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THE SEOUL STARGAZER
The Creative Arts Newspaper, by students & for students
Tell Cupid Column
This week, Cupid asked students to submit a piece that details how their significant other makes them feel, and how they’d describe them. Read below!
“ i couldn’t quite explain you, no matter how hard i tried. every time i’d attempt to describe you i’d screw my eyes shut tight, the explosions of colors popping up behind my eyelids only a fraction of the ones i saw around you. you were bright and warm like the midday sun, just enough to create a slim trickle of sweat down my brow, to kiss my skin with sunshine. you were cool like the puddles i splashed underneath my shoes to make messes, hues of blue circling around in my mind like the ripples in the water you’d caused. you could make me shiver & sob like the weeping winds of winter, chills creeping into my bones whenever you declined to glance my way.
but colors & seasons alone could not describe my man, the complexities of your being never quite reigned in by them. your moods could be broken down by the elements, angled concepts & creations of nature capturing a hint of your spirit. you were rooted deep into the earth, calm & collected when i couldn’t keep my head on straight. firm in your ways like the soil, blooming bright like the blossoms on a cherry tree. when we fought you licked the ground like fire, heat and intensity rushing into your being like the roar of flames. your words pushed out of your mouth like smoke, suffocating me heavy with feeling. hurt came to you like water, ebbing & flowing down the river of sadness that engulfed you like a lover. swimming in my sadness always reminded me of a trickling stream, just high enough to brush your chest & strong enough to sweep you along down the shores of my misery. but my favorite was your happiness, airy & spread like the wind in my hair during spring. teasing winds could never match your mischievous smile, strong gusts faltered under your loving hands, & the gentlest touch of a breeze never amounted to the sweetness of your kisses. you were incomparable, a rarity of a man that never failed to send me tumbling over my love for you.
but oh, the duality of man.
for all my love for you, i knew best that you were flawed. you left messy, open ended trails wherever you went, oblivious to the gentle chaos you’d created. you grew irritable easily in certain moments, eyebrows furrowed deep in unasked questions & unspoken thoughts. unspoken anger wove through our moods like vines, tight around my heart when you’d come undone. you had the terrible habit of repeating everything i’d said twice when tired, as though my words had slipped through your ears like silk. you hated cliches, & all i could give you at first were them. at times, we felt incompatible, destined to bring out our nastiest beasts towards each other. and yet i loved you, deeper and farther than the heavens and the seas, more so than the ends of the earth could imagine. and i would until my dying breath, even if your heart no longer found mine & your love withered away. i would love you, and that was all there was.
and so i love you still.”
— Park Jimin, English Major, on his boyfriend Min Yoongi