Chapter Text
Sitting in your metal cell again, you kept blaming yourself for Den and Fei"s deaths. Den got distracted because of you, even though it was part of Tseng"s strategy, while Fei died only because of you, you interfered by putting yourself inbetween him and Reno and talking back.
You knew that probably nothing would have changed, Reno would have killed Fei instead of Elena doing it, and he or Tseng would certainly have killed Den anyway, still, you couldn"t forgive yourself.
The last member of what you liked to call family was Yesod. Your relationship with him was quite weird, he didn"t like you at first, when Den presented you to him, but then he changed his mind, noticing how much you cared about Avalanche, the planet and your vengeance.
Thinking about it now, after what you did, gave you the creeps. You still couldn"t believe how you could lose interest so quickly in what you had been living for till they captured you. A few days, that"s all it took for Reno to brainwash you, if it could be called "brainwashing".
You slept and drank from a bottle of water for a while after eating a pack of crackers that you had found on your chair until the door opened again.
Tseng quietly stepped inside
"there"s an attack at the reactor. You"ll come with me as a hostage" he announced, your eyes snapped open and you sat up straight on the ground
"w-what? Yesod? I thought he wouldn"t come for me after all this.." your mind twirling with doubts
"he didn"t come for you. But we"ll use you as hostage nonetheless." he coldly stated
"no! I won"t come this time! I"m done with all.. All that, I don"t want to see any other Avalanche friend die!" you crawled to the corner of the room, looking at the intruder.
He stepped towards you, then grabbed your arm to drag you up, but you reluctantly pushed his arm away, this time you didn"t want to give in.
The leader of the Turks straightened up, taking a gun out of the holder and pointing it at you "there"s no time for complaints"
Your eyes widened before turning to a frown "you can"t kill me anyway" you crossed your arms.
The man pointed the gun at your arm and shot, brushing the skin not too deeply, you let out a scream "there are many solutions to death." he said
You touched your bleeding injury, whining for the pain "hell! Hell! It hurts.. Give.. Give me something, it hurts.." tears in your eyes
He simply grabbed you by the area where the fresh wound was and dragged you up and along, you couldn"t stop whining. His gloved hand got blood stained and same for your white shirt. The cut was burning way too much.
Through an elevator and a few corridors, he threw you with strength inside the passenger seat of a Shinra truck, you noticed later that on your left there was Reno, who immediately started driving.
"you made Tseng angry, huh, rare" he commented
"he shot me.." you said almost in a whisper, eyeing your bloody hand.
The man chuckled in response. Sitting next to him was weird for you, it gave you a bad feeling, as if the idea of being equal to him bothered you somehow.
You kept looking at him as he focused on the street, but started feeling dizzy and, acting on impulse, your lips touched his cheek, kissing him softly. His eyes shifted to you for a second
"I never gave you permission, or did I?" he teased with his sliding voice, you couldn"t help but regain composure, locking your hands in-between your knees in shame.
Once arrived, Reno hopped out of the truck and came to your side, keeping a hard grip on your forearm for safety.
It was weird to be out again, the night sky was ruined by Midgar"s lights, the air and breeze on your face made you feel better, free again, while those fingers on your arm reminded you that you couldn"t be free anymore, you were his, mind and body.
He dragged you to the entrance of the reactor, right before a long metal bridge. Once there he stopped and called someone using his cellphone with his free hand
"I"m here. Let them out." then he hung up.
You wondered what was about to happen. You heard shootings and shouts, the reactor"s doors opened and Avalanche men exited in formation, in the centre there was Yesod, a white haired man with a mako infused blue eye, and a brown eye. The materia inside of him, together with Mako, gave him strength.
"Yesod!" you shouted, but a chill suddenly ran down your spine as you heard a clicking sound and felt a gun pointed at your head. Reno was now behind you, his left hand ignoring your breast and holding your neck tight, while his right hand was keeping the gun pressed against your temple.
Feeling his body so in contact with yours made you heat up, regardless of the critical situation.
Soon, Yesod stepped ahead and arrived at a few meters away from you and him, he crossed his arms, almost disappointed
"Y/N." he sternly said
"Yesod! Yesod ! Den and Fei are dead.. Dead.. It"s all my fault, I"m sorry.." a tear crossed your cheeks, you didn"t move.
"so." the man addressed Tseng, who appeared next to you and Reno "what is it that you want in exchange?" his calm temper was way different than that of the Turks, it wasn"t cold, it was simply controlled.
"the materia you keep inside of you."
You squirmed hearing the request "don"t do it Yesod! Don"t-" Reno cut your breath off, chocking you with his hand to make you shut up, you whimpered in response
The white haired man wasn"t pleased by the treatment reserved to you
"I will take my time to think about it. In the meanwhile, try to keep her alive, you Shinra dogs always bite too hard on your toys. Den got out of his mind for that.." he lifted his hand towards the sky and in a cloud of smoke, him and the Avalanche members disappeared.
Reno finally let you go, and you stumbled, falling to your knees and panting loudly.
" what now, Tseng? " the red haired asked, ignoring you and putting the gun away.
"we go back to the Headquarters and wait, they"ll find a way to contact us." the leader replied
"guess we"ll get rid of her and assault their base if he doesn"t give it up, right?"
Tseng nodded "yes. Now go back, I"ll go check if someone"s alive in the reactor and if Elena"s alright, Rufus" orders."
You were forced to get up and in the truck again, in the back of it this time, chained to a hook. Soon, you were back into the cell again, alone as always.
It was hard even for yourself to understand what your behaviour was about, yes, you loved Reno, but you hated captivity and seeing your comrades die one by one killed by the Turks was too much. You had even hated the Turks once for what they did to your parents, but now you felt obliged to stay with them and be tortured day and night, cause it was fair, it was satisfactory.