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One.
It was a sunny but a not so bright day for the blond, he finally had enough of all the torture his life went through.
He went upstairs up to the school rooftop, the very highest and tallest part of the school.
He figured he wanted to atleast give a suicide letter before taking his shoes off and end his terrible life- however..
When he was about to take his shoes off on the rooftop there he saw, a girl with braided hair here before him, here right infront of him, his eyes widened.
He didn't even think before speaking, he rubbed his eyes with his own sweater and he just go and screamed.
"Hey!" he shouts getting the other's attention
As the girl turned around, green watermelon eyes met with honey soft eyes. Her eyes full with bittersweerness as she locked eyes with the blond.
"Don't do it! Please!" He replied, and the other's eyes widened
She wiped her tears away and came down from where she was standing heading over to the trembling blond.
Wait a minute..!
What did he just say?! He couldn't even care less either way! To be honest he was somewhat pissed! This was an opportunity missed..
He's so upset right now but he can't show it..!
Unless not until this pink haired right infront of him is gonna do a deathly sin withou even having any explanation!!
"I'm sorry you have to see me like this zenitsu-kun.." the girl whose named is mitsuri apologized
The blond quickly shakes his head in embarrassment.
"Ah! N-no! It's okay mitsuri-san!" he replied, they sat down for a good moment before mitsuri spoke up.
"You've probably heard it all before" she started, a sad smile forming in her face
"I really.. Really thought that he was the one.." she says, frowning as she looked over to thr sky
"But, just the other day, he broke up with me and told me that i was not the girl he was looking for afterall" she explains, another tear rolled down her cheeks
Zenitsu couldn't really help but feel upset, that guy was stupid, mitsuri-san was plenty beautiful herself that any guy could've fall head over heels for her, there's even obanai-san who has a crush on her for a long period of time now! How could she not notice that?!
This is, a waste time of talk!
"For god's sake please.." he started, mitsuri turned her gaze to him
"Zenitsu-?"
"Are you serious right now?! I can't believe this!"
"That's.. Some stupid reason y-you got there mitsuri-san!" he says to, turning his angry gaze to her
Just because of that she came up here before him?! That's utterly ridiculous! He's been single his entire life, he has been rejected many times by many many girls! And yet.. Why is mitsuri crying over a stupid boy?!
Her eyes looked down, a tint of disappointment in her sound, she was sad and he knows that but..
"Are you upset cause you can't have what you wanted..?" he asked and handed her his handkerchief avoiding her gaze
She looked at the kerchief in his hand took it to wipe her tears away.
"Y-you're lucky that you've never gotten robbed of anything..!"
Unlike him..
Her eyes widened by the sudden outburst of the blond, tears started rolling down in her cheeks.
"There's.. Plenty of guys out there! And i'm pretty sure that many of them has a good personality! So.. Forget about that moron cause he doesn't deserve you okay?!"
And with that, mitsuri hugged him and cried.
"Thank you.. Thank you for listening to me zenitsu-kun.. I'm feeling much better now.." she smiled and lets go of him and bid him farewell heading towards the exit as she disappeared
The blond let out a sigh of relief.
Guess not today.
Two.
Alright! Today's the day- or so he thought. There was another girl, shorter than him, crying on the rooftop and before she could do what she should, the blond screamed getting her attention
"Oi! What do you think you're doing?!" he says and the girl turned around to see him
The girl, whose name was aoi.. came down and went to where the blond was.
"Zenitsu-san.. Why are you?" she asked, wiping all her tears away
"What?! I should be asking you that! What in the world is going on with you?!" he shouts
After she calmed down, they leaned on the railings of the rooftop, the blond looked up at the sky.
Yet another opportunity missed. Again.
"So?" he started, the girl was silent fot a minute but spoke anyway.
"Sorry.. You've probably heard this all before.." she started.
He didn't replied, just listened to her.
"Everyone ignores me like i'm some kind of trash that should be avoided at all cost.. Everyone steals all my stuff.. I don't think that i fit with anyone here.."
For another's god's please just let him end his suffering.
Are you serious right now? That is another one stupid reason right there and yet she got here before him?! God..
"If you think that nobody loves you then you're utterly more stupid than me." he replied
"What did you-"
"Cause even so.." he cuts her before she could speak any farther
"You're still lucky.." he continues and the other turned her gaze to his direction
"Lucky..?" she looked at him, her eyes filled with confusion
"Because.. You're still loved by everyone at home!" he added and the other's eyes widened.
He looked at her, his eyes almost on the verge of tears.
This girl's situation is the same situation he's in right now. Except.. He lived alone, his brother murdered someone and got declared death penalty, and his grandfather committed suicide due to depression of losing his own grandson, and before dying he told his one and only grandson.. "You are my pride and joy.. Don't ever forget that boy.."
"There's always dinner waiting on the table you know!" he shouts at her face.
The girl looked at her, surprised by his own sudden outburst.
"I'm hungry" she says as she shed a tear, with a rare smile showing on her face.
Aoi bid him farewell and disappeared in the exit. The blond sighed and looked up at the sky with a frown.
Guess not today too.
He went to the rooftop for almost everyday and yet there are was always someone there, what is this. Are the gods trying to make him not kill himself?!
Surely enough there wasn't a single day that there was no one in the rooftop, there's always someone and the blond would listen to their story tale of their life and problems. He relates to them, he really does, but their reason wasn't enough to make them do it.
Zenitsu has more bigger and deeper problems than all of the students in this school.
After his gramps died, he felt so ashamed of himself, so to make it up for his gramps's death, he became what he wanted him to be, everything he couldn't back when his gramps was still there.
He became the school's student council president and became top among all the class.
And yet. It doesn't matter.
None of his hardwork matters.
Going to school just to hear students gossiping about him, ignoring him, treating him like some kind of trash, physically bullying him, stealing and ruining all his stuff, even his locker was ruined, and then coming home from a tiring day at school only to be greeted by no one but himself only.
He made all of them turned away. He was happy because he's glad that he could help them.
Yet, there was no one.. Who would do this for him, never.. He was trash, he was useless and worthless even.
There was no way he could let out all this pain in his chest that kept for a long period of time now. Years even.
Three.
For the very first time in his life, there he saw someone.. With the same pains as him, the other knew he was there so she didn't even bother looking at his direction.
The girl has a side ponytail, her eyes showing no emotions at all, she wore a yellow sweater meanint she was a second year. The blond could only look at her, his mouth opened but no words escaped.
He knew him, they knew each other. But they never spoke. Her name was kanao, the school's most popular girl.
Why.. Would she go here? He's plenty sure that she has no problems.. Right?
"I just want to stop the scars that grow.. Everytime that i go home.." she started, her eyes looking straight ahead.
The blond couldn't find any words to say, this.. This hasn't happened to him before, he's handled a lot of this before but.. Why?
"That's why i came up here instead" she said. Her side ponytail blown by the wind.
She's beautiful. But somehow, she seems so empty.
Before the blond could think properly, he came up to her and tug her sweater, his eyes trying not to show any tears.
"Hey.. Don't do it.. Please!" he says.
The girl turned to him with a smile, causing him to cry and kneel on the ground. Agh! What should he do?! This girl.. This girl is dead serious! Now that he noticed, he have been helping others lately that he doesn't even know how to handle his own self..
The girl sat down to match his height, looking at him with her pitiful expression.
Please.. Please just go away so he can't see your pitiful expression cause it's just too much for him! Just.. Go away and let him be..
The girl stands up.
"I guess today's just not my day" she says as she turned to the exit.
There's no one here today, that's good. He guesses it's time.
It's just he, himself, and him.
No one to interfere and no one to get on his way here.
He took of his sweater revealing only his long sleeves and his shoes, he took one last look on the view, he smiled to himself as his hair getting blown by the wind.
"Goodbye, world"
He jumped.
But.
Someone grabbed both of his hands, and when he opens his eyes, he sees tanjirou and inosuke both grabbing his hands.
"Zenitsu!"
"Zuitsu! You fucking dumbass what the hell?!"
He stared at them, not knowing what to say, when they finally got him off the railing, they all fell to the ground with the blond dumbfounded.
What.. Is going on..?
"Why-" before he could properly react, the redhead hugged him tight, tears rolling down his cheeks
"Why did you do that zenitsu?! Do you want us to lose you?!" tanjirou shouts angrily
"YEAH! ARE YOU INSANE?!" inosuke added, angry emerald eyes looking at him.
"I.."
This is too much. He just wanted to jump, why do they have to go and save him?! They're the worst.. They really are..
"It's okay.." the blond started and pulled away from the redhead.
"I don't care if i die.."
"What do you mean you don't care?!" tanjirou replied
"I'm useless.. I'm worthless.. I'm trash.. And i don't deserve you two.. Don't worry, just go find another friend that would-"
"NO! DON'T THINK THAT WE'RE EVER GONNA DO THAT! THAT SOUNDS LIKE BULLSHIT!" Inosuke cuts him, grabbing his collar
"But i-"
"IF YOU THINK THAT YOU'RE NOTHING BUT A PIECE OF SHIT THEN YOU'RE BULLSHIT!"
"What are-"
"You think we don't know, zen?" tanjirou cuts him and the blond turned his gaze to him.
"You always come up to the school rooftop, tried to jump but before you even could, there was always someone and you end up helping them instead" tanjirou explains, wiping all his tears away
"Zenitsu.." tanjirou calls, he placed his hands on the blond much to his surprise.
"The people you encountered and talked to on this rooftop told us everything and how they were grateful" he says with his kind smile.
The blond looked at the ground, fists clenched.
"It's a lie.. But thank you" he muttered
"It wasn't a lie idiot" inosuke replied taking out a bunch of letters and putting it onto the ground.
He looked at all the letters surprised as ever, are these love confessions..?! Or hate letters?!
"What is this?"
"See it for yourself" inosuke replied
He gulped and took a look at the letters and for once in his life, he shed a real tear of joy. The letters sent was for him, it was a thamk you letter.
He couldn't believe it.. The students were thanking him, they cared for him that it made him hug all the letters and cry.
He grabbed both of his friends and hugged them tight, never letting go.
"I'm sorry.. I'm sorry.. I'll never do it again.. Thank you.. I love you two.." he finally said it outloud making it more like a love confession thank a thank you message
His words shocked his two friends and they hugged him back with a smile full of tears.
"We love you too idiot" they both replied.
And he could've never been more happier than his entire life, what's more better than zenitsu smiling? Yeah, nothing case closed.
After that, tanjirou gave zenitsu a harsh scolding and he bows to never do it again.