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Kurt’s phone pinged. It was a message from Josh that read
‘Do u wanna go out sometime? It’s ok if not. Ur just rly hot’
Kurt wasn’t used to compliments. So this should’ve made him ecstatic. But he chewed on his lower lip and let out a sigh. ‘What’s the harm? Blaine said himself we’re just friends. Friends who kiss. God. We’re friends with benefits aren’t we? What was I thinking agreeing to this? I’m a virgin...’ Kurt thought to himself. He texted back Josh saying:
‘Sure, I’m free after school this week?’
‘How about Wednesday? 4:30 at the Lima Bean?’
‘Sounds good. See u then’
He’s going on his first date. Why isn’t he excited? Oh that’s right. Because he’s in love with Blaine. Blaine the bad boy with his beautiful curly hair and hazel eyes. Not to mention his entire bad boy image being a facade because he’s soft when he’s with Kurt. Suddenly his phone pinged again, this time from Blaine.
‘Wanna go for a walk?’
‘Sure’
‘I’ll come pick u up’
‘Ok. see u soon’
He couldn’t contain himself as a toothy grin took home on his face.
Blaine pulled into Kurt’s driveway, where he saw Kurt standing at his front door, waiting for the curly boy. His slender frame was perfectly complimented by the sun setting in the background.
‘You look good’ Blaine smiled, watching as Kurt got into the passenger seat.
‘I do?’
‘Yeah’
‘So do you’ he said, looking down and chewing his lower lip.
They arrived at a park, in front of it was a small pond, which led into a small waterfall. There were picnic benches all around. The sun setting in the background set the the atmosphere.
‘It’s so beautiful here’
‘It’s my calm place. I always come here when I’ve had a bad day, or when I just need to ground myself’ Kurt turned and looked at him, concerned.
‘You okay?’
‘How’d you know?’
‘I dunno. I guess I could just tell’
A silence fell over them, due to Blaine’s exterior walls being reinstated, and Kurt not wanting to push.
‘How are things going with that guy you met at Scandals?’
‘He’s nice’
‘But?’
‘Not buts. We have our first date on Wednesday’
‘That’s great’
....
‘Right?’ Blaine asked.
‘Yeah. It’s just- I’m really distracted. I’m not sure this is what I need right now’
‘Well-and I say this with completely selfish reasons...but, I’m glad you’re second guessing this’
‘How so?’ Kurt asked, eyes narrowed.
‘Because if you’re seeing somebody then that means we can’t-do whatever this is anymore’
Kurt laughed softly.
‘You only care about getting action, huh?’
‘No. Not anymore, anyway’
Kurt looked on.
‘Since we’ve been getting closer, and I trust you and I like you and we’re friends and stuff-I guess I can say this’
‘I’m starting to get worried-‘
‘-You’ve always been completely honest with me, right?’
‘Yes’
‘Well-I...I’m a virgin’
‘Really?’ Kurt asked, shocked.
‘Wow, you thought I was some whore, didn’t you?’ He joked
‘No, of course not. It’s just-the guys at Scandals throw themselves at you. And you’re like-well you paint this whole bad boy and thing’
‘That’s to stop people getting close’
‘It didn’t stop me’
‘And just because guys want me, doesn’t mean I want them. You’re gonna think I’m such a loser for saying this but...I’ve had the opportunity, many times. I just didn’t want it. Sure I’m a teenage boy and I have urges, but...I’ve always wanted my first time to be with someone I love...’
Kurt eyes widened, he felt like he was talking to a mirror.
‘You think it’s stupid?’
‘No.’
They were met with a few moments silence.
‘I’m sure you already know I’m a virgin.’
Blaine looked at him.
‘But our reasons are the same. I want mine to be special too’ They found themselves looking into each other’s eyes. Suddenly Kurt’s phone pinged. Blaine pulled back, whilst Kurt picked up his phone.
Blaine went into his bag and pulled out a cigarette and lit it.
‘Hey, I thought you were quitting-‘
‘I was’
‘So what happened?’
‘I got upset.’
‘What?’
‘I’m weak, Kurt. I’m not like you. I need to abuse my body to get through stuff.’
‘You don’t.’
Blaine huffed.
‘And you’re not weak. I’m so proud of you’
He stumped the cigarette out and choked out a sob. He didn’t even have the time to try and stop himself. He wiped his face which his sleeve.
‘I’m sorry. God. I look so stupid’
Kurt immediately wrapped his arms around the other boy, resting his chin on top of his soft curls. Blaine sobbed into Kurt’s chest.
‘It’s okay. You’re gonna be okay’ he whispered, rubbing his hand gently over Blaine’s back. After a while, he had stopped sobbing, but he didn’t move from Kurt’s embrace. He felt so safe, so protected.
‘Thank you’ Blaine whispered, hugging Kurt tightly. Kurt had one arm around Blaine, and another softly playing with his hair.
‘Anytime.’
‘I’m so sorry. This is embarrassing. I feel so-so weak’
‘No ones ever cried in front of me and let me hug them through it before. I’d say that’s the opposite of weak’
‘Are you serious?’
‘You’re the strongest person I’ve ever met’
Blaine lifted his head up to meet Kurt’s gaze. He sniffled, and Kurt reached into his pocket and handed him a tissue. Blaine took it.
‘You’re dying to say something-what is it? I-If you’re comfortable, of course’
‘You might run away screaming. Or without-I dunno. It’s just-‘
‘Blaine. Take a breath’ he whispered, taking Blaine’s hand into his own.
‘I’ve been such a mess these past few weeks and I finally know why. I feel so selfish for saying this. But...it’s because of you’
‘What?’ Kurt asked, shocked, almost a whisper.
‘Oh god no, not in a bad way. I mean, the way-the way that I’ve been feeling about you’
Kurt couldn’t help but smile softly at the boy beside him.
‘And I know you’re kinda seeing someone-‘
‘We’re not. We’re just friends, it’s only one date that I’m not even sure I wanna go on-‘
‘But you deserve to be happy, Kurt’
‘So do you’
‘I can’t make you happy. I’m a mess. I’m beyond repair’
‘You don’t need to be repaired, Blaine. You’re perfect as you are’
‘Do you like this guy?’
‘I met him once-‘
‘-But do you wanna make it work?’
‘No...’
‘But why?’
‘Because he’s not you’
Blaine’s eyes widened.
‘You don’t have to respond. But, now you know’
‘I don’t know what to say-‘
‘-I was afraid of that’
‘You’re amazing, and perfect and too good for this world’
‘Blaine-‘
‘-I really like you. As-as more than a friend. And-and I can’t keep up this casual relationship we’ve been having because It’s too hard for me.’
Kurt was lost for words. He had been feeling this way the entire time, and now Blaine is the one saying it to him.
‘When we met I wanted you to think I was all confident, and that I’d been with guys and that I wasn’t some loser dressed up in leather and eyeliner trying to hide myself away from who I truly am. But, you saw me for me. And nobody else has ever done that.’
‘I like you, too.’
‘You do?’ Blaine asked, as Kurt nodded softly.
‘I’ve been feeling the exact same way, about the making out and stuff. I was worried it would make you lose interest in me’
‘I’m sorry I made you feel like that. But that’s not gonna happen’
‘Don’t apologise. You were meant to be teaching me that, remember?’
Blaine smiled and kissed Kurt’s cheek, before leaning into him and Kurt pulled him into a hug. They cuddled whilst the sun set in front of them.