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"we're sorry for your loss..." Woojin blinked. it hasn't sat in yet, the fact that his mom is gone. Woojin saw her a week ago, he wasn't gonna cry. Yes he was, his chest was heavy and it was hard to swallow. "Please come by the hospital later today.." Woojin nodded leaving from out the dorms. He tried to act as calmly as he could trying not to break down and cry.
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"He's not picking up" changbin scowled looking at the caller ID angrily, slipping the phone back into his pocket. How the hell could Woojin not be here? It's Jeongins birthday and they all promised to make it the best day ever. Well almost everyone. "Where is he" Minho whispered not wanting to distract the others from the youngest boy. Changbin shrugs with a heavy annoyance in his movements. Minho rolls his eyes and goes back to the others he pulls Chan to the side and whispers what’s happened in Chan’s ear. Chan pulls out his phone and texts woojin waiting a good 10 mins for a reply. Nothing happened. Chan dialed Woojins number stepping out of the room. When woojin picked up chan immediately opened his mouth confused as to why he wasn't at Jeongins small get together "woojin wher-"
"I can't talk right now, I'm sorry" with those words woojin hung up only angering chan more. He nearly slammed the door open but he caught himself quickly advancing his way back into the party.
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“Was she in pain?” Woojin asked the doctor,
“Not at all, the morphine made so she could pass away peacefully”
“Oh” was all that could escape from woojins mouth. He could feel himself begin to son again. Feeling his body convulse. A dark haired male quickly entered the room, pushing past the doctors. He stared at the woman down on the bed. His face starting to crack. The dark haired man stairs up at his son in the corner of the room, him being too afraid to cry. “oh Wooj..” the man brought his son into a tight hug rubbing the back of his head letting the pain sink in. She was gone. It hurt. Right now all Woojin wanted to do was go home and have his members comfort him. He’s so tired, being at the hospital all day surrounded with sickness and death. It’s nerve racking and it’s not gonna make his day any better. Woojin says goodbye to his father hugging him one last time before he goes back to the dorms to lay down. “Keep in touch okay Woojin?” Woojins nods "yes sir"
*
Jeongin opened his last gift smiling seeing it was the Nintendo switch he wanted, everyone was wrapping the small get together up, Woojin still hadn’t come which ultimately pissed everyone off. Well except jeongin, jeongin knew that Woojin Isn't selfish and would miss his birthday unless it was something serious. Which kinda made jeongin worried about his hyung. But he put on the facade until everyone left and they cleared out the dorms. "Woojin still isn't back, typical" Changbin said mumbling past chan.
It was late when Woojin came back, nearly 3am in the morning he was tired and mentally exhausted, he just lost one of the most important people in the world to him. “Well look who’s back” Chan said fixing himself a cup of tea. Woojin could tell by the tone of the blondes voice he was upset. Woojin opened his mouth to say something but was quickly cut off the blonde. “No let me speak, you missed his birthday, he wanted to spend it with all of us and you couldn’t even do that, you were in the wrong for not coming today and it hurt him.” Woojin was speechless so much shit had been going on he’d forgotten about the youngest birthday. Fuck. He feels terrible. He feels like an asshole. Chan grabbed the cup of tea and turned around walking back to his room “you need to get your priorities straight, we all waited for you, you couldn’t even send us a text”
Woojin went into his room, no one was in there, he felt glad that he didn’t have to deal with another lecture. He’s sensitive right now and couldn’t deal with another member being mad at him. He changed out of his clothes and into a clean set of pajamas sittings on the edge of his bed freely letting his tears fall.
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The next day no one would even look at him not even a glance, they wouldn’t even acknowledge his presence. It hurt, it hurt alot. It’s like the world is against him now. At breakfast everyone was avoiding speaking to him and when he put his input in he’d just get ignored. The sadness is kinda starting to turn into anger and disappointment In himself. He tried saying he was sorry tried explaining tried making everything okay but no one wanted to listen. They know that he's a little senistive, even if it's dumb he's always been soft. "Hyung?" Woojin turned around to see jeongin "can we talk?" Woojin nodded letting jeongin pull him into a room. Woojin was sitting on the bed and jeongin was in front of him. "I'm not mad about you not coming, I know it must've been a good reason why hyung"
" I wouldn't miss it on purpose jeongin"
Jeongin nodded rubbing his hands together "what happened?" Oh no, Woojin hadn't cried all day, hadn't shown any sign of weakness. And now he feels terrible. He can feel the tears start to built up again, the pain in his chest and throbbing starting to return like last time. Exactly like last time. "my mom she" he swallowed thickly wiping the tears now falling from his eyes "she passed away, so I was at the hospital, I'm sorry" the air got thick and no one moved, everything was shaky and woojin couldn't see from how bad the tears were. He's sobbing the loss of his mother toyed at his heart and he wanted to go home and have his members comfort him but that didn't happen. Jeongin brought the older member into a hug letting him cry. "Hyung I'm so sorry" jeongin said rubbing circles on the top of woojins head. "We have to tell the others, it's not right they're blaming you" Woojin sat up and wiped his eyes nodding his face still a bright red from crying. They stepped down and walked out into the living space everyone was watching a new drama. Hyunjin noticed and sat up pausing the show. "what's up Innie?" Jeongin took a breath looking around the room "you guys treated woojin hyung badly, I was disappointed he didn't come to my birthday but he had a good reason, you guys should know that he's not some selfish person. He wouldn't do it without reason." Jeongin was right, the others had acted incoherently and they were all starting to realize how their actions affected the elder. "My mom passed away" woojin says, keeping his head down, feeling the tears start brimming again. The other members got up and went towards Woojin.
"Oh my God we're so sorry"
"Are you okay?"
"Hyung we didn't mean to hurt you"
Chan felt the worst out of all of them. Remembering what he said to woojin last night. "Wooj.. I'm so sorry I-"
"It's okay, I'm just glad I'm not hated anymore"
"Oh wooj, you were never hated, we love you"