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Mike had convinced both my mom and Kenny AND Hanji’s family to let us spend New Years with him and the rest of the group. 

“Be at my house at four,”

Is what he told me, Erwin, and Hanji. 

Erwin had asked me to come over to his house and from there we’d go to Mike’s, so I showed up to his house thirty minutes before four. A woman opened the door and I got frightened. She smiled sweetly at me and I blushed. 

“You must be Levi! Erwin has told me so much about you! He never shuts up about you, actually,”

Then a man who looked like an older version of Erwin popped up next to her. “Oh goodness, it’s Levi! Come in, Erwin’s still getting ready,” 

I was at a complete loss for words. 

“So Erwin told us he met you while you were out trick or treating,”

“...Yeah,”

“It’s okay, sweetheart, I don't believe there should be an age limit for that activity, I’d actually like it if Erwin went and did it too, he’s a boring old soul sometimes, make me even feel young,”

That got me to smile. “Yeah, he’s such an old man sometimes,”

“So how have you been? Erwin said your birthday was rather recent,”

“Christmas,”

“Oh! How wonderful- ah! Now I know why Mike stole him from eggnog that night. Maybe that's why Erwin looked so out of it too, poor thing looked so bored and sad and I was really worried, I’m glad it was because he was just missing you and wanted to be with you on your birthday,”

“No, it’s okay. It’s kind’ve a quiet day for me all the time. Can't say I didn't want the company this year, Erwin and Mike are a nice addition to my list of friends. I got three now,” 

And for once, I didn't receive a look of pity.

“Well with Mike comes like what… five more? So you really have eight now,” Mr. Smith nodded. “They are a group of six in total. I’m sure you've met them,”

“Yeah, there's… there's Petra and Eld… Gunther, Oluo, who doesn't really like me that much, and Nanaba, and she's literally my biggest fan,”

“Ugh, Oluo is just really insecure,” 

“I don't even like Petra like that,”

“Yes, Erwin mentioned you were gay,” 

For a moment I got mad, because what the heck. Why was Erwin going around telling people my business? But it’s true and I wasn't hiding anything. 

“Yeah, Erwin’s a pretty big rainbow himself,”

“I am not,” Erwin came down the stairs fixing the cuffs on his sleeves. I whistled at him. 

“Oh you so are, who are you even looking that good for?”

“Nanaba, I’m gonna ask her to be my.. girlfriend,”

“The fact that you cringed saying girlfriend just told me everything I needed to know,” I gently took his arm and helped him.

“I’m not a big rainbow,”

“Fine, I’m sorry if that offended you… the truth,”

His parents chuckled and Erwin huffed. He flicked my ear and stepped back. He smelled absolutely delicious.

“Do not get crazy tonight, okay? Have fun but don't go batshit,” Mrs. Smith raised an eyebrow at her son, who nodded. “Or did you think I didn't hear that a bottle of rum mysteriously went missing the day you went over to Mike’s house?”

“Why do you assume I had anything to do with it,”

“Because of that smile Levi has on his face,”

“Levi helped drink it,”

“Erwin broke the bottle when it was empty,”

Erwin whipped around to look at me. “How dare you,”

“You snitched on me with absolutely no hesitation! What the Hell? Like I see how well I can trust you now,”

“Now, now, don't fight. It’s okay. It's what teens do, sneak around. I’m just letting you know that I know and that I want you to be careful. Remember you have the car with you and you have to return with Levi, okay? In one piece,”

Erwin looked at me again and I stuck my tongue out at him.

“Is that how you're leaving your hair?” I asked.

“Nanaba likes a more messier look,”

I sighed. “Nanaba doesn't like younger men,”

“I’m confident,”

“No you're not,”

“I’m confident because I’m not five feet tall. Had I been then yeah, I’d be a little self conscious and not so… aggressively mean to others,”

I slid off the stool I was sitting on and made my way to the door.

“And where do you think you're going?”

“I’m walking to Mike’s, I like him better anyway, he’s nicer to me and not an asshole like you,” 

I closed the front door, but it immediately opened. “Get back inside, I told Kuchel I’d be taking you,”

“Well you can tell my mom that you bullied me and I decided to go on my own and that if I get kidnapped it’ll be your fault,”

“Levi, I will sit you on the couch like a child if you do not get back in the house right now,”

I stayed where I was, because I was a freak and wanted to know if Erwin actually had the balls, and he literally yanked me up and threw me over his shoulder. I groaned a little and Mrs. Smith gasped. “Erwin! Be careful with him!”

He gently tossed me on the couch and I layed there limp like a doll. “He’s fine,” 

“Well, please do not fight, your father and I have to leave now. Levi, it was nice meeting you for this short bit, you must come again for lunch,” 

“I will Mrs. Smith, it was nice meeting you both as well,” I smiled as I sat up.

We watched them walk to the car and drive off once inside. Then we looked at each other and exchanged mock-offended looks. “Can't believe you threw me,”

“Can't believe you moaned when I threw you,”

“You just make me super wet, your strength gets me horny,”

“Pause. Not saying you don't look nice but why are you going in sweatpants?”

“I’m not, I have my clothes in this bag,”

“Ah yes, the tiny backpack with all the space in the world. It's magical, I’m genuinely impressed with how much you manage to pack inside,”

I smiled and followed him upstairs. “Your parents are cool,”

“Yeah,” Erwin nodded.

“Smells amazing in here,”

“It’s the cologne,”

“Is it new?”

“Yes,” 

I smiled some more and sat down on his bed. “Navy blue looks nice on you,”

“It was either this or black,”

“Are you wearing anything underneath?”

“No, why?

I gently caressed his nipple and watched it perk up. “Cause that can happen to you,” Erwin smacked my hand down, and I moaned. “Harder, please,”

He blushed and looked away. 

I smiled and went to his bathroom to change. I packed some fishnets and ripped jeans and paired it with a black crop top and black blazer. I walked out of the bathroom doing a little dance and Erwin laughed. “You look beautiful,”

My heart fluttered. “Thank you,”

Erwin checked the time on his watch. “We need to head out,”

“You need to kiss me before we go party, it's for good luck,”

Erwin smiled and leaned forward and tipped my head up before he kissed me. It was just a gentle press, and it was probably only because we lingered near each other's faces that we didn't pull away… and continued kissing instead.

Erwin slipped my blazer off and hung it somewhere, but all I knew was that after that my back was against his bed and he was towering over me. My lips started to go numb before he slowly stopped. “I like how you kiss,” He told me, quietly.

“I like how you kiss too,” 

We stayed silent for a few moments before we leaned into each other again, a new hungry blossom in us. He pulled my crop top over my head and tossed it behind him before lifting me up and pinning me to the wall. He started kissing my neck, leaving small hickeys. 

Erwin laid me down on his bed and pulled my pants off. “Did you have to put these things on?”

I snickered. “Yes! I’ve been meaning to put an outfit together with these on.”

“Well right now in this moment, they are being an inconvenience,”

I smiled and just rolled them off. “Better?”

He nodded and leaned over and got out a bottle of lube from his nightstand.

“Um, why do you have that?”

“Cause I’m a growing boy and I masturbate, don’t ask dumb questions,” He mocked in a higher voice to imitate mine and I laughed. 

“Really?”

“Yes, sweetheart. I’m a man too,”

“A man? Nah, don’t say crazy things,”

Erwin smiled and placed the lube next to me. He lowered himself down until his face was hovering over my dick and I squeezed my eyes shut. I always wondered what this would feel like, I didn’t receive a lot of head, and each time felt different. So I was both worried and-

Erwin took me all in his mouth and I whimpered loudly, quickly grabbing myself at the base because I was about to fucking cum. What the fuck. He got off me and smiled. “What’s wrong?”

“Too warm, too soft, too wet,”

“Yeah I could say the same about yours, I didn’t last either,”

I took a deep breath and let go. He took me back in and put my legs on his shoulders. “Ohh,” 

He was sloppy and that was good. “Who the hell t-taught… ahhh, fuck,” I felt the tingles rush up from my groin and it made me moan like a whore.

Erwin just kept going and seeing his head move up and down made the blood rush down to where I didn’t need it to yet, but I was young, so of course I wasn’t gonna last so much.

“Erwin! Erwin, Erwin,” I gripped his hair as I came and he swallowed everything, oh fuck. He slowly let me go and looked at me. His hair was messier than it was, and he looked at me like he wanted to eat me alive. Then he sat up and back, reaching back into his nightstand for a condom. He looked at me as he rolled it on and I swallowed nervously.

This was finally going to happen.

My heart beat so loudly, so loudly that I thought I was going to die as Erwin aligned his cock at my entrance. 

“What?”

“You're so hot,” I shivered. Erwin smiled and I closed my eyes, impossible that his face was going to make me cum alone, (and again, fuck I’m so embarrassed, I was so hormonal).

Tiny moans escaped my mouth as he pushed through, it burned a little but it was so fucking good. 

“Please move, please, m-move,”

Erwin looked at me with wide eyes, but snapped his hips forward. I screamed as the rest of him went inside me, and I felt my heart squeeze when his hips touched mine. “Oh, Erwin,”

“Levi,”

He put his hands on either side of my head and thrusted forward, hard. I covered my face as I whimpered in my throat and he stopped just to remove my hands away from my face. He continued but when I covered my face again, he pinned my hands up above my head and my breath got caught in my throat.

It was so hot to me.

Erwin smiled down at me and kissed me, sucking on my tongue. I think it was then that I began to fool myself, that this was enough and we were finally gonna be a thing. 

A groan from Erwin ripped me out of my head and I quickly stopped him. He looked like he was going to protest, but I laid him down and put him back inside me. I began bouncing on his cock and he groaned louder, gripping my hips and helping me move up and down.

It felt so fucking good, having his thick cock inside of me and hearing him groan and even whimper underneath me. I felt powerful.

“Shit,”

Again was my only warning before he snapped his hips up hard a few times, and I felt him shooting cum into the condom and him pulsing. 

He was sweating, his chest was shiny.

Cool.

I laid down next to him, catching my breath.

“Wow,” I whispered, which caused Erwin to laugh.

“What?”

“You're… amazing in bed too,”

“Yeah?” Erwin smiled and nuzzled my cheek. “I enjoyed how you were on top, you looked sexy and it felt fucking amazing too- don't talk I’ll get hard again,”

I felt bold and flipped to my stomach. “It felt fucking amazing for me too, I don’t think I’ll ever want to try bouncing on anything else but that cock of yours,”

And that made Erwin go crazy.

He raised me up to my knees and took me from behind. I gasped as he pushed in a second time, the angle making everything feel different and just-

I wanted to scream, I felt like melting. 

We would stop, then go again, then stop, then again.

When we finally stopped, and we showered, I heard my phone vibrating. I picked it up and cleared my throat. “Hello?”

“Have you any fucking idea what time it is?”

I gasped and saw the time. It was about to be six-thirty. “I’ll be right there,” I hung up. We flew to Mike’s, and he only had to look at us for him to start smirking. “Welcome, newly weds,”

“Hi,” I smiled and walked in, fast. Only Hanji and Nanaba were there, but it was still embarrassing.

“I love this,” Hanji squeaked as she hugged me. “You finally put it together,” 

I nodded. “Need a drink right now though, let's go talk,”

I said hi to Nanaba and then we took a bottle of tequila and sat in a bathtub. 

“What happened?”

“I had sex with Erwin,”

“Is that why you were late?”

“Yes… yes, we went so many times,” 

“Oh, snap, and how was it?” 

We clinked our shot glasses together and took them. “I want to scream,”

“That bad?”

“No! It was fucking delicious!” 

I went into detail and we were six shots in when Mike and Erwin found us. 

“Drinking without me?!” Mike sat down with us and we poured him a shot. “What are we talking about?”

“I’m trying to convince Hanji to start wearing thongs,” 

Hanji giggled and shook her head. “Not doing that,”

“Why, you have the ass for it, ask Mike,” 

Hanji looked at Mike, who leaned over and kissed her. “Hanji in a thong would be too powerful,”

Erwin sat next to me and quietly held out his shot glass. 

“Where's Nanaba? Alone?” I asked as I poured Erwin tequila.

“No, some other friends came over and the party isn't actually mine, it’s my cousins so I’m not the host,” Mike closed the door. He turned the lights off after lighting a few candles. 

We talked before Nanaba came and took us out because Petra and Oluo had shown up. 

“Sweetheart, if you're gonna wear that, fix it, you're boobs are gonna come out,”

Mike quickly turned to Hanji and fixed her top for her. “I like how this one looks on you, burgundy is your color,”

“Mike was pulling on the strings thinking I wouldn't notice,” Hanji told Nanaba.

“Did it bother you?”

“No, but maybe Mike’s old enough to use his words if he wants something,”

“I will tell you if you follow me,” 

Hanji smiled and looked at me. I winked at her and she looked back at Mike. He led her down the hall and locked the door. 

“You two, I want you downstairs. Be with the rest of the party,”

“Hanji’s gonna get fucked right now,”

“Let her be, you two go downstairs. We leave you alone and you’ll also stick yourselves in a room,”

“Have you any idea how fun riding Erwin’s fat dick is?”

Erwin snickered loudly and Nanaba smacked my arm. “You drunks, go,”

“Yes, mother,” I pecked her hand and went downstairs. “Petraa!”

“Levii!” She rushed over to me with her arms open. She crushed me in a tight hug. “How are you?”

“I’m great, and you?”

“I’m doing amazing, I brought charcuterie, please go try,”

“Mhm, yeah I totally try that out, where’s your boyfriend,”

“Oluo’s heating the grill up with Eld and Gunther… I’d ask where your plus one is, but Erwin’s already on his way over here,”

Erwin came and kissed Petra on her head. “How’ve you been,”

“Mm… great, what did you have? It smells good,”

“Straight tequila,”

Petra cringed. “Oh, and where were you two?”

“Bathroom,”

Petra looked at me. “Was he gentle?”

“No,” I whispered and winked before heading off to find food. 

Eld and Gunther found me at the table eating and sat down with me to join in. Apart from our group, there were a ton of other people in the house. Our group was literally like the ones who talk to no one but to each other. 

Hanji came down and we mingled with the other side of the party. Then came back to ours, we ate, drank, danced, and Erwin pulled me into the bathroom to make out a few times. One time he actually sucked me off, but then Nanaba banned us from going to the second floor. 

I missed my mom though and snuck back up to the second floor and climbed to the roof. I missed Kenny too and I pulled out the blunt I had tucked away safely in my inside blazer pocket. I lit it up and laid down. I considered calling her, but I didn't wanna worry her. So I decided to just cry for a bit. It was eleven still, and I wasn't enjoying my weed anyway. 

“I smell weed, I think he’s up there,” I heard Oluo say. “Hold on give me a second, I’m climbing up,”

Oluo hopped up onto the roof and crawled to sit next to him. “Why are you here?” He took my blunt and took his hit. 

“I guess I’m feeling kinda off that I’m spending New Years sans my mommy and my uncle,”

“You wanna go see her?”

“Can’t I’m high,”

“We can tell her I had you try it, she won't be upset,” When I didn't answer, Oluo checked his watch. “Where is she?”

“Nah, don't worry about it. I don't want you later bullying me because I’m a little kid who still misses his mom,”

“Not only little kids miss their mom, Genius. Where is she,”

“At home,”

Oluo nodded and stood up. “We have thirty minutes, let's go,”

“Oluo, it’s so lame for me to leave this party to go home because I’m home-sick,”

“Listen bitch, the thing I hate more than you flirting with my girlfriend is you being sad. This little week I’ve known you was enough for me to find out that shit’s just not right when you're sad. You're the happiest person out of all of us! Besides… I fought with Mike’s cousin and I don't want to be here, but if it wasn't because you are my scapegoat, I’d stay because that's where my friends are,”

“...Oluo, I don't flirt with Petra. I’m gay, I fucked one of your guy friends not too long ago actually,”

“Likely story, here’s your blunt. Let's go,”

He helped me down and Eld and Gunther were there in the room I climbed out of. “So?”

“So you owe Eld and I twenty dollars, he’s sad,”

Gunther sighed jokingly and paid up. 

Oluo wasted no time in getting the rest of us in a car (Nanaba was our designated driver). We pulled up to my house and I jumped out. “Mommy!” I shouted. 

She peeked out from the curtains and I saw her gasp. She opened the door and I ran into her arms. “My baby, why are you here?”

“I missed you,” I mumbled and didn't let her go. She actually carried me inside and kissed my face. 

“We have ten minutes, someone crank out the soda,” Mike said.

“Aww, you guys all came because of him?”

“Not in a bad way, we just… while it was fun, it wasn't the funnest thing on the planet and since Levi was sad, well, if one of us is sad, we all try to do something about it. The thing with Levi, he hides when he’s sad. Seeing Erwin or Hanji by themselves was a red flag,”

Kenny and Eld served Coke to everyone and Petra had another charcuterie board opened up on the coffee table. 

“You know when you wake up at three in the morning and there’s a nice cold glass of water waiting for you to drink? That's what coming here feels like,” Mike sat back on the couch. 

“Deadass,” Gunther agreed. “Your cousin throws shit parties,”

“His friends are not fun,” Hanji shook her head.

“I have peace knowing my bedroom is locked, no one can get in,” Mike said.

“Your bedroom is empty, anyway. Hanji and I looted it last week.”

“No wonder I couldn’t find my hot chips,”

“I think Levi had those with an orange soda the other day,” My mom chuckled. “They were good, nice and lemony,”

Mike gasped.”Top 10 anime betrayals,”

She laughed and we talked until it was the countdown. Kenny handed up sparklers and honestly, it couldn’t have gotten any better than that. Starting the year with my friends and my family. We stayed up till six in the morning then crashed out all over the living room. 

Then everyone got busy and we saw less of each other. We all had a group chat we all constantly texted in, but it wasn’t the same. 

Erwin and I didn’t even see much of each other either and it hurt because I thought he would ask me out or something.

Whatever.

Then it was February.

“Hey, you free tomorrow?” Mike asked as he opened the passenger door for me.

“What's tomorrow,”

“Valentine's day,” 

I blushed and looked up at Mike. He smiled at me and I huffed. 

“Yeah, I’m free,”

“Great, I want to take you out,”

“...Why aren't you taking Hanji?”

“Before you get mad, I did flip a coin and then put it on a wheel, and it was her idea. She didn't even give me the chance to ask, babe. I was sitting on the floor and she came back, all hot and sexy, and said ‘before you decide to invite me out tomorrow, flip a coin and see if the universe wants you to take Levi’.

“Was the hot and sexy detail needed in that sentence?”

“It’s context for the fucking that happened afterwards… on that coffee table in her living room.”

I started smiling. “You're turning Hanji scandalous, the coffee table???”

“Yeah, ate her out then, you know, let’s not talk about it, I can't be hard in front of your mother,”

I laughed and shook my head. “So I’m the chosen one,”

“Quite literally,” Mike smiled. “I wanna take you out to dinner,” 

“Cool, yeah, I’ll… okay,” I smiled sheepishly. 

“Seven? You sure? Like, Erwin didn’t ask you or anything?”

“It’s all good don’t worry, you beat him to it, we aren’t dating,” I nodded and he kissed my cheek before holding the door for me. I walked into my house and felt excited for the first time in a long time. I could barely sleep and I couldn’t pay attention to class either.  

Dinner was sweet, he was sweet, and romantic, he wouldn't stop flirting with me and it made me feel so nice inside.

Of course we ended the night at his house.

Mike leaned forward to kiss me. He sighed inside as he pressed me against the door. Kissing him felt so different, but it didn't make my heart beat any slower. Because I was also attracted to Mike, I couldn't help it.

His headboard really did smack into the wall this time, and there really is a dent in it now.

Erwin stopped talking to me and it didn't take a genius to figure out why. Especially when he didn't speak to Mike either. Didn't even speak much to Hanji either.

And that made me upset because what the fuck did she do to him? Hanji’s literally the friend you will never ever fight with in your life.

So I stopped reaching out, because who the fuck did he even think he was? 

Except he didn't like that I also ignored him.

First was when he showed up at my school, trying to make peace, Hanji and I didn't spare him a glance and we walked past him. 

Then, he was parked by the playground, kinda awful place to park, but he tried getting me to listen to him, so I put headphones in and skipped all the way home.

But he kept showing up.

“Get in the car, Levi,”

“No! Fuck you!”

“Levi! It’s raining!”

“So?! You think I care? I don't!”

“Get in the car!”

“NO!”

Erwin got out of the car, grabbed me, and threw me in the backseat. He drove me home and I refused to get out of the car and Kenny had to come out because we were arguing loudly. Erwin took Mike home (he was in the car while everything went down) and I got an hour to myself before Erwin came back. His eyes were bloodshot and I didn't even find it in me to care.

“Levi,”

“You're pathetic,”

“I’m sorry,”

“No you're fucking not! Who do you even think you are?!” I yelled in a whisper. 

“I didn't expect you to- have sex with Mike,” He said the last part super quiet.

“Who gives a flying fucking shit?! I will go have sex with your father! I can fuck whoever I want! We aren't together!”

Erwin looked like he was about to say something and for a second I thought he was gonna finally break and ask me out, but he just stormed out and left. I rolled my eyes and was gonna head into the shower before he came back. “Levi,”

“What do you want?!”

Erwin frowned and sat down. “Why do you do this to me?”

“Shut the fuck up,”

“No, you can't- you can't have sex with Mike, Levi,”

“Yes I fucking can,”

“No, you can't. You're mine,”

I got a bad chill that made the hair on my arms and neck prick up. I stopped a smile and furrowed my eyebrows. “Yeah right, I’m not yours, I’m for the streets,”

“Stop saying shit like that,”

“No, it’s the truth,”

And maybe it was the fact that we were home alone that Erwin pinned me to the door and made me his.

For a few hours.

He had gotten out of the shower when Kenny got home, but we had already gotten caught kissing once so there was no need to hide that. He didn't like it, but only because Erwin was a ‘senior’. 

He slept over that night and I half thought it was because he didn't want me talking to Mike. 

And because I was dumb then, I isolated myself from the group for a bit, to keep Erwin happy. I mean, I got rewarded for it, the sex was amazing. 

But then I got sad. And it was a tough few months for me and Kenny threatened to take me to therapy because of it, since I wouldn't tell anyone how I was feeling. I had no idea what was going on with me anyways. I didn't know why I was sad.

Time went by fast and the year I turned sixteen was the first year I stayed in on Halloween. Everyone went out and I stayed in watching cartoons of all things. 

Oluo camped outside my house because I wouldn't let him or anyone in, and my mom thought it was funny.

“I’m not fucking leaving!”

I smiled at the quote and opened the front door a bit. “You should,”

“The fuck is this? You're not dressed,”

“The next time I go out on Halloween, I’ll be an angel, how about that? I promise,”

“Let me in,”

“Oluo, I don't wanna talk about it,”

“But not even Hanji knows what's up with you, man,”

I rubbed my face and shrugged. “I’m just going through a rough patch,”

Oluo leaned in closer. “Was it Erwin?” He whispered super quietly. “Tell me it was him and I’ll take his big ass down,” I stayed silent for a moment too long and Oluo must have seen it in my eyes. “What did he do? You guys broke up or something?”

“We aren't together,”

“Since when?”

“...He never asked me out,”

Oluo stayed silent and had a face of confusion. “But…”

We stayed silent again and I finally let him in. Hanji spawned in my eyesight, bolting towards the door like Naruto. 

“Sorry, she was keeping watch, she refused to leave,”

I waited for her and we just sat on the couch, quietly and watching TV. I laid my head down on Oluo’s lap and he played with my hair, making me fall asleep. When I woke up, they were both still there, sleeping.

But I continued to stay home.

One by one they’d come and try to get me to come out. First it was Eld, then Gunther, then Petra. When even Hanji couldn't make me leave the house, they sent Nanaba and she told my mom what was going on. 

I felt betrayed, and I started crying right there in the kitchen. I felt forced to tell them both I was just dealing with some feelings I couldn't understand. 

“Is it Erwin?”

“Why are you guys asking that? Does he not seem fine to you?”

“No actually, Erwin’s been stressed. I mean, we blame him and he goes quiet, which means he's guilty. What did he do?”

“Nothing,”

“Levi, this behavior you have isn't normal, and defending Erwin isn't going to help you either,”

“But Erwin didn't do anything to me,”

Nanaba sat back and looked at my mom. She left after a while, and I went to my mom’s room. I confessed my sins to her and she didn't even seem that shocked.

“I felt like you and him finally did it, but Mike?”

“I know as a mother you have noticed how he looks at me,”

She smiled and nodded. “Yes I have, sometimes I don't really wanna leave you alone with the both of them, but I figured Erwin wouldn't let Mike touch you,”

“He doesn't… when the both of them are with me,”

“Yeah… but um, sweetheart?”

“Yeah?”

“Just tell me something,”

“What?”

“Mike and Erwin… they don't go to your school, do they?”

“N-No,”

My mom smiled again and shook her head. “Oh Levi, where did you find those guys?”

“I uh… well, last Halloween, Hanji and I walked far enough where we got to the rich communities, and we entered one of them and I met Erwin. We hung out and I met Mike, then the rest of them… but Petra’s still in school, she’s graduating next year,”

“Oh okay, no yeah, Petra I had a feeling. But I had my suspicions because Nanaba does not look like she’s seventeen,”

“She’s not,” I rubbed the back of my neck. “She’s gonna be twenty-one,”

“Don't tell your uncle,” She whispered. 

I snickered and nodded. “I won't,”

And I felt a bit better, but I ended the year quietly. I finally went out for New Year's. We went to Hanji’s place, and everyone was there. Hanji hugged me and smiled with tears in her eyes. 

“Sorry for worrying you,”

“It’s okay, you know I still love you right?” She said to me, and I nodded. Once she let me go, Mike came and tossed me into the air. “There's two options, spiked fruit punch or orange soda,”

“I’ll take the orange soda,”

He put me down and I said hi to everyone else. Oluo gave me the most dirty look when Petra kissed my forehead and said she misses hanging out with me, but I just gave him a sheepish smile and shrugged.

Erwin was by the drinks and I slowly walked up to him. “Hi,”

“Hey, baby,”

For some reason I felt relieved. I felt better. I felt… happy. 

“You nursing a spiked drink in front of Hanji’s mother?”

“No, no,” Erwin tipped his head back as he finished what he had in his cup. “It was soda,”

“Uh-huh, sure… because you drink soda like it a shot,”

Erwin smiled and looked at me. “How are you feeling?”

“Better, it wasn't that much fun being in my house but I couldn't stop bumming out,”

“Yeah, I missed you,”

“We texted,”

“It’s not the same, baby, you know I like seeing your face, hearing your voice… no seriously, are you okay?”

“I’m better,” I repeated. 

“Fine,” He handed me a cup. 

We all danced and talked and laughed together and it was fun. I got back into my rhythm and started hanging out again.

Having sex again.

When I made my move on Erwin, he went crazy. My lips ended up all swollen and red. My mom made fun of me, I could tell she was just happy I was back to normal. 

But oh my God. Erwin had my legs on his shoulders for almost the entire time. I almost came on my face twice because of the angle. 

But… okay call me a slut but I tried flirting with Mike again, and Erwin gave us both the scariest look, so we decided to stop flirting in general. 

Mike was too worried to even try softening up Hanji, cause he felt Erwin would hurt him for some reason. Until Hanji got mad at him one night and trapped him in her bedroom. I was so proud of her for finally demanding something she wanted, because she was very passive about everything. 

But she wasn't going to allow Erwin to take Mike from her. She said she’d kick him in the balls so hard next time he tried to be funny that it’d never be able to get hard again.

So Erwin explained to her that Mike can fuck whoever he wants, just not me, never me, ever again.

“You're a lunatic,” 

So I stayed exclusive to Erwin. 

And I was fucking depressed because of it. He didn't want me enough to ask me out. He just wanted to stay only for him. 

But I tried to make myself happy about my situation and I distracted myself and actually got a job at the café I work at now. The Kitten Brew was such an adorable place I was there when I wasn't at school. 

And I was on the way to an early graduation!

I was gonna be eighteen soon and I had a job already, was getting my own money and I was already looking at places so I could move out. Kenny asked me if I was moving out because I was still isolating myself from everything. I didn't have an answer, I didn't know why I wanted to move out. 

My mom was supportive, but kept telling me if at the end of the day I wanted to stay home, I could.

Life felt repetitive.

Halloween was boring. My birthday felt… well boring. Christmas was boring, and New Years was boring too. I laid in my bed, bored. I was gonna be late for my shift if I didn’t get up though. So I got out of bed, showered, ate, got into my uniform, and took the bus to the café. My phone rang and I saw Erwin’s name on the screen. 

“Hey babe,” His voice was a curse I loved to listen to.

“Hey, what are you up to?”

“Nothing at the moment, I head to work soon. Why?”

“Could I swing by for lunch? 

“You never have to ask to do so. You know Marie loves you,” Marie was his boss at the restaurant he worked at. He decided to skip college because he found cooking was something he liked doing, and he did it well. 

It was a joke that him and Marie had a little something, but Erwin hated the joke, because let me remind you, he doesn't like women, man is so fucking gay.

“But you are the main chef,”

Erwin chuckled. “Yeah. I guess, hey, so you busy tonight?”

“Nope,”

“Cause I know this guy, Pixis, and I talked to him and I think I can get you into his bar… to celebrate your birthday. I know it was two weeks ago but obviously we couldn’t go drinking that day seeing it was closed,”

I gasped. “Does he know-”

“Yes, and Petra works there and Mike is also going so you’ll have people watching over you in case something happens. You interested?”

I bit my lip. “I mean, I’m gonna have to think about what to tell my mom… but yes!”

“Okay, I will come get you at seven,”

That made my shift seem like the longest ever. I did get a few tips which made me happy. Erwin even stopped by so I wouldn’t have to go anywhere and we made out in his car. Then he fed me some shrimp pasta and had me on my way.

When I finally got home, I showered and scrubbed myself clean. My mom never came home so I texted her saying I was going to hang out with Erwin. He picked me up and took me to the bar. I was so excited. Hanji came later but I was already tipsy by then. “Hey!” I jumped into her arms.

“My pumpkin, how did you get in here?”

“Erwin, how did you get in here?”

“Erwin too,” She nodded. Petra made us martinis and it was drink after drink after drink. Mike tried telling me to slow down, but I didn't listen, that's boring! I danced with so many men, all gorgeously built. 

And Erwin allowed it! I felt so free!

Then a few hours later, another man, who had ash-blonde hair and gray eyes and was tall and had bangs that made my heart pop over and over again, met eyes with me and walked over to where I was sitting. Now, it wasn't my fault, I was left alone because the other three people I was here with had gone dancing and Petra was on the other end of the counter serving someone else. He sat down and ordered me a glass of tequila and some scotch for himself. I was very flattered and very drunk. “You seem to be having a good time,”

My heart fluttered, fuck that voice was beautiful. “I am,” 

I looked him down. He was beautiful. His jeans wrapped around his legs nicely and his chest was complemented beautifully by his fitted black shirt. I ordered another glass of tequila and the man said he’d be paying for everything. “I’ve never seen you here before, you new?”

I nodded and downed my glass. “Ugh, more please,”

He smiled and got me whatever I asked for. “You here alone?”

“No, I’m some friends,” I shrugged and downed my glass again. I almost slipped out of my chair, which sobered me up fast. “Shit, fuck my life,” I huffed.

“Hey, if alcohol isn't your thing, I can take you to my hotel room,”

I didn't answer at first, I just glanced over to the dancefloor, but my friends were all too far away for them to actually see me. “You don’t live around here?”

“I do, but I’ve always wanted to rent a hotel room for this kind of thing. I planned to get wasted, but, I dunno, I saw you and realized I would rather just be a little tipsy, in case anything happened,”

“You really set your standards low,” I chuckled, sprinkling some salt on the lemons that came with the tequila. “Say I did come with you, what would we do?”

“Whatever you decide to do,”

“And if I wanted whatever was in your pants?”

“Your wish is my command,”

I smiled and gave him my hand. He kissed my fingers and I giggled. “Alright, but I want to keep a no name basis,”

“All good with me,” So he took me to the hotel just across from the bar. “You are very beautiful,”

I blushed. “I’m not, but thank you,”

He kissed my cheek and I felt warm inside. I turned to face him and he pinned me to the wall and I nuzzled him. We were in the elevator, and were about two seconds from kissing each other but the doors opened and someone else showed up. Then, the man took my hand when we stopped again. “This is us,” 

I smiled again and suddenly felt a bit nervous. “You have condoms on you, right?”

“And lube and toys and whatever you want to use,”

I fiddled a bit with my fingers. “Toys?”

“Unless of course you prefer the real thing,”

I blushed and he kissed my nose. “Wait, wait. If we don’t have chemistry while kissing, I don’t want it,”

So he tipped my chin up and smiled. “No?”

I shook my head. “Kissing has to be good.”

He leaned in and I smelled his cologne. It made me remember that I was only eighteen and this guy was probably like thirty. We were right at the door, so he was obviously confident he’d get me to melt. He leaned in and kissed me gently, I instantly got goosebumps all over my skin. He only kissed me normally, he didn’t spice it up by using his tongue, he didn’t bite or suck on my lips, and it left me wanting more. He pulled away and I shamelessly pulled him back in. That was his cue to take us inside. He refused to put his tongue in my mouth, and it irritated me, but I couldn’t pull away. I wiggled my shoes off and my back touched a soft white bed. I slowly pulled away and blushed when I looked up at him.

“So?”

“You’re annoying,”

“Why?”

I sat up and slowly unbuttoned his jeans. “Are you clean?”

“You think I’d be looking for men if I wasn’t?” He shook the jeans off. I didn’t say anything and just shrugged. He was responsible, I liked that. He took his shirt off and his cologne washed all around me again. It complimented his body wash as well. Fucking Lord, he smelled so nice. I smiled and he pinned me down with his hips after he took my shirt off.

I was so embarrassed, I felt his hard on, I felt it pulsing. I glanced at his black boxers and blushed again. “Hm? See something you like?” It was big and I grew worried. What if he hurt me and then got mad at me? Maybe this was my karma for getting into a bar. “Hey, you okay? We can take it slow,” He put his mouth to my ear. “I can go so slow you’ll be aching for it,” I shivered and looked at him. “So did I pass?” He asked as he slipped off his boxers. My eyes widened slightly at the sight of his leaking cock. My mouth almost watered.

Fuck, I’m gay. “What?”

“Do we have chemistry?”

I giggled nervously and nodded. He nuzzled my nose. “Mm, your nose is cold. Get in the covers, I’ll go get our things.”

I looked at the pillows on the king size bed and quickly got in the covers. I smiled, it was soft. I snuggled in and he came out again, just as hard, holding a box of condoms. “Do toys interest you?”

“Not really,” I slipped my shorts off and tossed them on the floor.

He nodded and placed the box in my hand. “You let me know when you’re ready.” He got in the covers and towered over me. I felt bold and stroked him off a few times and he groaned gorgeously. I stopped and laid back. He looked at me, so I let the box fall from my hands and grabbed his face to kiss him. He refused to give me his tongue so I just pulled away slowly. He smiled. “You know you can ask for it, right,”

“Why can’t you just gimme,”

“That’s not fun,”

“Fine. Mysterious man, please shove your tongue down my throat. Kiss me like you mean it,”

I saw his eyes brighten up and he smiled widely. He pulled me up, switched our positions, and sat me in his lap. He pulled me closer, kissed me hard, and ran his fingers through my hair. I moaned and smiled, breaking our kiss. “Is that what you wanted, love?” I nodded quickly and he laid me down. “You still wanna do this?”

I nodded again and smiled. He was so sexy. I looked down at my feet and noticed I had chosen to wear socks with black and white cats on them. I panicked but then the man chuckled. “I already saw them, I think they’re adorable, by the way.” I blushed and my lips quivered. He kissed my cheek and smiled. “Don’t worry, if you want to take them off, you can. I don’t care, I think it’s the cutest thing ever,” 
So I kept them on and smiled. He slowly took my boxers off and I grew embarrassed again. He was so much bigger than I was, and when his eyes went down to my cock and then all the way to my face, I blushed and covered it with my hands. He gently took my hands away and smiled at me. “You are so beautiful,”

“No I’m not,”

“Well I think you are,” He lowered his hand to open my legs and rested in between them. “You’re really soft too,”

I had a small sensation of anxiety. He kissed my forehead and I tried to calm down. It was only sex. Just sex. I can do this. I’ve done it before.

“You sure you want this?”

I nodded and kissed him. “Give me what you got,”

“Because I will totally respect it if you don’t want to. We could cuddle, make out, whatever.”

“No, I’m okay,” I leaned forward and kissed his shoulder. I let my hands rest around his neck and he just looked at me. I smiled at him and he chuckled. 

It was the type of sex that made my heart shake and I wondered if I should give a chance to this guy. Maybe I could convince him that I was kidding and definitely did want to know his name. 

He was super talented with that dick.

His hands slowly went down my body, feeling my skin while he was kissing my lips. I wrapped my arms around his neck and leaned forward. He was so soft and so comfortable to kiss. His large hands went down to my ass and cupped it as he bit my lip. I moaned softly as he sat me in his lap. “Don’t leave me,” He told me.

“I met you, like, hours ago,” I said between kisses.

“I don’t care,” He pushed me back and kissed my chest. 

“My friends are probably wondering where I am,” I mumbled. He kissed my cheek and chuckled.

“You’re cute,”

I grabbed my phone while he kissed my face and checked. As expected, a billion texts and calls from Mike, Hanji, Erwin, and Petra. Another call came in from Hanji, so I answered.

“LEVI FUCKING ACKERMAN YOU STUB, WHERE THE FUCK ARE YOU?”

“I’m in a man’s bed,”

“WELL FUCK WHY WOULDN’T YOU ANSWER YOUR PHONE?!”

“Can’t really pick up the phone when I have my legs on his shoulders and my wrists tied to the headboard,”

“I am going to beat your ass when I see you. Holy shit,” She hung up on me and then I looked back to the beautiful blond man. 

“My name is Farlan Church,”

My jaw dropped a little. “But we agreed-“

“I want to get to know you, seriously.” He pressed his forehead to mine.

“I wanna go a couple more rounds,” I quickly said to him and he smiled widely, pinning me down on his cream colored sheets and lubed himself up. My hips were literally vibrating afterwards, and Farlan massaged my back and legs so well. I actually fell asleep to his touch, and in the morning, room service came with breakfast. I rubbed my eyes sleepily and Farlan opened the door in a robe. “Cover yourself, baby,” 

I simply laid back down and sighed. “Hey, there’s a toothbrush in the bathroom for you,” I nodded and got up. I brushed my teeth and pulled a shirt I found over my head but when I left the bathroom, Farlan grabbed my waist and took it off. I looked up at him and he smiled. “You are the most adorable thing ever, this hair sticking up everywhere,” He kissed me and I was still half asleep, but it felt so nice. His fingers were in my hair and I just let myself be kissed. I landed on the bed and he smiled. “Okay, so tell me your name,”

I rolled my eyes playfully. “Levi Ackerman,”

“That’s so sexy,” He kissed me and fed me breakfast, then we kissed again. It was noon when I told him I should really get going. Yet, I said this while my back was against the wall, my legs were wrapped around his waist, and was being pounded into. 

On the way home, we talked. “So, can I see you again?”

“Mm, I guess,”

“You work right?”

“Mhm, it’s only part-time though,”

“Sweet, so, can I see you later tonight?”

“Mm, I’m not sure, my mom gets home at six… unless she doesn't and she's home right now,”

“You live with your mother?”

“Um yes?”

Farlan looked me down and up before his eyes widened. The car slowly came to a stop. “How old are you?”

I bit my lip and then fiddled with my fingers. “Eighteen,”

Farlan swallowed and looked away. “Did I take your virginity?”

“No,” I said softly. Farlan let out a sigh of relief. “Good, cause I was not in that mindset, had I known, I would have been gentle,”

“You were gentle… for the most part,”

“Oh,” 

There was an awkward silence. “How old are you?”

“I’m twenty-two.”

“Oh,” 

He pulled into the driveway and I tried to leave. Farlan turned the car off and then followed me. “Levi, wait,”

I turned to him. 

“I don’t care if you’re eighteen, if it makes you comfortable, we can just be friends. But I really do want you around and we don’t have to do anything… and I don't want to seem like a creep either! We can actually stop talking and you won't see me again if you want. I guess saying that I don't care if you are eighteen gives off weird vibes, but I can promise you that I don't mean or intend to do anything bad… but it’s not like you're a kid or anything.”

And then, I remembered Erwin, and the day I met him and that he had asked me to stay talking to him and that he wanted to be friends. He didn't care that I had been fourteen, he still wanted me around. But then, we got close and he never did anything to keep me. The same thing could very well happen with this guy right here. I would end up with nothing, and I was tired of no one actually caring about me enough to ask me out or anything.

But I was still young, and I had time to find love or whatever. I closed my eyes and took a deep breath. “Kiss me,”

Farlan did, and his lips were so soft! He made my heart go crazy, and I didn’t even know him. “Wanna come in?”

“-side you? Yes,” He winked.

I smacked him on the arm and we walked in. My mom and Kenny were sitting at the dining table. We froze. “Hey baby,” My mom started. I hid behind Farlan, but Farlan hid behind me and I squeaked. “H-Hi!”

“How are you?”

“Good!” I cleared my throat loudly. “This is Farlan,” I said quickly. “We’re going now,” I tried to push him out, but Kenny stood up. He walked over to us and I hid behind Farlan again. He looked back at me and softened up when I hugged his waist. He turned back to Kenny and stuck his hand out. “Hello, I’m Farlan Church,”

“Let me guess, another ‘senior’ who’s actually an adult,”

“I’m an adult too, Kenny, and I graduated already,”

“You are a very fresh adult. You turned eighteen two weeks ago.”

“Okay but it still counts,” I mumbled. 

Kenny looked back at Farlan. “How old are you?”

Farlan took a moment before speaking. “I’ll be twenty-three in February,”

There was a dead silence and I buried my face in his back. I hugged him a little tighter and hoped my Mom wouldn’t freak so much. “Well, um… how did you meet,”

“At a bar.”

There was another silence. “A bar? But how if Levi’s- Levi,” She looked at me. I slowly looked out from behind Farlan and smiled sheepishly. She narrowed her eyes at me and I pushed my face back into Farlan. 

“Kenny, leave me alone with these two, please,” 

And so when Kenny left, we sat down at the kitchen table. I was actually nervous. My mom was busy in the kitchen and we waited alone. “In case she tells me that I can never see you again,” Farlan tilted my face towards him and kissed me, dipping his tongue in my mouth. I wrapped my arms around his neck and kissed him back. But, I didn’t realize how much I was pushing him back because suddenly, he fell all the way back, taking me with him, and he ended up biting on my lip really hard and I accidentally kneed him in the balls. Farlan immediately helped me up and looked at my lip. “It’s not bleeding, you’re okay,

“I’m sorry for kneeing you there,” I mumbled.

“That’s okay, I’ve felt worse…” He chuckled. He looked to see if my mom was looking and kissed me again. He moved his tongue gently over mine and I smiled.

I pulled away slowly. “You’re getting me horny,” I whispered.

“Farlan,” My mom called.

“Ma’am?” Farlan quickly went over to where she was after gently sitting me back on the chair. I quietly went over and tried to hear.

“Listen, I’m not sure if I can allow you to be with my son. I mean, if you want to be friends with him, that's fine… but anything other than that, I don't know,”

Farlan went quiet for a long time. “If that’s what you wish, I will respect that…but, um… you know in my defense I’ve only known about his age for about ten minutes or so.”

“What?”

“I mean, yeah… but he was drinking away and he certainly didn’t act like-”

“His face didn’t give it away? He’s round and still has baby fat for crying out loud!”

Farlan’s face fell into a smile. “Ma’am-”

“Kuchel,”

“Mrs. Kuchel,”

“I’m not married,”

“Miss Kuchel, I don’t see how this is all my fault. If anything, it’s also yours. I mean, you say he’s still a baby but he managed to get into a bar that’s pretty tight, you need to know someone to get in there. Look, you may not like the fact that I’m in my twenties while your son is not even close to the legal drinking age, and excuse what I’m about to say, but Levi was a piece of candy in that bar, and everyone wanted a taste. I may not look like big stuff, but, I’m sure if any other man picked him up, he wouldn’t be here safe and sound.”

My jaw dropped slightly and my mom went silent again. I peeked over and my mom was just chopping tomatoes. He helped and then my mom said something to him to make him go flying up to me and kissing me. 

Despite that, I was grounded for months. It was okay, Farlan came to see me everyday. I couldn’t leave anywhere except to go to work so he kept me company.

“Farlan, do not let Levi leave the house, I have to go to work,”

“Sure thing,”

Farlan even worked from home. It was perfect. All we did was make out on the couch, and fuck, was he delicious. I love that he was perfect to my mom and in front of Kenny. I mean, they knew that behind closed doors, Farlan and I would lose our minds together. We actually got caught and my mom nearly threw a fit, threatening to kill Farlan. It’s just, we didn’t hear the door open and my mom came in to ask what I wanted for lunch and Farlan was balls deep inside of me. It didn’t help that I had a lot of tears running down my face because I was overstimulated, but she didn't know that and only saw me crying and just lost her shit. 

Farlan blushed so terribly that it wouldn’t go away, even after three days. When Kenny found out, he smacked him on the head with a newspaper.

“Church, why are you always here, do you not have your own place to live?”

“My parents own an estate, I live there with them,”

“An estate? What do they do?”

“My family owns Church Healthcare,”

“Aww, that’s what we have,” Kuchel smiled. “Levi was born in a Church hospital too,”

“But why are you always here then?”

Farlan blushed again. “Should I go?”

“Do you do anything else besides screw my nephew against the wall?”

Farlan only got darker. “I-I mean I make sure he doesn’t go hungry while Kuchel is working. I drive him to the café and I bring him back home. I make sure he has all his meals and that he’s clean and healthy,”

“You do work, don’t you?”

“Yes sir,” Farlan nodded. “I’m just able to do everything online,”

And he wasn’t bothered again. One night, while I was taking an order, he walked in. “Wow, is that my baby over there? Look everyone, look how cute he is,”

I was so embarrassed that I started crying. Farlan rushed over to me, apologizing, and begging me to stop before my face got puffy. He hopped over the counter and kissed my eyes. He hugged me and buried his face in my hair as I continued to work. That day, Nifa became his biggest fan. He would also pull up in the drive-thru and I would never recognize his voice. 

“Yes, I’d like an iced coffee with whipped cream,”

“Okay, what size?”

“Munchkin, please,”

“Anything else,”

“Your number?”

“I have a boyfriend,” I answered, getting a little annoyed. “Uh… next window, please.”

And when his car pulled up, I wanted to smack him. “Farlan! Why do you harass me?”

“I love you, lean over and kiss me,”

I slowly took off my headset and leaned forward. I felt his soft lips on mine and smiled. “Also the coffee is yours, I’ll see you later,” 

I nodded and saw he paid for any extras I wanted to add. When I got home he asked me to sit on his back while he did pushups, and my mom laughed when she found us. “Farlan, don’t you feel silly?”

“Not at all, if anything, I might switch you for your mother.” And he did! My mom lied down on his naked back while he did more pushups. I grew upset and walked to my room. I heard them talking, laughing. After an hour, Farlan came into my room and locked the door. He showered, and then walked out. “So, like, did it ever occur to you that I may be monogamous?” I looked up just in time to see him drop his towel. “And that I may be very,” He crawled onto my bed. “Very,” He crawled closer, opening my legs a little. “Gay,” He whispered in my ear. “I’ve never had a serious relationship, but you can bet on your mother when I tell you,” He placed a gentle kiss to my lips. “I love you, Levi Ackerman,” My lips quivered. Farlan pulled me hips closer, and I was directly beneath him. “Do I need to show you just how much I plan to keep you in my life?”

I swallowed and he kissed me, hard. He pulled my pants down, practically ripped my shirt open, and stuck his tongue in my mouth. He pinned my hands down and made me his for hours before my mom came and ordered us to be in the living room. “I’d still fuck you in there,” He whispered my ear before letting me go. We didn’t shower together that day, we couldn’t keep our hands off each other.

Farlan was so loving. He smothered my face with kisses and hugs and gushed about how cute I was. “I love you,” He hugged me tightly with his arms and legs. I was in pain, so much pain. My back was killing me (from arching so fucking much) and I wanted to be in my bed. I escaped to my mom’s bedroom and napped. Farlan took that time to get some work done, though he ended up working well into the night.

“Babe, why don’t you go to college?” 

“We can’t afford it… and I don’t know what to do with myself,”

“I could pay for you,”

“And what if we break up tomorrow?”

Farlan raised his glasses to the top of his head. “You really think that?”

“Well,” I blushed. “I’m just a kid, and you aren’t.”

“I’m quite happy with my life right now, and you’re not a kid,”

“I’m not exactly twenty-three either,”

He leaned over and kissed my cheek. “I don’t care, Levi. You’re perfect just like this,”

“How long will you be working?”

“I dunno, but you can head on over to bed, sweetheart.” I just got comfortable in his lap and snuggled against his chest. 

It was simple, life with Farlan was simple. It was just him and I. When I turned twenty, he kissed me before letting me open anything. “Remember when you thought we’d be over the next day?”

I playfully rolled my eyes at him and kissed him again. “You should totally give me my birthday sex, I want that cock of yours to make me numb to next week,”

“Wow, that mouth of yours,”

“Can totally suck you off if you want,” 

Farlan slowly smiled and it made my heart scream. He was so hot. I just loved him so much, and when it grew into a smirk, I got so fucking turned on. He dragged his thumb over my lip and winked at me. “Okay, baby, I’ll give you what you want,”

“I showered, I shaved, I’m all soft, just fuck me,”

“You didn’t have to do any of that, but cool,” He kissed my forehead. “However, I do have something planned for later tonight,”

“What?”

“Just a little something, nothing wow or anything. You don't like big gifts, so I got you a little thing,”

“You’re so cute,”

“Not really, but get that tight little ass of yours upstairs,” 

I smiled and did so. We had the place to ourselves so we practically did it on every possible surface, and I mean every surface, until we both couldn’t go any longer. Then, we just laid in bed, cuddling and sharing little kisses. “Okay, present time,” He kissed my cheek and reached over the nightstand. “Okay, here,”

He handed me a small container that had a chocolate chip muffin inside. I smiled and bit into it. “Oh fuck, this is so soft,”

“Mm,” He nodded. Then he reached over and pulled some pants on. “Baby,”

“Yes?”

He slid off his bed and blushed a little. “I really want to spend the rest of my life with you. I feel like we will always be together and I know I will always love you and never get tired of what we have because you amaze me,”

I smiled and went to say something but then, he got down on one knee and pulled out a small black box. “Levi Ackerman,” He opened it and inside was a beautiful white gold ring. I was so surprised that I dropped my muffin on the bed. “Will you promise to stay by my side?

I blushed so hard and it was so hard to breathe and I just nodded excitedly. I knew this moment was going to come as I had already seen the box and he mentioned it several times, but living the moment was so exciting. “Yes!” I blurted out.

Farlan smiled widely and slid the ring on my finger. “Oh I love you,” He leaned in and kissed me. I wrapped my arms around his neck and didn’t let him go.

We managed to make love one more time that night, it was quick but felt so good. He then massaged my back and peppered my skin with small kisses. 

We wasted no time with wedding planning.

But the same night we started planning, was the same night his symptoms started. We first thought it was just nerves, due to getting married. But he couldn't fall asleep that easily anymore, and he kept forgetting to take the meds and the day he forgot our wedding date was when we both decided to get a diagnosis.

“I promise I’ll make it, baby,”

I had never been so heartbroken in my life.

He tried to keep me happy, he focused only on wedding planning but I only saw him getting weaker and weaker. “Farlan,”

“Mm,”

“Don’t leave me, please,”

“I won't, Levi, I promise,” He smiled.

But then he had to be hospitalized. I kept begging him not to leave me and it was always him promising me he wouldn't. I had to stop planning for our wedding because I didn't believe him anymore. Not when he coded in front of me because his heart was getting weaker. 

Not when he stared at me sometimes like he was trying to remember who I was.

When he held my hand, he rubbed the ring with his thumb. 

I practically lived in the hospital with him, his parents couldn't keep me away. No one could. 

I tried to convince myself that when it was time to take him home, that a miracle would happen and he’d no longer be sick. “Don't leave me,”

Farlan looked at me, on the last night of his life. All he could do was press his fingers to my lips and make a soft kiss sound. My entire life crumpled to the ground, smashed into pieces and sucked everything out of me. I never cried so much, never felt so much pain. Never felt so dead.

And then I stopped caring about what happened to me.