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We were all about ready to get into the car. After we dropped Jamie off at school I would have to find something else to do, it was going to be boring without him. He was dressed in his school uniform or at least I think that was the full uniform. He had on the vest from when we roleplayed, which was weird cause I thought that was a part of a different outfit. Setsuka didn’t seem to mind so I ignored it.
“Okay!” Jamie saluted and gave a cute smile to me.
I patted his back, “looking good, kiddo.”
“Alright, let’s go before he’s late ,” Setsuka said. We all climbed into the car, Jamie insisted that I sit next to him in the back seat. Of course I didn’t mind. “Okay are you boys ready?” We both nodded and Setsuka drove us off. Even though summer wasn’t technically over, it really felt like it was. I couldn’t help but wonder how Jamie was going to do in 4th grade, I was curious about the friends he would make.
I looked over to him and smiled, that’s when he unbuckled his seat belt and inched over to me. “Jamie, what are you-” I tried to whisper to him but he cupped my crotch and started kissing me. What was wrong with him? His Mom is right there! I tried to push him off but he would hardly budge.
“Come one, why don’t you fuck me again before I have to get out,” Jamie whispered in my ear as we came to the intersection near his school. What the fuck was he doing? He was acting crazy.
“Jamie, stop!” I accidentally screamed at him, which caught the attention of his Mother.
She turned her head to us and started shouting, “hey, what are you two doing! I told you none of that stuff while I’m around and you have to get to sch-” she was interrupted by a loud bang, and then silence. My eyes were shut and my body ached. I opened them slowly and suddenly I was upside down in the car, or it was more like the car was upside down.
There was broken glass everywhere, I checked my hands but they were undamaged. My seatbelt had torn and was no longer around me. I couldn’t process anything that was happening. Horror took over to me when I looked over to the driver’s seat and saw Setsuka motionless, hanging from her seat. I panicked and looked around, “JAMIE?!” I screamed. Looking outside the broken window there was a figure on the ground looking just like him. I quickly crawled out from the car, shards of glass cut me on the way out but I was too manic to really feel it.
I ran to Jamie, he must’ve been flown out of the car. I tried holding him, his eyes were wide open and he looked pale. He was bleeding out of everywhere, nose, mouth and ears. “Jamie, are you okay!?” I shouted. No answer. Not even a twitch in the eyes. “Jamie!” Still nothing. I tried to feel for a heartbeat but I lost feeling in my hands for some reason, they were shaking violently as well. “Jamie… please… tell me you’re okay,” I begged but there was nothing but silence. “Jamie… Jamie… Jamie… Jamie!” I let my tears flow, what the fuck had just happened? There’s no way he could be...
Someone tapped me on the shoulder I turned, it was a cop. He asked, “Oof, that kid doesn’t look well. We got a report from a witness that you were trying to have sex with this boy in the car. Is that true?”
“Wha…” I was too dizzy and in grief to know what was going on.
“Apparently you distracted his Mother, and she didn’t see an oncoming car. How old are you?”
“I don’t… twe- I mean thirteen.”
“You’re thirteen and you were trying to have sex with this little kid? Something is wrong with you, sonny. You’re going to have to come with me.” The officer suddenly grabbed onto my shirt and tried pulling me away.
“Huh, no! Get the fuck off of me!” I kicked and fought, I wasn’t letting go of Jamie no matter what.
“Hey, stop resisting!”
“GET OFF, SOMEBODY HELP ME!” I screamed but it was futile, the police officer was much stronger than I was and I was losing my grip. He wrapped his arm around my neck and tried to pry me from my best friend and lover. I had the instinct to bite him, so I did.
“Ah fuck!” He flinched. “Alright that’s enough!” I saw him pull back his arm and propel his fist towards me.
“AHHH!!!” I screamed… but I wasn’t on the street anymore. My eyes and head were hazy and took a moment to adjust. I was in Jamie’s room again, I darted my eyes around the room and saw Jamie. He was standing by his closet, he was in his underwear buttoning up a black collared shirt. I pulled back the covers and looked at my body, I was just wearing my underwear too with not a scratch on me, just how I had fallen asleep.
“What’s wrong?” That beautiful, high pitched voice spoke to me. “You were moving around and talking in your sleep, so I assumed you were dreaming.” Nothing, NOTHING was better than finding out that Jamie was not only perfectly fine, but that it had just been a nightmare.
I started crying, I couldn’t tell if the tears were sad or not. “Aw, hey!” Jamie ran up to me and gave me a hug. “Oh wait, don’t cry on my uniform.” He unbuttoned it again and I cried into his bare chest. We had a talk, he woke up early and took a shower. He said I looked like I was sleeping so peaceful so he didn’t want to wake me when he was only getting ready. I told him all about my nightmare, every detail I could remember, even how I felt.
I took a deep sigh and the effects of my nightmare had disappeared, crying actually woke me up. “Ugh, sorry about that. Didn’t mean for our morning to be me crying about some stupid dream,” I said.
“It’s alright Davie, I would’ve cried too if I had a dream like that.” He started getting dressed again. “You should get dressed though, we’re leaving soon.”
“Right,” I rubbed my eyes and stood up. Looking over at Jamie, his actual uniform is nothing like the one in my dream, the only similarity was the shorts. I felt so stupid that I didn’t realize, I guess since I had never seen him before in his actual full uniform, my brain had filled in the gaps. I grabbed whatever mismatched pieces of clothing I could. Just some sweatpants and a t-shirt. When Jamie got dressed, his shirt wasn’t buttoned correctly and his shoes were left untied.
“Davie, can you help me out…” He said softly as if he was completely embarrassed. It seems that his Mom would help him dress correctly and he didn’t know how yet.
“Of course.” I knelt down and tied his shoes, and made sure the buttons on his shirt were nice and orderly. He also didn’t bother to tuck his shirt in so I did it for him. After I was done I held his hips and smiled at him, he smiled back. “You look adorable,” I told him. He bent down and kissed me and I kissed back.
We heard a knock and then the door open, “Come on kids, let’s get going…” Setsuka said. She saw what we were doing and Jamie broke our kiss. He smiled but I turned my head in shame. She didn’t say anything though, so we made no big deal out of it.
In the car anxiety washed over me. Like we were going to crash, just like in my dream. I actually jumped when Jamie grabbed my hand to hold it. I looked over and made sure his seatbelt was still on, it was. I was being too panicky for no good reason. I realized why I had that dream. I was afraid that I had corrupted him, that he’s lost all the innocence that a little boy should have and it was going to come back around and cause disaster. Even if he wasn’t trying to do something dirty right now, I still felt like I had made a mistake, that I should’ve prevented it from getting this far.
We pulled up to the school, “I hope you didn’t forget anything, Jamie.” Setsuka said.
“I didn’t, Mom.” He opened the door and turned to me real quick, leaning forward for one last kiss.
“Nuh-uh,” Setsuka interrupted. Not only was she here, but we were right in front of a schoolyard where other kids could see. Jamie backed up and smiled.
“Have a good day, Jamie.” I smiled back at him.
“I will... see you after school!” Jamie ran off clutching the straps of his backpack. I didn’t know for sure, but it felt like this is the first time he’s gone off to school as a happy kid. I scooted over to the window and watched him. There’s no way he couldn’t become popular, he was a good looking kid who found new confidence, he’ll do great.
“You look like you’ll never get to see him again,” Setsuka said before she pulled out of the parking space, taking us back home-... I mean Jamie’s home.
“Huh? Oh… yeah I know,” I replied and folded my hands on my lap. Silence filled the car except for the roaring of the engine, and the sounds of traffic we were passing. I was still ashamed in front of Setsuka even if it had been a while since our talk about Jamie. Nothing was being gained from keeping silent though. “Hey um… why are you still nice to me?”
“What do you mean?” She asked.
“Like… you threw a party for me… you’re still so patient… I thought you would hate me.”
“Hate you because?”
“You know… cause of Jamie and I.... and stuff,” I tried to dance my way around saying anything explicit.
“Oh David… I’m not thrilled about it but I don’t hate you either. I know you’re a good kid with good intentions.” We both became silent again, I was satisfied with her answer. “Do you know what he told me when I had that alone talk with him?” I assume she’s talking about the day we got caught.
“No, Jamie never told me,” I assumed it wasn’t important as long as we can keep being together.
“He immediately got on his knees begging me to allow you back. He told me everything, how he developed a fascination for you the first day he saw you. How he thought of you as a superhero, like the one from that comic, martyr-whatever.” I forgot about him saying that, I always saw myself as more of a villain than a hero. “Then how that idiolization developed into love. I thought that was ridiculous at first, like how could a boy his age be in love? But there really wasn’t any other way to see it.”
She continued, “The most embarrassing part was when he told me how he… discovered his body after you first came over.” I blushed, he told me he had gotten hard before, but not the first day I tutored him. “He told me all the things you had taught him, like not being spoiled and acting more mature and brave. He said you fulfilled him. That before you came he was miserable, that he felt weak… and that he didn’t really want to live anymore.” I glared at Setsuka in shock. “Despite his age and how he acts, he has a lot of mature feelings.”
“But after you started to bond with him, all of that changed. He was excited for every new day, he was curious and full of energy. When you weren’t around, he started talking to me more as well.” I could hardly believe what she was saying but all the evidence was there. “People would call me a terrible mother for allowing you to keep seeing each other, saying Jamie is much too young for those things. But how can I take that away from him, how could I rip away something that makes my son so happy… I can’t. You took my depressed, shy, scared little boy and turned him into a cheerful, proud, confident one. How could I possibly hate you for that?”
The more I thought about it the more it sounded possible. It’s hard to imagine I had a positive effect on anyone in my life though. I guess that one kid from the party last year but… I always regretted interfering. As we came to an intersection near the house, I imagined Jamie next to me in the car. I knew I would see him in a few hours but I couldn’t help but want him back now. I imagined him smiling at me, crawling over to me and puckering his lips for a kiss, then I imagine the kiss. It reminded me of something.
Setsuka turned her head to me and smiled.
The End.