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CHAPTER 17
Tiptoeing ever so quietly down the hallway you reach the kitchen without a sound and turn the coffee pot on. You flinch at the clicking sound the switch makes. It’s like the silence in the house amplified it. When you hear no other sounds you internally sigh in relief, not daring to chance fate and sigh out loud. Very carefully and quietly you start back down the hallway. When your bedroom door is in sight you start feeling excited. Dean’s just on the other side waiting for you to join him in the shower.
As you reach for the doorknob you hear the floor creak behind you. Dammit! So close! You yell in your head. A defeated sigh escapes you but you still turn around with a smile on your face. Big bright blue eyes are looking up at you. “Mommy can we have pancakes for breakfast?” Mary asks ever so politely and innocently.
Maybe tomorrow Dean. You think to yourself. Then you throw your arm over Mary’s shoulder. “Of course sweetie, but you gotta help me.”
As you’re finishing up cooking breakfast Dean strolls into the kitchen. You hear Mary’s feet pattering against the floor as she runs to him. “Morning daddy.”
“Mornin’ baby girl. You’re up early aren’t you?” He throws you a look as he picks her up.
“Mmm hmm. I wanted pancakes.”
“Well how about you go see if your dad wants some too. Looks like you and mommy made a lot.” She giggles and squirms until Dean sets her back down on the floor. She yells an excited ‘okay daddy’ as she’s already running toward the door.
Dean comes up behind you and wraps his arms around you. Your hair is in a messy bun so he takes advantage of your exposed neck and starts kissing your bare skin. “Weren’t quiet enough huh?”
You let out an annoyed growl and lean into him. “I was plenty quiet. You had to have your stupid coffee. So you get coffee today instead of shower sex. Hope you’re happy.” You mutter sarcastically.
He smiles against your neck and slips his hands under your shirt. “No, I was looking forward to something a little happier. I bet we could get a quickie in before she gets back with Cas.”
Fuck you want him so bad. It’s been weeks. Mary’s cock blocking skills can easily rival Sam’s which is epically frustrating to say the least. You bite your lip and grab one of his hands pushing it down lower. Just as he reaches your pant line the front door flies open followed by little feet running across the floor. Both you and Dean sigh dramatically in unison. He gives you another kiss and pulls away from you just as a sleepy Cas with bed hair and all stumbles into view.
“Morning sunshine.” Dean says obnoxiously loud to annoy Cas. Which in fact works. Cas throws him a dirty look with a grunt as he plops down at the kitchen table. You can’t help but smile at his grumpy face. You hand him a plate with a couple pancakes on it and can’t help yourself when it comes to his hair. You run your fingers through it a couple times to try and tame it a little but it’s no use. You can see Dean giving you a glare in the corner of your eye. No matter how many years pass he still gets jealous quite easily. Which you like to use to your advantage sometimes. But not today. You just roll your eyes at him and sit down between him and Cas.
“Thank you (Y/N). But why is she up so early? It’s Saturday.” Cas grumbles, his voice sounding extra gravely since he’s so sleepy.
“Oh you can thank Dean for that. He had to have coffee this morning.”
Cas slowly turns his head and narrows his eyes at Dean. Dean just shrugs his shoulders as he drinks his coffee while you and Cas both glare at him. Mary is just like Dean when it comes to being a light sleeper. She wakes at the sound of a pin dropping. So you being dramatic about switching on the coffee pot was in fact not dramatic because it did wake her up.
Mary is now five years old. The three of you over time got the hang of managing the whole co-parenting thing and it actually works out really well. Especially with your current living circumstances. A few years ago you had to sell your family home in Lawrence. The three of you split the money. You and Dean used your money to buy a duplex. Half is obviously yours and Dean’s the other half you gave to Cas. So there’s no struggle with her splitting time with her parents with just a wall separating you. She has a room on both sides and you do alternate where she sleeps. But more often than not Cas ends up at your house because Mary will run over there and drag him along with her.
She loves both her dad’s very much. And they both adore her. They are both fantastic dad’s just like you knew they would be. Neither of them want to be anything like their fathers so they do everything possible to be the best dads.
Speaking of terrible dad’s. The whole reason you had to sell your family home was because yours landed himself in prison finally. He made the mistake of drinking and driving, but also did it over the county line. Meaning his buddy Judge Elkins couldn’t bail him out this time. In his drunken state he thought if he made it back to Lawrence he’d be free and clear. After a messy police chase which involved him committing several more crimes in the process he earned himself a 25 year sentence in prison.
You weren’t the least bit surprised or even upset about it. You were just glad he didn’t kill anyone. Sam felt the same as you. Dean though, he took it pretty hard. He’s the only one that goes and visits your dad in prison. You let him take Mary one time. She wasn’t even a year old so you knew she wouldn’t remember. If he wasn’t such a dead beat you’d be sad that he won’t get to know his granddaughter, but you know she’s better off without him.
Same goes for her other grandfather. Chuck is still wallowing drunk and alone in his home trying to be a writer. He’s also only seen Mary once, and probably never will again unless he sobers up. Which neither Cas or you foresee ever happening.
When you went back to Lawrence to sell the house Cas came with you and your brothers. Mary was only 9 months old, and he didn’t want to be away from Mary that long. Had you not already spilled your secret to Jo and Charlie everyone would have guessed who her dad was the moment they laid eyes on her. Like you had hoped she has his dark hair and beautiful blue eyes. She’s a spitting image of Cas. But her personality is a lot like you and Dean. She likes to get into mischief.
When you arrived in Lawrence you had completely forgotten about the conversation Dean had overheard about your past with Benny. You also forgot to tell Benny. Hours after it happened you ended up going into labor and then it never crossed your mind again. Well you were quickly reminded when Benny gave you a hug and you looked over his shoulder and saw the murderous look in Dean’s eyes. Jody ended up locking both of them up for the night. Reminded you of old times of picking him up at the sheriff station. Jody, although annoyed, even got a little nostalgic.
Dean did give Benny a good beating, but he didn’t walk away unscathed. Once it was all said and done though they made up and still consider themselves friends.
You haven’t been back to Lawrence since then though. Once Mary started calling Dean daddy neither of you had any idea how to explain that if anyone were to ask. Some people come and visit you guys occasionally. Like Bobby, Ellen, and Jo. You think Bobby and Ellen know or suspect something. They never questioned as to why Mary was calling Dean dad, and just let it be. Which you’re relieved about. But if they do suspect you know neither of them would ever say anything.
Eventually you found out Gabriel knew all along. He’s far more clever than he looks, but apparently that night in high school that Dean drunkenly confessed his feelings for you to Cas he was nearby and overheard the whole thing. He says he doesn’t care but does like to throw some jokes at the two of you when Mary isn’t around.
Basically you and Dean live as husband and wife. Easy since you have the same last name and no one knows your true relation to each other. Sam, true to his word, got past the initial shock and accepted your relationship. He still refers to you as his sister, but everyone just assumes sister in law.
Sam finished law school and graduated top of his class. You and Dean couldn’t have been more proud of him. He easily found a job at a law firm once he passed the bar exam. Cas finished college and got his teaching degree just like he promised you. He’s an elementary school teacher, and you were very proud of him too. Mary just started kindergarten at the school he works at. Cas even got you a part time job as a secretary at the school. You didn’t know what to do with all your free time with her starting school so that couldn’t have worked out more perfectly.
Honestly everything in your lives couldn’t have worked out more perfectly. Sure it was a very bumpy and difficult road to get there, but in the end it was all totally worth it.
You speed walk through the halls of the school. You would run if you could get away with it, but you can’t. So awkward speed walking it is. It’s recess time so Cas’s classroom is empty. You barge into his classroom and shut the door behind you. He’s sitting at his desk looking at you with a raised brow. You’re surprised he’s not laughing at you for being embarrassingly out of breath. “Cas can you please please please take Mary with you after school? And for the love of god take the long way home.”
He smirks at you knowing full well what this is about. The few attempts he’s made at dating she's done the same thing to him. She's a very efficient cockblock. “Exactly how bad do you want me to take her?” He says with an amused look on his face as he leans back in his chair.
You groan and slump your shoulders. “What do you want?”
When he smiles at you, you know you’re not going to like his answer. “Take my week for being lunchroom monitor and a week of driving Gabriel for me.”
You groan again dramatically. Lunchroom monitor alone sucks. But driving Gabriel that’s just pure torture. He got his license suspended for 6 months for reckless driving. Now Cas has to drive him everywhere. Gabriel drove him around when he first moved to California and had no car so he couldn’t really in good conscience tell him no. You cross your arms over your chest and stomp your foot petulantly at Cas. “You are so mean. What did I ever do to you?”
“Not a thing, but it’ll make me happy not to suffer alone anymore. So how badly do you want an hour alone with Dean?”
Dammit. You’re so desperate for even 10 minutes alone with Dean. Imagine what you can do with an hour. You know you’re probably going to hate yourself for this later. “Okay Cas, deal.”
He smiles as he stands up and gives your pouty face a kiss on the cheek then gives you a hug. “I suggest making the most of that hour. Because I’m sure you’ll want to throw Gabriel out of the car while it’s moving down the highway.”
“Thanks Cas.” You grumble sarcastically.
You get home in record timing but you’re disappointed when Dean isn’t there. You had texted him that you got Cas to take Mary after school. He just texted you back with some suggestive emojis. Thankfully he’s the manager now at the shop he works at so he can make his own schedule.
The sound of the Impala pulling into the driveway with tires screeching brings a smile to your face. You hear Dean’s heavy footsteps as he runs up the stairs to the front door which flies open with extra and unnecessary force. “How long do we have?” He says as he stalks his way over to you.
“At least an hour.”
He growls as he picks you up, throwing you over his shoulder. “Oh the things I’m going to do to you sweetheart.” You squeal and grab onto his shirt to steady yourself. “Promise?” You say coyly. Dean just responds by grunting and slapping you on the ass.
Before you know it he’s dropping you on the bed and pouncing on top of you, crashing his lips hungrily against yours. You moan and wrap your legs around him while trying to pull him impossibly closer. While you devour each other’s mouths Dean blindly reaches into the nightstand.
You whine when he breaks the kiss. Then you get confused when he starts laughing. “Are you fucking serious?” He says with a humorless laugh.
“What? I don’t understand.”
He sighs as he holds up the condom box and shakes it. You went back to using them after Mary was born to prevent any accidents. “It’s empty. We’re all out. I forgot to buy more.”
“Are you fucking kidding me?! We have an hour. It’ll take forever to run to the store.”
Dean tosses the empty box and wipes his hand down his face. “Maybe Cas has some. I can run over there and check.”
Now it’s your turn to sigh as you shake your head. “No, he's still horrified from the time Mary went through his dresser drawer and found a box. He keeps them in his car now. She’s not even here and she’s still cockblocking us.” You can’t help but laugh out the last part as you say it. Then you decide to just say fuck it. “Oh well at this point I don’t care. I’m on birth control so take your fucking pants off and fuck me.”
Dean looks at you with a raised brow. “Yeah, but baby...accidents still happen. We both know that. So...what if another accident happens?”
“Then it happens.”
Dean’s eyes darken. He gets a lustful look in his eye. You can tell that thought excites him. Without another word he reaches under your skirt and practically rips your underwear off. Then he jumps off the bed throwing his shirt on the floor and unbuckles his belt and pants. He pulls you off the bed, lifts you by your thighs and pins you between his body and the wall. "You want your brother to fuck you sensless till you can't remember your own name?"
“Fuck yes.” You groan as you reach between your bodies and line his painfully hard cock up with your entrance. He quickly pushes fully inside you in one swift motion and crashes his lips against yours.
“Does that mean I can come in you?” He gasps against your lips.
You nibble on his bottom lip and grab onto his shoulders. “Fill me up baby.”
A low and deep growl escapes him. He grips your thighs tighter and moves his lips to your neck, nipping at your skin. Then without warning he starts pounding into fast and hard. Giving you exactly what you've both been craving.
"Fuck I love your cock."
"All for you. I'm all yours baby."
"And I'm all yours."
You're both so tightly wound you know neither of you are going to last long. You can already feel your orgasm building. "Fuck Dean I'm close. Come with me. Come inside me."
He groans at your words and bites down on the junction between your neck and shoulder making you cry out and come hard. He slams into you with extra force and comes the same time as you. You drop your forehead to his shoulder trying to catch your breath as you feel him pulsating inside you.
After a minute or so he flops back on the bed holding you on top of him. His cock still buried inside you. "Don't worry I'm not done with you yet sweetheart. Far from it actually."
You lean down grabbing both his hands and lacing your fingers together and kiss him softly. “I’ll never be done with you.” He smiles and kisses you again. “You and me baby.”
“Always Dean. You and me.”