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Silence in the Darkness

Summary:

Shou has a nightmare after break up with Saga, so Shin wants to conform him.

And there is a little hope for a future too.

Notes:

Originally this fanfiction is in Polish. It's my own fanfiction, but I want to public it in English too.

https://adawinry.livejournal.com/138734.html

Translate by Kann (go to Kann's comics - https://tapas.io/series/Aoihito).

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"Shou-san?" he heard, when he woke up. "What are you doing here so early? And why are you asleep?"

The vocalist opened his eyes. He saw Sachiko, the cleaning lady, who was leaning over the broom and looking at him with concern.

"I fell asleep?" Shou was confused.

He sat up on the sofa. His body hurt.

"Yes, you fell asleep" nodded Sachiko.

"Well, I should go home" said Shou, standing up.

"So, why you came here?" Sachiko looked at him a little confused.

"Wait, Sachiko-san. What time is it?" asked Shou.

Sachiko looked at her watch.

"Almost 7am" replied the cleaning lady. "Why are you asking?"

"7am?"

"Yes. Wait, Shou-san, do you want to tell me, that you were sleeping here all night?" Sachiko was shocked.

"Probably" Shou sighed. "Goodbye, Sachiko-san."

"Goodbye" replied the cleaning lady and started doing her job.

* * *

Shou pulled out the keys from his pocked and opened the door to the staicase. He was still confused that he really fell asleep in studio. He just wanted to stay a little longer to do some things and fell asleep on the sofa. It was strange in his case.

"Good morning, Shou-sama!"

He recognized this voice after a while, because he still was a little sleepy. He turned around. He was right, it was Shin.

Younger vocalist stood in front of him, a little confused. In one hand he had a trashbag, in other a cup probably with his morning coffee.

"Hello, Shin-kun" replied Shou finally.

Shin looked at his coffee, at Shou and then gave him his mug.

"It will be helpful for you" he said, smiling and walked down the stairs.

"Thank you" muttered Shou, still sleepy, taking a sip of the drink and wondering, why the younger vocalist was running to throw the garbage with the coffee in his hand.

Well, everyone has their own habits.

The door creaked as Shou entered the apartment. It felt way too quiet. It had been like that for two months. Saga left him. Not for any particular reason, one day he just left.

Shou put Shin's mug on the nightstand and laid down on the bed, opening the manga and looking for the page where he finished reading. But he couldn't focus. The longer Saga was gone, the more lonely he felt. He needed someone's touch, anyone's.

Suddenly there was a knock on the door. Shou broke out of his thoughts and stood up slowly. Everything still hurt him, the couch in the studio was very uncomfortable. He opened the door and saw Shin behind it.

"Shou-sama, do you have a mop or something like that, because my bathroom is... Shou-sama, what happened?" Shin's face changed from a bemused smile to worry.

He raised his hand and wiped with his hand the tears that Shou didn't even notice.

"Why are you crying, Shou?"

"I don't know, my eyes are watering from lack of sleep" replied Shou, suddenly realizing that Shin hadn't added "san" or "sama" to his nickname.

"Why won't you sleep a little? If you have time, of course" said Shin. "But you know, whenever you feel sad, you can come to my place for tea. My door is open to you at any time of the day or night."

"I'll remember that" Shou forced a little smile. "About the mop, I'll get it right away."

"I would take mine, but it broke recently and I forgot to buy a new one" explained Shin as Shou handed him the mop.

"How can a mop break?" Shou was surprised.

"You have to be me" Shin laughed shortly. "Thank you, Shou-sama. See you later!"

Before Shou closed the door, he noticed that Shin tripped on stairs.

* * *

He couldn't sleep. He was laying in the darkness, staring with blurry eyes at the ceiling. He felt empty. That silence around him was strangling him. After a while he finally fell asleep.

He was in the studio. Suddenly the building shook and collapsed. Shou woke up after a while and was surprised to find that he was practically fine. The building contained all of the PSC bands, except for Ruki and Keiyu, whom he noticed standing in front of the rubble.

"Look, they died" announced Kousuke, nudging Hikaru with his foot.

"They're all dead" confirmed Gazette's vocalist, patting Shin's cheek.

"Isn't that funny?" Keiyu laughed as he stepped over Byou.

"Of course" Ruki sneered as he picked up Nao's shirt.

"Shouldn't he join the rest?" Keiyu pointed at Shou, while kicking Born's vocalist in the back.

"That's right" Ruki pulled a knife out of his pocket. "Come on, Bunny, it will be fun!"

Shou started to run. He jumped over Yuhra and wanted to leave the rumbles. But even if the building collapsed, the walls stayed. Or maybe not the walls, but some strange, invissible barrier, which didn't bother Ruki at all.

"I'm gonna kill you like others" Ruki laughed and tried to stab Shou.

But before the knife could reach him...

...he woke up. He cried again, this time out of fear. He stood up. He didn't care about late hour. He went to the staircase, locked the door and quickly ran upstairs, so after a while he was standing in front of Shin's apartment and waiting for the younger vocalist to open the door for him.

"Who's there?" he heard a voice behind the door.

After a moment they opened with force and Shin stood in the doorway, looking like he had seen a ghost.

"Shou-sama?"

"I had a nightmare" announced Shou. "You died in it. They all died. Only Ruki and Keiyu... They wanted to kill me. Can I go in?"

"Sure, come in" Shin let Shou inside. "Sit down on the sofa and make yourself comfortable. I'll make some tea to calm you down."

Shou watched Shin all the way to the kitchen. The younger vocalist didn't look like he was going to bed, he was still wearing his casual clothes. He returned a moment later and put two mugs on the table.

"Shou, you're trembling" no suffix again.

Shin sat down next to him on the couch.

"Hey, it's just a dream, nothing like that happened. We're both alive, right?"

"You haven't seen all your friends and loved ones dead" replied Shou, feeling his hands starting to tremble. "They all... Even you... Everyone..."

Shou twitched as Shin hugged him.

"Relax, Shou" he said softly, stroking his head. "It's just a bad dream."

"You're warm" Shou whispered, closing his eyes. "And so caring. And I thought you could only act like a fanboy in my presence."

"Shou...?" Shin blinked as Shou laid down on his lap.

"Comfortably" muttered Shou. "Just don't faint because I'm hugging you or something. I just need someone's closeness..."

"I understand" nodded Shin. "Actually, I would rather have Shindy lying here right now. Although..."

"Although?"

"That option is nice for me, too" replied Shin.

"Shin?"

"Yes?"

Shou got up and looked into his eyes.

"You know that I still love Sakamoto, right?"

"I know. I love Shindy" Shin shrugged and... kissed him. "Which doesn't change the fact that I like you, Kazumasa."

"Akihide..."

"Wait, what?" Shin laughed, then froze for a really short moment. "Did you really say my name?"

"Indeed" Shou was surprised by this himself, then shuddered as Shin embraced his arms and legs and took him in his arms.

"We're going to the bedroom, my bed is probably more comfortable than this sofa" explained Shin, smiling slightly.

"You are strong" Shou noticed with a little surprise as Shin put him on the bed.

"Do I seem weak for you?" Shin kissed Shou gently.

Kazuma shook his head.

"Sometimes when you're in ultra-fanboy mode, but besides that never..."

"Probably" Shin undid the last button of Shou's pajamas. "Hey, Kazuma?"

"What?"

"What would happen, when we wake up in the morning?" Shin asked looking at Shou attentively.

"Nothing's going to happen" replied Shou, taking off Shin's shirt. "We are both still single, we are both in love with other people. I think everything will be back to normal."

"Do you think so?" asked Shin, flipping Shou onto the bed and leaning over him.

"Yes. Don't worry about the future, Akihide" Shou stroked Shin's cheek. "So I am uke again?"

"You said yourself that I'm not weak" Shin smirked and pulled Shou into a passionate kiss.

* * *

Only the ticking of the clock broke the silence. Shou cuddled up to Shin, trying to calm his breathing.

"I was starting to wonder, why I didn't come here sooner."

"Huh, do you want one more time?" Shin laughed and ran his fingers through Shou's hair. "You look cute, when your hair is so messy."

"We should go take a shower" said Shou. "But I'm too sleepy now."

"Me too" Shin smiled slightly.

"By the way, why weren't you sleeping before?"

"Insomnia" explained Shin shortly. "Sometimes it happens to me. And then I'm like a zombie on the rehearsal."

"Do you think you're going to fall asleep now?"

"We have to fall asleep, because we won't get up tomorrow" said Shin.

A moment later, he fell overwhelmed by sleep.

"Interesting situation" Shou grabbed Shin's right hand which the younger vocalist was hugging him. "We both have such soft hands..."

Shou's eyes closed slowly and he fell asleep. This time he didn't have any nightmares.

Shin's alarm clock woke them. Shou opened his eyes and was surprised to discover that he had been sleeping all night holding Shin's hand.

"How romantic" said Shin, untangling their fingers. "Come on, let's make some breakfast. I'll be a little late at worst."

Moments later, in front of Shou, there was a bowl of rice and a cup of warm tea.

"Do you want some veggies, or do you prefer a sweet breakfast?" Shin smiled radiantly.

"Sweet is fine" said Shou, and Shin put cinnamon and sugar on the table.

"Pour as much as you want. I swear it's tasty" Shin, still smiling, poured some sauce over his rice, which he heated in a pot. "I prefer ginger sauce, though."

"Tasty indeed" Shou admitted after tasting Shin's culinary innovations. "Reno won't kill you if you're late?"

"You know Reno, Shou-sama needed some help to deal with his feelings, forgive me for being late" Shin quoted his excuse as he sat down in front of Shou.

"Bon appetit~!" they said simultaneously and ate their breakfast in silence.

Shou opened the door to his apartment, saying goodbye to Shin a moment earlier. Yes, everything is back to normal.

* * *

About a month later, Shou heard a key click in the door. He got up from the couch and saw Saga hanging his sweatshirt on a hanger as if nothing had happened.

"Hi" he said calmly, but Shou knew that he was nervous. "You know... Well... I tried to sleep around, because I wanted to forget about you, but... I need you. Not all of these women in clubs."

Shou blinked. Yes, it was a typical confession for Saga.

"Well..." Saga scratched his head. "Erm... Should I buy you chocolates and flowers, or just go out and never come back?"

Shou tilted his head. What is he talking about?

"Sakamoto, do you really think that I would be able to throw you out the door?" Shou took a few steps towards him. "Besides, believe me, I also had to comfort myself somehow after you left me."

"You? Were you able to do this?" Saga frowned.

"As you can see" Shou shrugged.

"You're impossible" Saga sighed.

"And who says that?" Shou snorted, getting closer to Saga.

"In fact, I'm worse..." Saga sighed.

Shou blinked confusedly.

"Did you admit it?"

"Yes?" Saga bit his lower lip. "Should I go get these chocolates?"

"And asters."

"Yes, I know, I remember" Saga smiled slightly, putting his arm around Shou's waist. "I missed you a little... But you must have cried for more than one night, huh?"

"After all, our colleagues won't look at us like we're serial killers" Shou kissed Saga softly. "But you didn't have to smoke just before you got here."

"Do you know how stressful it was?! Good thing I still had the keys, because you probably wouldn't let me in" Saga laughed shortly, hugging Shou. "You know, Kazuma... I promise that I will never leave you again."

"And why I have to believe you?"

"Because you love me" Saga smiled fondly. "Right?"

"Don't even doubt it" Shou closed his eyes.

The silence became Saga's voice, who illuminated the darkness around him with his favorite lighter.

The end

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