told you about the struggles he had had throughout the years as he grew up,told you about the war,information which you had no knowledge of,about the real reason as to why he accepted the job here. You did the same,you shared your side of the story,how everything started,from the day you got bitten until now. He was a good listener,he kept you close as you told the story,comforting you in his own way. Both sides apologised,the professor obviously felt at fault for the harsh words he had said and kept apologising until you had to physically restrain him from speaking by clasping his mouth shut. You understood why he had said what he had said and that everything was okay between the two of you now.What was left was clearly a more thorough conversation about your situation,what was going to happen from now on?
"Rather distracted aren't we,Y/N?" the professor said as he smiled casually,resting his weight on his desk,arms folded on his chest.He had asked you a question which you had not heard."Come here."He motioned for you to approach him with his middle and index finger.You furrowed your eyebrows and glared at him,muscles barely managing to help you get up. You gathered what little strength you had and walked into his direction,fists clenching at your sides,"What's wrong? He questioned."You look rather tired."He could fool everyone there with that tone of his,acting all concerned as if he didn't know the reason.He literally had his way with you in his office over thirty minutes ago,made you cum so many times you lost count and he had the audacity to tease you in front of the class.
" Rough quidditch training,sir." You flashed him a fake smile,he licked his lips as he grinned at you. Remus bombed you with some quick questions about the last chapters you had studied on,you answered to every single question without any difficulty,after all he had personally taught you during your private classess which now that you think about it,you two had argued a long time ago that you didn't need them.He had been helpful,you appreciated his help.You would never say no to free private lessons and hot steaming sex with Remus Lupin.
"Professor can I ask a question?" Jen raised her hand as the rest of the class were packing their bags to leave.
"Yes ,Jennifer?" asked Remus as he broke the eye contact you two were sharing.
"Will you give tutoring lessons during the summer?" she twirled a strand of her hair and gave him the eyes, resulting in you rolling yours.You had enough with her bullshit already.Remus smiled and raised his left hand,conncecting his thumb with his ring finger,poiting at the very promise ring he had put on.
"About time I spend some time with my lovely fiancee.She will be furious if I deal with school related stuff during the summer break,and as cute as she might be when she's mad"he chuckled as he glanced at you briefly."I don't wanna deal with that."
"Wait-you're engaged?" Jen's jaw hit the floor,then she paled visibly and lowered her head in embarrasment.
That he was.You two had made it official with your close people,your family,which ended up being way more supportive than you would had thought,especially your mum.Professor Dumbledore,had helped in finding a nice cozy place to celebrate the engagement ,under the condition that until you graduate,you would need to keep the relationship a secret.Professor McGonagall was not very happy ,mostly because of the age gap but after an interference from uninvited professor Snape,him explaining about you two being what they called 'mates' ,she had supported your decision.You two laid low for the past weeks,at least when people were around.One benefit your relationship had,given that you two discovered about the fact that you two were mates,the effects that the transformations had had on your body were lighter. Turned out ,the past months your transformations had been rough only due to your mate being close to you and not making a certain bond with him.
The class was empty by now,Remus was collecting his papers from the desk and putting them inside his bag.You glanced at the door,noticing that no one was there and slowly approached him.
"Excuse me professor Lupin." You smiled at him and he locked eyes with you,running his tongue over his upper teeth.
"Yes,miss L/N?" you wrapped your fingers around his tie seductively and pulled him closer to you,crashing your lips with his,catching him by surprise.He smiled through the kiss as he slowly wrapped his arm around your waist so he could keep you closer to him.You loved the taste of his lips,his scent when standing so close to him always drove you insane.You kept a steady rhythm as you kissed him,both of you taking your time.You broke the kiss eventually,biting his lip lightly."Not that I'm complaining,but what was that for?"
"Shutting Jen and her stupid flirting down."
He smiled,placed his hand at the side of your face and formed soothing circles on your cheek."You know I only have eyes for you my darling,no one else." He gave you a quick kiss on your forehead,making you immediately melt. Yep. He definitely was worth it,if life was supposed to not be spent alone,you were grateful that you got stuck with him.