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BARGAINING
Incoming Text: Sakusa Kiyoomi (Omi-Omi_
29:30:28
> Miya, it’s Sakusa. Are you in Tokyo?
At Yomumart? Sitting outside on a bench.
03:21:02
< I’ve been here. Why were you out there this late?
> If anyone has the right to ask questions, it’s me. I live here Miya. I needed to get something so I could sleep.
Why the hell were you at a market an hour before midnight.
< Why didn’t you say hi if you saw me? Kind of rude don’t you think?
> I wasn’t entirely sure it was you. You look kind of different. Especially your hair. It looks interesting.
< Since when do you try to be polite Omi-Omi. You can say it looks disgusting. I haven’t been able to do anything with it for a while now.
I’m surprised you saved my number.
It’s been three years since we played together.
> You saved mine too.
< I had no reason not to
If I were you, I would have blocked me.
I left the team and basically hid from you all
> Where’d you go, Miya?
You were kind of famous. It’s pretty hard for famous people to just disappear like that
< I’ve been here.
> Stop being so vague.
In Tokyo? Cause here sounds like the worst possible place to hide. We all thought you went far.
< Osamu is still here. Do you guys really think I’d go that far from him?
> No, but we also didn’t think you’d quit volleyball and disappear off the face of the earth. Was it my fault?
< Don’t think that,
I didn’t quit. I had to leave the team.
It wasn’t my choice, but I didn’t care either way
And I shouldn’t have said all that shit to you either
> I really don’t get it Miya. You kind of hurt us
Especially Hinata.
And me, I thought we were friends. Not gonna lie, messing with you was fun. I thought it was our thing.
< I tried to kill myself
I failed
obviously
I was institutionalised here in Tokyo.
> What?
Is that actually what happened?
Miya?
read 3:39:04
3:50:28
< Sorry, idk why but I thought Samu was about to come say goodnight.
It’s complicated, but I was just released.
Not for the first time, I haven’t been there for three years
I just had to go back a few months ago
Probably oversharing aren’t I Omi-Omi
> I’m trying to process this
It’s really difficult.
I know this is weird
But I’m really panicky right now
Are you safe right now
< Sorry, I know that was a lot to dump on you.
Are you okay?
> I feel like I should be the one asking you.
I’m not sure.
< If you’re okay?
> Yeah
< What’s going on.
> I think a lot.
Intrusive thoughts.
I was institutionalised in high school. For my OCD.
I almost killed myself.
Not on purpose
I didn’t get why so many people were freaking out.
But all I can think about is what it would have looked like if you succeeded
It’s in my head now
< Shit Omi-Omi. I should have kept quiet
I didn’t mean to trigger you.
Can I do anything to help, or have I ruined it.
> I’m glad I know now.
Nothing is your fault
please don’t be sorry
Don’t be sorry okay.
You didn’t trigger me in a bad way
If that makes sense
I’m just trying to slow down
< We have stuff in common Omi, who would’ve thought we’d see the day
you haven’t like
tried to do it recently right?
> No
Not since my first year of college.
You aren’t going to do it again right?
read 4:00:54
4:11:32
Incoming call Sakusa Kiyoomi
“Miya? You can’t just not reply to that.” Sakusa’s voice was frantic, and he clearly had no intentions of trying to hide it.
Miya grumbles, or chuckles; Sakusa couldn’t really tell, “Mmm Omi, I want to tell you I won’t, but I can’t.”
The phone line goes silent of Sakusa’s end, but Atsumu can hear the sounds of him breathing. He chuckles, for sure a chuckle this time, “Ya see the thing is sometimes, when I remember that ‘Samu won’t actually walk into my room to kick me awake and say goodnight, I can’t help but thinking. And I know how dumb it sounds, but what if when I die, he comes back. He was a better person, everyone knew it. Even I know it. So, I’d be doing everyone a favour bringing him back. Or maybe, he would come back and try to stop me. I don’t know,” Atsumu’s voice choked, “but I do know that if I give up my life, I won’t have to be in this much pain anymore.
“All the things I’ve done wrong if only I hadn’t- Osamu would be here if I never got signed for the Black Jackals. It’s my fault we were on the road. He wasn’t even supposed to be there. I only asked him to come, cause I was so nervous for my first event that wasn’t just volleyball.”
“Breathe, Atsumu,” Sakusa took a shaky breath, he knew that Atsumu wouldn’t be able to hear it over his panicked sobs. “I need you to be honest with me, do I need to call emergency services or you going to be okay alone. Or- Or I could come over if you need that, you can’t be far from Yomumart.”
“I’d like to be with you. I’m safe.”
“Then I’ll come over.”
“No, please go anywhere for me, I’ll come to you.”
“What if I walked to you Atsumu? And we can stay on the phone.”
“Okay.”