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when i speak, you bet your life my words are true by waitinbythephone
Fandoms: Hunter X Hunter
04 Oct 2020
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Summary
He wakes with a gasp, and for a second, he feels haunted, plagued by the memories of the events that just took place, confused and oh so miserable.
He feels emptier than he ever has in his life.He didn't feel this empty when he was forced to run until he could no longer move until his muscles gave out from exhaustion and he vomited and collapsed.
He didn't feel this empty when he was suffocated in the fountain of the family garden, the only place where he felt comfortable. He learned that he could never let his guard down that day.
He didn't feel this empty when he was burned, and hit, and poisoned, and simply tortured in every and any way his family could come up with, day and night, for years on end.
He feels this emptiness now, that his brain tricks him into thinking he's lost Gon, and not only lost him but done it himself, giving Illumi the satisfaction of thinking he was right, after all these years. Unable to love, unable to escape from his grasp, unable to choose.
THIS ENDS WELL I PROMISE PLEASE DONT BE SCARED OF READING THIS I WOULD CRY ITS JUST A NIGHTMARE FIC
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MSSLWOALSNJDALSKDKEEIFJDJ SO ANGSTY BUT ALSO SO DEEP AND MEANINGFULL 😭😭😭😭😭❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
(Also pretty long and existential but still incredible) -
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im crying now :thumbsup: