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One of the seniors is hosting a big party Saturday night. It’s not the kind of event for junior high students since even university students will be in attendance but Suguru, Shoko, and Megumi attend the party anyway.
Prior to the party, Megumi invited Suguru over to his house where he helped Suguru pick out an outfit for tonight. Suguru is still unsure about the short skirt and spaghetti-strapped shirt but he goes with it.
Suguru really wanted to stay at home because he’s still sad about what happened with Satoru last night. He hasn’t talked to Satoru since last night and it makes him feel worse. Instead of staying home and feeling sorry for himself, he decided to just get over it.
He’s not over it for real but he’s going to pretend like he is.
Alcohol is being served at the party, unsurprisingly. Megumi lets Suguru drink from his cup so that neither of them drinks too much while Shoko has a beer. Suguru knows drinking is bad, and he has to admit that he doesn’t like the way it tastes that much. He’s anxious throughout the party because he doesn’t want to get caught by his mom.
Still, it’s kind of fun to break the rules. Suguru is starting to learn that.
The party is rowdy and they see a lot of insane things happening; like people making out in public, topless girls walking around upstairs, and drugs being passed around and used.
Suguru sees why junior high students shouldn’t come to these types of parties.
“I’ll be back,” Megumi says. They’ve been at the party for over an hour. “My boyfriend wants to see me.”
“You have a boyfriend?” Suguru asks in surprise. He has never had a boyfriend so he’s always interested when people mention their boyfriends. “Is he in our grade?”
“My boyfriend graduated last year.”
Suguru wants to know more about dating someone much older but he doesn’t want to hold Megumi up. Megumi tells them he’ll text the group chat they made for that night if he ends up leaving the party early.
Suguru and Shoko go into the basement where some people are playing a drinking game.
Shoko joins the drinking game so Suguru sits on the couch and watches her play. He really wants to text Satoru. He’s thought about him all day. He wishes Satoru would call him so that he can know if he’s mad at him or not.
Feeling someone sit next to him, Suguru looks over and his heart skips a beat when he sees it’s Naoya.
“I like your skirt,” Naoya whispers into his ear. His breath is hot, and it smells like he drank a lot of alcohol.
Suguru touches the ends of his skirt nervously. “Thank you.” He had a feeling he would see Naoya tonight but that isn’t why he came.
Looking around, Suguru thinks about the real reason why he came here. It wasn’t just to prevent himself from being at home sad. Satoru mentioned there would be a party tonight but it doesn’t look like he’s even here.
“Do you want to go somewhere quiet so we can talk?” Naoya asks, making Suguru pay attention to him again.
This is what Suguru has been waiting for. He’s been waiting for the chance to talk to Naoya alone. He still likes Naoya. He thinks he does, at least. So, he smiles and nods.
Naoya grins and his eyes look scary for a moment. Suguru thinks he imagined it. He takes Suguru by the hand and leads him out of the basement. Suguru tries to lock eyes with Shoko but she’s too engaged in the game to notice.
They hold hands during the walk through the mass of people and up the stairs to where the bedrooms are. Naoya’s hand is cold and clammy and Suguru can’t help but think of what it felt like when Satoru held his hand when they were at the mall. Satoru’s hand was very warm. Suguru misses his touch.
When Suguru sees Naoya is about to take him into one of the bedrooms, he freezes up.
“Can we talk out here?” Suguru asks, looking around the hallway anxiously. His instincts are screaming at him to run.
“I don’t want anyone to interrupt us. Don’t be scared.”
Suguru is scared. He’s very scared all of a sudden. That’s why he should have tried to protest again but he just quietly follows Naoya into the bedroom. He’s too scared to even run away. He’s never been in a situation like this so he isn’t sure how to react.
“What do you want to talk about?” Suguru asks. He stays close to the door, thinking he can make a quick escape if he needs to.
But that smart move turns into a dumb mistake quickly.
Naoya presses Suguru against the door and starts to feel under his skirt, touching his thighs. “You’re so pretty.” He squeezes Suguru’s ass until it hurts. “I bet your pussy gets so wet when It’s fucked.”
A wave of nausea hits Suguru. His eyes fill with tears and a switch inside of him is flipped. Instead of crying, he grits his teeth angrily. “Get off me!” He stomps on Naoya’s foot and elbows him in the face when his head lowers.
Suguru was afraid, and he still is, but he’s not a weak or spineless person in general.
Naoya stumbles back in shock. “Bitch!”
Hurriedly, Suguru opens the door and runs out. He almost makes it out of the hallway when Naoya grabs him roughly from behind and jerks him up, rattling his small body angrily. He’s acting so scary and aggressive that it leaves Suguru stunned.
This is the person he’s had a crush on this whole time? Suguru cries angry tears. How could he have liked someone this nasty?
“I like my bitches with a little fight in them,” Naoya laughs as he starts to touch under Suguru’s skirt again. “This is going to be fun.”
“Put him down or I’ll knock your fucking teeth down your throat,” someone snarls.
Suguru’s heart is pounding hard and loud. He can only blankly stare at the new person who joins them in the hallway.
“Satoru?” Naoya asks in shock. “Leave me alone! I’m having fun!”
Satoru starts walking down the hall, his hands balled into tight fists, the veins in his arms are pronounced. He walks up to them. “Put him down,” he says again. His voice is deep and assertive, sending a shiver through Suguru. “Or I’m going to fucking kill you.”
Suguru can feel Naoya flinch from how harsh Satoru’s words are. Even Naoya is intimidated by Satoru. But Naoya just laughs it off as if he’s not afraid.
This whole time Suguru thought Naoya was superior to Satoru in every way despite what the school’s statistics said but it’s obvious who the more assertive alpha is. Naoya is trying so hard to appear unafraid because someone else is around. But deep down inside, he’s scared.
When Satoru takes a step forward as if he’s going to hit Naoya, Naoya quickly puts Suguru down. But he does so in a harsh manner and Suguru almost falls face forward. But Satoru catches him and hugs him while Suguru hides his face in Satoru’s shirt.
“If I see you anywhere near him again you’ll regret it,” Satoru threatens.
“You’ll lose your scholarship if you get into another fight,” Naoya stutters. “You can’t touch me!”
“If there’s no evidence how will anyone prove the crime? No body, no murder.”
Naoya audibly gulps. He runs off, brushing past Satoru as he leaves them in the hallway.
Even though Naoya is gone, Suguru is still shaking.
“Are you hurt anywhere?” Satoru asks. “I’m sorry that happened. I tried to make you stop liking him.”
“You tried to help me…” Suguru sniffles. “I’m so stupid,” he cries.
“You’re young and naive. That’s not the same thing as being stupid.”
“Why didn’t you just tell me he was that way?”
“You wouldn’t have believed me.”
Suguru hates how true that is. He was convinced that Naoya was perfect. Naoya doesn’t have piercings or tattoos, he doesn’t get into fights, and no one associates him with gangs. He’s considered to be a good, upstanding student. But underneath all of that, he’s terrible.
Suguru learned the hard way that things are not as they seem. It’s a lesson he’ll never forget.
“Naoya has never been told no by anyone besides me,” Satoru explains. “His parents spoil him and people suck up to him. He takes what he wants because he knows he can.”
“Can we leave?” Suguru wants to be far away from this place. “Please…”
“I’ll take you home.”
“Can…I go home with you?”
“You sure?“
Suguru doesn’t want to go home. His mom is there and she’ll want to know what happened. He’d rather get in trouble for staying out all night than letting her find out what happened.
“I want to stay with you tonight,” Suguru says.
Satoru picks Suguru up and carries him like a bride through the house. So many people look at them as they pass. Even Shoko and Megumi see them. Suguru can hear people whispering but he closes his eyes and hides his face in the crook of Satoru’s neck.
Satoru smells like cigarettes and alcohol but Suguru doesn’t mind the smell because he can still smell Satoru’s scent. The drive to Satoru’s apartment is long and quiet. Suguru stares at his lap, trying not to think about what Naoya did to him.
He doesn’t even know what alpha and omega do behind closed doors but he knows he didn’t want to do it like that, especially not with Naoya. His past fantasies of spending time alone with Naoya consisted of them talking about things they like and maybe holding hands or a kiss on the cheek.
But he knows Naoya wasn’t interested in doing any of those things. He thinks about what Naoya said about his pussy. He knows that is the bad version of his kitty, and when Naoya said it he felt sick to his stomach.
“I ran away when I was 13,” Satoru says when they’re on the elevator inside his building. “Joined a gang and did a lot of messed up things. Then my dad found me and paid off my debts with the Boss I worked for when I was fifteen. I had to catch up on my academics and prove myself to my father after that. But sometimes I still help out my old friends from the gang because I owe them a lot."
“Why did you run away?”
“I didn’t want to be in this messed up family. But I realized I couldn’t run away from it.”
Suguru wonders why Satoru is telling him all this sudden but he likes that Satoru trusts him enough to tell him personal things. It’s nice knowing more about him.
It’s dim in Satoru’s apartment so Suguru can’t see much of it but he can see that most of it is covered in big windows.
“Do you want to take a shower? I’ll get you a change of clothes.”
Suguru does want to take a shower. His skin feels dirty. Every time he thinks of Naoya’s words he feels filthy.
He goes to shower and doesn’t get out until the water is cold and he doesn’t feel so disgusting anymore. He puts on a big t-shirt that Satoru gives him. It’s big enough to stop at the top of his knees. Before he leaves the bathroom, he texts Shoko and Megumi back to let them know that he’s safe. They’re worried about him after seeing Satoru carry him out of the party.
He and Satoru get into bed and Suguru lays on Satoru’s chest as they both stare out of the window. The city’s lights are pretty at night.
Suguru wants to sleep and forget but he can’t sleep. He likes how warm and safe Satoru’s arms feel. It doesn’t help that Satoru is caressing his arm with his finger and nuzzling him.
“Is this okay?” Satoru whispers. “I understand if you don’t want to be touched right now.”
“It’s okay.” Suguru waits for the silence to pass by for a while longer before he can no longer hold it in. “Are all alphas like that? Do they all…just want to do stuff to an omega’s kitty?”
“An omega’s kitty?”
Suguru nods. He points to where his kitty is.
Satoru chuckles. “You’re so cute, Suguru.” He hugs Suguru tighter. “You make it really hard for me to behave but then I remember how innocent you are so I resist.”
“Is that what you want? You want to do stuff with me?“
Does Satoru want the same thing Naoya wanted?
“It’s not just about sex for me, Suguru.”
“What do you want with me?”
“I want you to be safe and happy forever. I want to be by your side to ensure that happens, too.”
By his side? That could mean anything.
“You want to be my friend?” Suguru asks.
Satoru sighs. He so sounds frustrated. “Yeah. That’s what I want. Things will be better that way anyway…”
Suguru could ask Satoru what he means by that. He can even ask him if he really just wants to be friends even though last night he said he has feelings for him. But Suguru doesn’t want to ask these things because he’s scared. He doesn’t know what he’s scared of. He’s just scared.
The next day, Suguru’s mom grounds him for a month for staying out until morning. She makes him turn off his phone at a certain time every night, he can’t leave the house, and he has to come home straight from school and martial arts. She even monitors him by putting a parental device on his phone to make sure he doesn’t break the rules.
He and Satoru don’t get to hang out as much because of this but they still meet up daily for lunch. They never talk about what happened the night of the party either.
Suguru’s punishment period lasts right up until holiday break so Suguru brings Satoru’s Christmas gift to school with him the day before they’re supposed to be let out.
They meet on the rooftop like always. Suguru gives Satoru his gift after he finishes his bento lunch.
“You should start wearing a scarf when it’s cold,” Suguru says as he watches Satoru pick the dark blue scarf out of the gift bag. “You never wear one.”
Satoru stares at the scarf. “You knitted this?”
“Yeah. It was kind of fun. I won’t make a hobby of it though.” Suguru likes martial arts and puzzle games more. “Do you like it?”
“It’s soft. Can you help me put it on?”
Suguru laughs. “You don’t know how to put a scarf on?” He’s used to having to help Satoru with simple tasks. The alpha is helpless without him. “Give it here.”
Satoru lowers his head so that Suguru can reach. He’s sitting on a bench so he doesn’t have to lower it that much. Suguru unravels the scarf and he puts it around Satoru’s neck, wrapping it around twice.
“Do you like it?” Suguru asks again.
“I love it.” Satoru lifts his head and smiles at Suguru. “It’s the best gift.”
Suguru blushes. He really likes Satoru’s smile. “Don’t lose it,” he says. “I won’t make you another one.”
“I’ll never lose it.”
“Did you get me a gift?” Suguru playfully asks. He’s more playful around Satoru these days.
“Yeah, I did.” Satoru reaches into his bag. “Turn around. It’s a surprise.”
Suguru wasn't actually expecting a gift. He turns around and waits anxiously. Satoru tells him to lift his hair, so he does. Feeling something cold touch his neck, Suguru looks down and catches a glimpse of silver.
“I remembered you said you like snowflakes…”
“I do…” Once the necklace is secured. Suguru touches the sparkling snowflake pendant. “Is this real?”
“Yeah it’s sterling silver.”
“Satoru, it’s too expensive!” Suguru turns around to show his disapproval.
“Maybe I should tick you off more so that you’ll say my name.”
Suguru didn’t notice that he slip up. He covers his mouth. When Satoru laughs, Suguru tries to kick him. But Satoru just pulls him into a hug.
“I wish I didn’t have to go home for this holiday,” Satoru says softly. “I want to see you while school is out.”
Suguru can never resist Satoru’s hugs. He puts his attacks on hold. “We can text and…maybe talk on the phone if you want.” They’ve been hanging out every day during lunch and have hung out outside of school yet he still gets flustered. “We don’t have to though…”
“I’m going to call you so much you’ll get annoyed with me.” Satoru laughs as he pets Suguru’s hair gently.
Suguru wants to tell Satoru that no matter how much he acts annoyed he’s never really annoyed with him. He just hugs Satoru tighter instead.
“I really love my Christmas present…Satoru. Thank you.”
Satoru smiles like he won the lottery. “I had to get a special gift for my special…friend…” He looks away from him. “We should head back. Class will be starting again soon.”
Suguru thinks about Satoru’s comment for the remainder of the day, and even when school is out for break he keeps thinking about it until he snaps and has to consult an expert.
“He’s into you,” Megumi says after Suguru tells him everything that’s been going on between him and Satoru for the past month and a half. "Satoru doesn't like a lot of people so it's easy to tell."
Suguru’s eyes grow wide and he shakes his head. They’re sitting on the floor in his bedroom. They hung out at the movies earlier since Suguru is no longer on house arrest.
“No he isn’t! He said he just wanted to be friends.”
“Maybe he wants to wait until you’re older.” Megumi smiles. “He must really like you to do that.”
Suguru thinks about how Satoru treats him and how he stares at him sometimes. He thinks he knows that Satoru wants to be more than his friend but he doesn’t know how he feels about Satoru. He doesn't think he likes alphas after what happened with Naoya.
“What happened at the party?” Megumi asks. He looks sad. “I heard some things…”
Suguru thinks about the party and his palms begin to sweat. “How do you always hear about everything?”
“I like to hang out in the computer library. People go there to gossip because people have headphones on. But mine never play music.”
“You’re so smart!”
Megumi doesn’t smile. “Did my cousin Naoya hurt you?”
“What did you hear?”
“That Satoru and Naoya got into a fight the day after the party. Do you remember when Naoya was out of school for a week? When he came back he was wearing makeup on his face…”
Suguru put a lot of effort into avoiding Naoya so he didn’t know he wasn’t even at school. He wonders if Satoru had a fight with Naoya over what happened.
“Did cousin Satoru do that for you?” Megumi asks. “He’s not supposed to fight anymore so he got in a lot of trouble with Gojo-sama.”
“Did Satoru get into too much trouble?”
“I only know Satoru had to stay at the estate for a weekend without leaving.”
Suguru has no clue what that means. He only knows that the estate where the Gojo and Zenin family live is a secluded area where outsiders aren’t allowed.”
“Megumi, what did you hear about that night?” Suguru can tell that his friend is keeping something from him. “Just tell me….”
“Did Naoya rape you?” Megumi asks. His eyes get watery. “I know he’s not a nice guy. I grew up in the same house as him..”
Suguru feels like crying. He shakes his head. “No, it wasn't that bad. He only wanted to do it with me but I didn't want to.”
“How did he react? Did he try to force you—”
“Can we talk about something else? Please…”
Quietly Megumi sits up and hugs Suguru. “We can talk about it when you’re ready.” He rubs Suguru’s back and then he sits back down. “Do you want to watch a movie?”
They watch an animated film. It helps keep Suguru distracted for its entire runtime. But when it ends, Megumi has to go home.
Later, Suguru has dinner with his mom and things are fine but when she has to head to work for the graveyard shift and he’s all alone, he starts sobbing.
He did a good job of trying to forget about the house party and Naoya until today. It’s not Megumi’s fault, he knows that. He isn’t mad at Megumi, either. He’s mad at himself for being a crybaby.
Suguru lays in bed after a long shower and tries to go to sleep. But when it’s around ten and he still can’t sleep, he calls Satoru.
“Are you busy?” Suguru asks. He can hear the noise in Satoru’s background.
“What’s wrong? Are you crying?
“No…I…” Suguru’s lip trembles. “Yes…”
“What happened?” It sounds like Satoru is walking fast now. “Did someone hurt you?”
“I thought of the house party and…what he did…” Suguru’s heart starts to race and he feels like he can’t breathe. He starts to gasp into the phone as tears stream down his face.
“Suguru, I’m here. Okay, just listen to my voice and everything will be fine.”
Suguru closes his eyes and does as Satoru says. Satoru starts to count very slowly for him.
At first, Suguru can only think about that night and what Naoya tried to do but eventually, he starts to focus on Satoru’s deep voice and how he enunciates his numbers. When Satoru starts to purr into the phone, Suguru’s body fills with warmth and comfort. He holds the phone close to his ear and pretends Satoru is there with him.
“Feel better?“ Satoru asks after a long time passes.
Suguru does feel better. But he also misses Satoru. It’s only been a little over a week of break. He wishes Satoru wasn’t three hours away. “I wish you were here for real,” he whispers so quietly he kind of hopes he isn’t heard.
He starts to think Satoru didn’t hear him because he takes a while to say anything.
“I wish I was there too,” Satoru whispers back.
Suguru’s heart flutters. His face feels hot and he has to fight a smile. “What are you doing?”
“Hanging out with my older cousin.”
The Gojo and Zenin families are joined so there are a lot of them. Suguru hears a lot of stories about a massive estate where both families live. Satoru and Naoya attend their school because the private one in their town doesn’t have a basketball team.
Suguru learned all of this from his chats with Satoru during lunch. He has noticed that Satoru is open with him about his family in ways he never expected.
“I’m sorry for bothering you.”
“You’re not bothering me, Suguru. Tell me about your day.”
Suguru tells Satoru about his day. Then he tells Satoru the full plot to Jack Frost because Satoru has never seen it. They talk about what they plan to do for Christmas day and then the conversation jumps to new topics. Suguru checks the time and sees that it’s almost midnight.
“I should sleep,” Suguru says. He doesn’t want to hang up and be alone again though.
“Stay on the phone. Keep me company.”
Suguru’s glad he doesn’t have to be the one to ask Satoru to stay on the phone. He falls asleep listening to the white noise in Satoru’s background.
Suguru is startled awake by tapping on his bedroom window. He’s scared until he hears Satoru on the phone.
“Open the window, Suguru.”
Suguru looks at his window and sees an outline of someone standing there. He looks at the phone again and then back at the window. It’s almost three in the morning now. He doesn’t want Satoru waiting in the cold so he gets up to let him in.
“Sorry for waking you,” Satoru says as he climbs through the window.
Cold air blows in. Suguru hugs himself to stay warm as he watches Satoru enter. Satoru closes the window and walks over to the bed.
“I thought you went home,” Suguru says.
“I did. It’s only 3 hrs away.”
“You just drove here?”
Satoru removes his coat and his boots. “You had an anxiety attack, Suguru. Of course, I drove here.” He lays his coat on the end of the full bed. “Come here.”
Suguru looks down at himself. He has on a tank top and panties. He inwardly cringes because he keeps doing this whenever Satoru pops up on him. But Satoru has already seen and he’s not staring at anything apart from his face.
Suguru trusts Satoru so much that he walks over to him without changing into something else.
“When will your mom be home?” Satoru asks. He picks Suguru up and puts him on his lap.
“11 am. If she sees your car…”
“I parked a block away. I’ll set an alarm to make sure I leave before she gets here.”
That puts Suguru at ease. “You must sneak into homes a lot.” He thinks about the person Satoru is dating.
”No comment,” Satoru jokes. He sets an alarm on his phone. Then he continues to spoon Suguru.
Suguru can’t believe Satoru drove all this way just because he was anxious. He feels loads better now that Satoru is here so he falls asleep on top of Satoru’s chest soon.
They sleep later than planned and Satoru has to make a quick escape before his mom can get home. Suguru texts Satoru and thanks him for coming to see him. He wants Satoru to stay longer so they can hang out but Satoru’s father is upset that he left without telling anyone so he has to go back to the estate.
Suguru isn’t going to get to see Satoru for the remainder of Christmas break. Satoru’s family is still upset that he beat up Naoya and almost put him in a coma so he doesn’t have his full freedom like before. They're also upset he left home without permission.
Three days before Christmas, while Suguru is having a hot bath and thinking about Satoru purring through the phone to calm him down, something strange happens.
All of a sudden, Suguru gets incredibly hot all over and he starts to sweat more than he already was. His nipples get really sore and swollen and his private area throbs in a painful way. Whining loudly, Suguru gets out of the tub and tries to dry off but he collapses on the bathroom floor.
Suguru has no idea what’s happening to him. He just knows that the pain grows more intense by the second and his thighs are soaking wet and his body is on fire. He rubs his thighs together to ease the throbbing down there but that doesn’t help. Trying to make it stop, Suguru touches himself.
The moment he does that, he moans loudly and starts to cry from how good it feels. He starts to rub himself and he gets wetter and wetter. He can’t think straight but here and there he sees Satoru’s face or Satoru’s lips or Satoru’s neck.
Suguru cries harder because now he wishes Satoru were here to help him with whatever is going on.
He doesn’t know how long he’s on the bathroom floor touching himself. He only knows that his mom finds him and she rushes to pick him up.
“I’m sorry. I should have noticed the signs,” his mother says as he wraps him in a towel and carries him to his room. “I hear that first heats are the worst. I’ll take off work to make sure you’re okay…”
Suguru blacks out once he’s inside his bedroom.
“Who is Gojo Satoru?” His mother asks him after his heat passes and he has a long bath.
Suguru is tired from enduring his first heat for three long days. He even slept for most of Christmas. “Huh?” he asks in confusion.
His mother picks up a big gift bag for him and hands it over. “A young man stopped by for you,” his mother says. “He was concerned because you weren’t picking up your phone. When I told him you were having your special time, he came back an hour later with this care package.”
It sounds like Satoru broke the rules again just to make sure Suguru was okay.
Suguru looks into the bag and sees snacks, omegan painkillers, and a folded shirt. He takes out the shirt and immediately smells Satoru’s scent. He holds the shirt up to his nose and he feels warm and fuzzy all over. He knows that alphas give their omegas something with their scent on it to comfort them during the heats they spend alone.
“Suguru, is he your boyfriend? He looks to be a lot older than you.”
“We’re just friends…” Suguru looks at the care package again. He smiles to himself. “
Yes, they’re just friends but Suguru really wants Satoru to be his boyfriend.
After holiday break, Suguru misses the first week of school because it’s the law for an omega who had their first heat to wait a while before they can be in public again.
An omega’s newly developed scent is too strong for even scent patches to mask and the risk of them being jumped by a random alpha is higher. Because of this law, Suguru hasn’t seen Satoru either.
They haven’t seen each other since Suguru had that anxiety attack almost a month ago. But they’ve texted a lot and talked on the phone sometimes.
To start the Spring semester off right, their school hosts a pep rally for their basketball team. When the pep rally is almost over, Suguru gets some encouragement from Shoko and Megumi before he goes to where the players usually meet up at the end of the pep rally.
He patiently waits in the same place he waited when he wanted to confess to Naoya months ago.
A lot has changed since then but there’s one thing that’s the same. Suguru looks at the neatly folded confession letter in his hand and he reads the name that has cute heart stickers surrounding it.
“What are you doing back here?”
Hearing that voice, Suguru’s heart races. He smiles and turns around and sees a big white 6 on a red jersey.
“Suguru?” Satoru asks when he notices him. He sniffs. “I almost didn’t recognize you. You have a scent now…”
Suguru smiles brightly before bowing his head and extending the confession letter. “Please accept my feelings,” he says.
His heart is pounding so loud he can’t hear the gasp Satoru lets out. He starts to wonder if Satoru heard him clearly because so much time passes and nothing happens. But then Satoru carefully takes the letter from him.
When Suguru straightens up, he’s blindsided. Satoru picks him up, and instinctively Suguru wraps his legs around Satoru’s waist.
“Fuck,” Satoru curses, “sorry.” He sounds so flustered and out of breath. “I’m so sorry but…” He doesn’t finish his sentence.
Satoru presses Suguru against the nearest wall and kisses him with a force that knocks the breath out of Suguru’s lungs.
Satoru’s lips are softer than Suguru thought they’d be and his tongue tastes like fresh mint and cigarettes. Suguru lets out an unrecognizable sound when Satoru’s tongue starts to lick into his mouth, his panties start to get damp, and his fingers tingle restlessly. He fists his hands in Satoru’s hair to give his hands something to do.
“Of fucking course I accept your feelings,” Satoru whispers against Suguru’s lips when the kiss ends. “I thought you would never like me back.”He sounds like he’s been suffering for a long time. “I’m happy I was wrong.”
Suguru feels bad for how long it took him to wake up. “You’re the only person I thought about during my heat.”
He meant for that to be a cute confession that shows how much he loves Satoru. He didn’t expect it to make Satoru’s eyes brighten and his fangs show.
He obviously still has a lot to learn about alphas.
Satoru doesn’t waste any more time after hearing that. He takes Suguru to the parking lot where his car is parked and they get in the backseat.
Satoru has always been patient and playful. Now he shows Suguru a new side. He’s impatient and far from playful now. He kisses Suguru until Suguru’s is dizzy and his panties are soaked. Suguru tries to match Satoru’s fervency but he’s too inexperienced.
“I’ll teach you,” Satoru whispers as he slides his hand into the top of Suguru’s unzipped shorts. “We’ll go slow, okay?”
Suguru nods. He really trusts Satoru with his body and his heart.
He gasps and then moans when Satoru circles the pad of his finger around his tight hole. Then when Satoru pushes his finger inside, Suguru screams. Satoru kisses him to distract him and muffle his noises. It doesn’t hurt. It’s just that the sensation is nothing he’s ever felt before. Even during his heat, he never put anything inside.
Satoru’s finger feels too big for Suguru’s tightness. Satoru moves it in and out with shallow, slow thrusts before carving in deeper. It starts to feel okay but it’s still weird.
Then stars light up Suguru’s vision when Satoru curves his finger inside of him.
“You’re so tight…so wet,” Satoru whispers as he fingers Suguru. “I already love this pussy…”
Suguru used to hate the word ‘pussy’ ever since Naoya said it to him. But he gets so wet when Satoru says it. He moans loudly, not caring about if he sounds stupid or not. He starts to move his hips, craving more of Satoru’s touch.
Satoru kisses him again, and Suguru moans into his mouth and tugs on his hair as he starts bucking his hips faster. He loses it when Satoru touches his clit at the same time. Suguru makes a surprised noise and then he bites Satoru’s lip as his body is wracked with intense pleasure.
“Suguru, is your mom home?” Satoru asks. He carefully eases his finger out of Suguru.
“Yes.”
“Okay. Let’s go to my place.”
Satoru picks Suguru up once they get off the elevator and carries him to his apartment and into his bedroom once he has the front door unlocked. Suguru lets Satoru take off his clothes until he’s laying on his bed naked.
While Satoru removes his shirt, Suguru stares at him in awe. He can’t believe he once called Satoru ugly. He was so stupid. So so stupid. Satoru is…
“You’re so beautiful, Suguru,” Satoru says as he stares down at Suguru. “And your body has filled out a lot since your heat. You’re perfect in every way.”
“You’re beautiful, too,” Suguru says. He blushes after saying it and looks away. “I mean handsome..”
“I don't mind you using that to describe me."
Suguru gasps when Satoru caresses his thighs but he doesn’t look at him. He’s shy from having Satoru’s full attention on his naked body. He even presses his thighs close to hide his pussy. But Satoru gently nudges his thighs open.
“I want to see,” he says.
Suguru’s heart races when his thighs are wide open and Satoru is staring at him. He knows he doesn’t compare to the people Satoru has been with before. Speaking of them…
“What about the person you’re dating?” Suguru asks. He is prepared to make Satoru leave them. He only wants Satoru for himself.
“You’re the only person I’ve been talking to this entire time.” The bed shifts and Suguru can feel Satoru’s hot breath touching him. “I’ve wanted you since the first day of school.” He kisses Suguru’s lower stomach.
Suguru looks at Satoru in surprise. He sees Satoru’s head between his thighs and he feels faint. “Not there!”
Satoru lowers his head and licks Suguru’s pussy, making Suguru lose his train of thought. Satoru’s tongue is hot and wet and it feels so good as it laps at him. Suguru fists his hands in the sheets and squirms on the bed, his legs shaking and his toes curling.
“Satoru!” He tries to push Satoru’s head away because he feels like he’s going to pee. “Satoru…Satoru!” His back rises off the mattress and he screams.
Suguru can feel wetness hitting his stomach. He looks down and sees the mess he made and his eyes water.
“I’m so sorry!” Suguru cries. He tries to get up. “I didn’t mean to.”
Satoru shushes him sweetly. “You just squirted, Suguru. It’s nothing bad.”
“Really?” Tears roll down his face. His heart is pounding because he genuinely thinks he wet the bed. He’s so embarrassed.
“It’s a good thing. It means I made you feel really good.” Satoru sits up and gets on top of Suguru. He kisses his cheek and wipes his tears. “You make me feel really good too. Let me show you.”
Satoru takes Suguru’s hand and pulls it between their bodies. Feeling something hard and thick, Suguru's eyes widen when he realizes that it’s Satoru’s dick. He saw one in a book for Sex Ed but it was small and soft looking.
“It’s big,” Suguru says in a mousy voice. “Will it fit in my…”
“We can wait until you’re ready.” Satoru starts kissing him again. He cups Suguru’s face and kisses him with so much tenderness. “I never want to hurt you, Suguru. You mean a lot to me.”
“I want to do it,” Suguru says. “Even if it hurts a lot. I want to.”
“I know you think that’s important to me, but it’s not. I can wait.”
Suguru huffs in annoyance. He doesn’t think Satoru understands him. He thinks about what he once heard an upperclassman say to her boyfriend when they were talking in the hallway.
“I want you to fuck me.” The ‘f’ word feels strange on Suguru’s tongue but he got his point across.
Satoru’s eyes triple in size. “Suguru?”
Suguru hugs Satoru’s neck and pulls him down for a kiss. He’s better than he was earlier but he isn’t the best. He still kisses Satoru with as much desire as he can muster. Satoru starts to kiss him back, showing Suguru how to do it correctly, and Suguru’s stomach gets hot again. He presses himself against Satoru impatiently.
Satoru deepens the kiss, groaning into it as he starts to rub his dick between Suguru’s wet folds. Suguru loves that feeling so he starts to move his hips. He naively thinks it’ll feel like this the whole time but then the air is knocked out of his lungs when Satoru presses in.
“Fuck,” Satoru whispers. He presses his forehead against Suguru’s and lets out a shaky breath. “Suguru, relax. Let me in…” He moves his hips with shallow movements. “Please, open up for me…”
Suguru listens to Satoru’s soothing voice and relaxes his body even though the intrusion hurts. It feels like he’s being stabbed. But since it’s Satoru he doesn’t mind it.
“That’s right, baby,” Satoru whispers, sounding dazed. He continues to slowly thrust. “You’re so good…such a good boy for me…”
“Satoru…it hurts…” Suguru closes his eyes and waits for it to end.
Suguru kisses him and starts to move faster. The faster he moves, the wetter Suguru gets and the less painful it feels. Suguru goes from wanting it to be over to wishing it’ll never end. Satoru is deep inside of him. It feels like he’s moving inside of his stomach and as scary as that is, Satoru loves how it feels to be full of Satoru.
He starts to scratch Satoru’s back when Satoru grips his hips and moves faster. Suguru is moaning so loudly that his throat starts to ache. Satoru hits something inside of him, and It feels like he’s pissing himself. But he knows that he only squirted again.
Satoru praises him for doing it, and he calls Suguru his special boy and it makes Suguru’s heart feel like it’s going to explode.
“I love you,” Suguru says, touching Satoru’s face. He has for a long time and didn’t know it. “I love you, Satoru.”
Satoru’s face gets red and he drops his head and curses. He starts to move faster and faster, making Suguru’s body rattle. Suguru holds on to Satoru, feeling so full of love and endless warmth. He purrs when Satoru nuzzles his cheek, and when Satoru starts to slow down, Suguru hugs him tighter, afraid to let him go.
Satoru starts to move in a sporadic way as he groans Suguru’s name loud enough for the city to hear. Then Satoru is still.
“I love you, Suguru,” Satoru whispers. He has his head on Suguru’s shoulder. “ I love you so much but please never tell me you love me while I’m inside of you.”
“Why not.”
“I’ll end too fast.”
Suguru doesn’t really know what that means. He kind of wants to always tell Satoru that he loves him whenever they’re having sex to see if he’ll get that adorable reaction again.
Satoru is gentle as he pulls out of Suguru, and he kisses his face and asks him if he's hurting.
“It hurts a little,” Suguru admits.
Satoru draws a hot bath and they soak in the tub together. Suguru sits with his chest against Satoru’s chest as Satoru washes his back.
“Will you still read my confession letter?” Suguru asks.
“I’m going to read it a hundred times and then I’ll write you one in return.”
Suguru smiles and kisses Satoru’s cheek. Even though they just did all of that, he’s still bashful. “What did you do with the letter I wrote for Zenin-san?”
“I burned it that same night.”
“You did?” Suguru isn’t mad because he hates Naoya now. He’s just surprised. “Why?”
“Because you’re too good for him. And because I was jealous.”
Knowing that Satoru was jealous that night makes Suguru blush. “Have you really liked me since my first day of school?”
“My younger cousin tried out for the martial arts club that day. You kicked his ass and he’s an alpha who’s a year older. I knew right then I wanted to be with you.”
Suguru wishes he would’ve noticed Satoru sooner. He wants to apologize for how dense he’s been. But he doesn’t get a chance.
“I can’t wait for you to make cute bento lunches for our pups someday,” Satoru whispers as he kisses Suguru’s lips. He’s rock hard again and positioning Suguru to straddle him. “We have a long time before that, though.”
“Who said I’ll be with you that long?” Suguru teases.
Satoru fake pouts. “So mean, Suguru-chan,” he says. Then he takes Suguru by the hips, rubbing him against his erection. “But I’m never letting you go,” he promises.
Suguru hugs Satoru’s neck, anxious to have him inside of him again. He really hopes Satoru means that because he’s never letting him go either.