Chapter Text
Intro Therapy Session
Patient: Park Minkyun
Examiner: Kwon Jaemin
Some information may be blacked out due to patient confidentiality.
To see full original reports, please contact the Head of Medical.
-START-
[00:00:00]
Kwon: Good morning, Minkyun.
Park: Good morning.
Kwon: My apologies for pulling you out of your lessons. The director and I have discussed your mental health examination conducted during initiation, as well as your following check up. We've both agreed that your behaviour is a cause for concern, and that therapy sessions will be added to your schedule.
Park: ...I see.
Kwon: Please know that we are merely trying to help, Minkyun. Your experiences at Starship are ones that we assume are not of the norm, especially for agent companies.
[Park plays with his fingers]
Park: Alright.
Kwon: Have you ever had therapy before?
[Park looks around]
Park: ...No.
Kwon: It's not as bad as you think. We'll be meeting up every Wednesday for around an hour before you normally leave for home. I can't guarantee that these sessions will go smoothly. There is a serious detriment happening to your health and you know it better than anyone else.
Kwon: We'll start off very slowly. Just for today, I'll ask some small questions about your time at Starship. Nothing has to be in extreme detail for the time being.
[Park nods]
[00:01:11]
Kwon: First, how were you recruited into Starship?
Park: I was scouted when I was 14. We — my parents and I — were told that they were an entertainment company.
Kwon: So they lied to you?
Park: Yes. They threw me right into training with the other recruits. Wouldn't let me leave; I had already signed the contract so there was no backing out until it ended.
Kwon: How long did it bind for?
Park: Five years, if I believe.
[00:01:42]
[Kwon nods]
Kwon: Standard for any company. [Kwon flips to a new page] How were their training regiments like?
[Park's fists tighten]
Park: I don't have anything to compare it to. Grueling? Tiring? There was a lot on our schedules.
Kwon: Such as?...
Park: Combat training. Tactics. Basic medical training. Marksmanship. [Park pauses] Mental training.
[Kwon frowns]
Kwon: Interesting. Were there any particular areas that piqued your interest?
Park: Marksmanship. I found it very easy to adjust to and quickly brought my skill to an advanced level. [Park averts his gaze]
[00:02:27]
Kwon: Alright. If you would, I'd like for you to timeline the experience at Starship. We will be identifying the individual traumas that appear and go more in depth during later sessions. What did they start you off with when you first joined? How did you feel about it? Let's go from here, first.
Park: Well, we were introduced to our bunkmates. Four of us per room.
Kwon: So you were in dorms. Did you live in a separate building than the company?
[Park shakes his head]
Park: We lived in the company. It was more convenient to do so. Allowed us to get to training easier.
Kwon: Interesting. What conditions were the rooms in?
Park: Clean. Minimal. Two bunks, tables for each bunkmate in the corners. Decently sized. [Park licks his lips] One window, if I could really call it that. A 30cm by 100cm reinforced glass pane, probably 40cm away from the top of the ceiling. It was enough to keep us sane.
[Kwon frowns. He continues to write.]
Kwon: And your bunkmates? What was your relationship with them?
Park: We were amicable. Pretty close bonds, I would say. We only trusted each other. I fell out a few months before my transfer.
[00:03:52]
Kwon: What about training?
Park: They don't show you mercy, even if you're a newbie. It's hard the first few weeks. We all got used to it after a while.
Kwon: Did they punish you for doing anything wrong?
Park: Yeah. Usually if you can't get it right or if you argue with the instructors.
Kwon: How so?
Park: Menial things like hitting you. Never anything else though. They didn't think that trivial things like a "timeout" would do anything substantial in the conditioning.
Kwon: So, mental trauma from being yelled at, as well as physical abuse?
Park: Sure.
[00:04:34]
[Kwon bites his lip]
Kwon: Let's continue on with the timeline. Please, describe things right after your first year — your feelings, how everything felt.
Park: By the end of the first year, I… Hadn't made much progress, to be honest. I wasn't very good at combat, could never quite apply the skills in practice. Tactics I absorbed pretty well, but once again, couldn't put them to good use in our evaluations. I'd get all frazzled and forget. Marksmanship was the only thing I was good at.
Kwon: You said evaluations. What did those entail?
-BLACK OUT-
[00:07:40]
[Kwon sighs]
Kwon: Alright. Moving on to the first half of the second year. Did anything significant happen?
[Park fidgets]
Park: Things happened. Things I'd rather not talk about.
Kwon: That's understandable. We will have to get to them eventually, though.
Park: I know. Just… not now, please.
Kwon: Alright. How did you feel at the end of that first half? No need to explain, just a few words to sum it up is perfectly fine.
[Park looks away]
Park: [whispers] I became who you see now.
[00:08:19]
Kwon: And then the second half of your second year?
Park: ...I don't remember.
Kwon: You don't remember? Or you would rather not say?
Park: No, I- I really don't… quite remember. It's all just… [whispers] a blur.
[Kwon pauses]
Kwon: I see. I think that's enough for today. Thank you for your time, Minkyun.
[00:08:51]
-END-
Notes:
- Unconventional living conditions.
- -BLACKOUT-
- Potential extreme dissociation during his last months at Starship.
Next session will start with Eye Movement Desensitization and Reprocessing Therapy.