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Patton was drawing a few days later and Logan was watching him. Roman had taken Virgil home for food and a shower and it was just the two of them. Logan fidgeted in his chair and though his book was open on his lap he hadn’t looked at it more than twice. Their eyes caught when Patton looked up and Logan looked away quickly. Patton set down his pen.
“Everything okay, Logan?”
“Of course it is Patton. Why wouldn’t it be?” The words were fast even for Logan and Patton frowned. Logan’s foot tapped against the floor. Patton craned his head to watch it and it stopped. Logan stared at him. Patton stared back. “Are you-”
“Were you ever going to tell me?”
Both their mouths snapped shut. Patton blinked.
“Was I ever going to tell you what?”
Logan clenched his jaw and stared at the ceiling. Obviously uncomfortable.
“I shouldn’t have said anything. I just- I believed we were friends.”
Patton jerked, his hands clenching in the blankets.
“We are friends.”
“Are we? It was my understanding that friends shared things.” His book snapped shut and he clenched his hands on top of it. “Yet I was unaware that you had a brother, or that you lived in a foster situation for much of your life.”
Patton’s head drooped and he tried not to cry. This is exactly what he’d been afraid of.
“Logan-”
“Why did you not tell me? Did you not trust me?”
“No, of course I trust you! You’re my best friend Logan.”
Logan refused to look at him.
“I don’t feel like your best friend.”
Patton swallowed a sob, squeezing his eyes shut against the burning tears.
“ I’m sorry. ” He sniffed as quietly as he could. “I’m so sorry Logan. I wanted to tell you!” He looked up and Logan was staring at him with a stricken expression. “I was going to tell you. I just… I didn’t know how and I didn’t want-”
“Didn’t want...what? Patton?”
Patton breathed in a few small lungfuls of air, trying to stop the tears wetting his cheeks. There was a squeak and than Logan was beside him with a napkin, wiping away the water.
“I’m sorry to have upset you.”
Patton couldn’t help choking on a laugh.
“You’re so amazing Logan. You’re smart and sweet and just… amazing.” He caught Logan’s wrist as he tried to pull away, their eyes locked together. Logan embarrassed, Patton determined. “You’ve always been so much better than me. So much more together. So much smarter.”
“Patton-”
“I wouldn’t be half the person I am without you. And I know… I know you think I’m stupid and you’re not wrong. I’m not that smart.”
“Patton-”
“I don’t know if you’ve noticed but I’m kind of a moron. And I guess I thought.. If I told you about Thomas… and Uncle….that you’d think even less of me than you already do…”
Logan’s face was almost completely closed off when he finished and he felt his heart go cold.
“May I speak now?”
“If you want.”
“Thank you.” Logan’s large hands came up to cup his cheeks, making sure their eyes held as he spoke. “Patton, none of that is true. You are not less than me and I have never thought less of you. The circumstances of your past do not change who you are as a person and I have never thought more highly of any person than I do of you.” His face seemed to get closer as he spoke. “You are funny and kind, and though it’s true you do not excel academically, you are by no means stupid! Patton you were my friend when no one else wanted to be. You have never made me feel poorly about who I am as a person and you have helped me to grow so much.” Their foreheads touched and they just breathed for a moment. Patton was still crying and he thinks maybe Logan is too. “I care for you more deeply than I have ever cared for anyone...Patton I-... I love you. ” He seemed surprised by it and Patton certainly was. Patton told everyone he loved them, but for Logan to say it… Patton’s stomach was roiling with butterflies, he knew Logan meant it, and he wanted it to mean so much more. “May I kiss you Patton?” His head jerked back, eyes round with shock. “If- if you would prefer I didn’t-”
Patton cut him off by pulling him close and mashing their lips together. Logan squeaked and their teeth clicked and it made Patton’s abdomen ache to lean forward so far but then… then Logan’s mouth was relaxing against his, one of his hands twisting into the hair at the nape of his neck. They pulled back slowly both of them dazed and licking at their lips. Content to stare at each other, Logan blinking and Patton beaming. The door clattered shut and they jumped, Roman and Virgil staring at them from the doorway, holding coffees. For a moment no one spoke, then…
“Finally!” Roman’s hands flew in the air, spraying hot coffee down his arm. “Ouch, hot!”
Patton grinned.
“Yeah we are!” He laughed as his friends groaned and rolled their eyes and Logan smirked and twined their fingers together, happier than he’d been in a long, long, time.