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Hey, everyone. This work is now an abandoned work in progress. I’m really sorry to do this to you all but I feel that I owe you all an explanation as I hate when authors just abandon fics without at least giving some sort of explanation why.
I’m currently attempting to become a nurse and last semester in my anatomy and physiology class we learned about the reproductive system. And I mean we learned absolutely everything you could want to know about the tissues, glands, ovaries, vagina, penis….If you have something of that variety, we learned about it. It did not make me want to come home and write smut, it made me want to go home and avoid anything to do sex all together. It quite honestly made anything to do with sex uncomfortable. I am not a prudish person but when you go into that much detail and have to memorize and remember what they’re supposed to do, it kind of drains your drive to do anything sexual.
Winter is not a very good time for me. I have a variety of health problems including joint problems, snap hip and Raynaud’s. My Raynaud’s which makes my fingers numb makes it extremely difficult to type sometimes and at times painful. Our furnace unfortunately went out in about October as well and that did help any. If the temperature gets below sixty five then I begin to have problems and my fingers will turn purple and go numb. The joint pain acts up and makes it just a pain to sit, stand and do much of anything.
I could feel myself starting to lose interest in this fic and tried really, really hard to find my interest in it again. When people started asking me though when I was going update or telling me to update soon, it got really annoying and made me lose more interest. I can’t just sit down and crank out smut quite honestly. I prefer for there to be something more other than: ‘oh, hey let’s bang’ and there’s nothing wrong with that. There are wonderful fics with that theme. But I wanted there to be something more than just straight smut all the way through. And I couldn’t draw that out of myself which as a writer was really discouraging. As of right now, I have absolutely zero plans to ever continue this. I mean ever. If I do then each chapter will probably have a word limit and I’ll have ideas written out for each character already. Again, I apologize. I just wanted to let everyone know my reasons for abandoning this fic.