Chapter Text
Brook's POV
I was broken; there was no other way to put it. I felt broken but numb at the same time. I watched from afar as Jack drifted towards her and away from me. Now, me and Jack were never officially together however we found our way back to each other every nights, sometimes cuddling and sometimes more. I had given my all to him, the only person who I had trusted enough. Shortly after, I noticed he was spending more time on his phone, her name coming up again and again and I began to realise that he'd never felt the same. He'd spend his days with her and then still try to ring his way back into my bed at night.
At first I'd go to Mikey, knowing Rye and Andy would likely be in Rye's room together. But Mikey wasn't happy and we knew he'd be leaving us eventually. It still hurt to make that video and that night I cried myself to sleep in his bed in the hoodie he left for me. Mikey has always been the one who gave me advice, whenever I was tossed aside by Jack he was the one who picked me back and cleaned me, making sure I was okay. He always told me to stop going back but the heartache I felt when I wasn't with Jack was like a drug pulling me in.
As the weeks progressed Mikey's room because less of a sanctuary and his hoodie lost the scent that had comforted me through everything. I found that I began waking on the floor of Andy's room with no recollection of how I got there. At first I could sneak out before him and Rye woke but as I began to withdraw more and become frailer, I would wake surrounded by two of my brothers, who were often just softly talking about random topics.
When the subject of a new member was brought up for the first time I remember the feeling of panic rising in my chest before running from the room. It was Andy who found me first passed out on the forest floor my knuckles bloody from an incident I couldn't remember. His voice was the only thing I could make out through the pounding in my ears as I tried to gain my bearings back. You eventually came round to the idea of trialling a new member after I found out who it was. Ryan has visited a few times before and he has always been kind and patient with me. I couldn't wait for him to arrive and I already knew he'd fit in with us perfectly and I was excited at the prospect of having anew face in the house.
Jack's reaction to his arrival, on the other hand, was less than desirable. He wouldn't let me go, even when the camera was off, he kept me by his side. He only left when she rang asking to hand out. Sonny was the first to approach, beating Rye and Andy who has begun to rush over the second Jack had left.
"Why don't you show me around, darling?" His smooth voice sent calming waves through me as he slipped his hand into mine, pulling me carefully to get me walking.
As we walked, we spoke quietly about anything and everything, it felt comfortable to talk to him and I found myself telling him about Jack and what happened. I don't know what has come over me but he was easy to talk to and he didn't judge me once, he even offered to help me talk to Jack to make everything okay. As we reached Fovvs' room, we saw that he still had is writing and recording equipment set up so Sonny suggested we should write something together. After 3 hours Rye and Andy has come to find us, insisting that we should sing them the song.
(Song at top of page)
Lately I'm getting lost on you
You got me doing things I never thought I'd do
Never spent so long on a losing battle
But lately giving up don't seem to matter
Everyday I'm a slave to the heartache
And you're wasting away every night
I don't wanna leave you lonely
But I've run out of love this time
You know that I adore you
Though I couldn't give enough
Hope you'll be safe in the arms of another
'Cause I can't take the weight of your love
Lately I'm getting lost on you
I tore your world apart like it was nothing new
Never bled so much when I didn't have to
I'm given up on a life lived after
Everyday I'm a slave to the heartache
And you're wasting away every night
I don't wanna leave you lonely
But I've run out of love this time
You know that I adore you
Though I couldn't give enough
Hope you'll be safe in the arms of another
'Cause I can't take the weight of your love
I had a hold on your soul
But I lost my grip, let you go
I should've carried us both
Everyday I'm a slave to the heartache
And you're wasting away every night
Don't wanna leave you lonely
But I've run out of love this time
You know that I adore you
Though I couldn't give enough
Hope you'll be safe in the arms of another
'Cause I can't take the weight of your love
Of your love
Hope you'll be safe in the arms of another
'Cause I can't take the weight of your love
I looked up after I had finished singing, both boys with tears in their eyes and smiles on their faces. I tensed ass I caught sight of Jack stood in the doorway but slim arms encircling my waist made me relax again. Jack opened his mouth to say something but I cut him off, "Jack, I gave you every piece of me but it was never good enough, was it?" I took a breath feeling the arms tighten around me before I continued, "I adored you and you used that to your advantage. I can't keep doing this because you love her, but you keep pulling me back every time she can't be there for you." His eyes cast downwards and he went to speak before changing his mind and turning to go to his room. In an attempt to shield myself from everything I shifted in Sonny's arms, hiding myself in his neck, tears threatening to escape but I refused to let them fall. I heard Sonny tell the remaining two something before I was being lifted from my position; I squeaked wrapping my legs around him tighter and I heard his chuckle as he walked to my room.
"Monkey, are you okay? I know you haven't known me long but you can talk to me." He was trying to coax me into letting go so I could lie on my bed but I shook my head gripping onto him even stronger than before. "You're really living up to that nickname, monkey. But I need to put you down. C'mon."
I whined aloud at this, pulling my body up as I felt his grip loosening trying to put me down. "Stay." I whispered, pausing before adding "Please." I heard him sigh as he pulled the covers back and placing me down on the bed, not wanting to push him, I let got and rolled over hiding my face in my pillow not wanting to see him leave. He sighed again before climbing into the bed behind me turning me over so I could tuck my head under his chin.
"How am I meant to say no to that monkey?" I could feel his laughter rumbling beneath my head as his fingers began to card through my hair. Suddenly feeling extremely tired, I yawned, rubbing my face on his chest and closing my eyes. Just before I lost consciousness completely, I felt a feather light kiss being placed on the top of my head, a promise of what was to come. And for the first time in a while I felt safe in the arms of another as if nothing could hurt me.
(Word Count: 1098)