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The next day was when I was alone in the dorm again. I couldn’t do anything until I got better, so I looked out the window. It seems to me that I’m getting really sensitive and crying a lot more. I wiped my tears and sniffled a bit. I was getting to be a really really soft person now, and I kind of loathed it.
“I need to take my meds,” I said as I walked to get my medication.
I popped a pill in my mouth, drank water and swallowed it. I was becoming accustomed to it now, and taking pills was a piece of cake. I walked back to the window and let out a sigh. The sky had turned grey and the clouds leaked small drops of rain. The rain gracefully hit the window making seems more like a melancholy to me.
My eyes started to close, and I fell asleep by the “melancholy” filled window… The dream I had was so vivid as if it was real.
“Markkkkk,” Jisung said as he plopped down on the carpeted floor.
“What, Jisung?” I replied softly as I walked near him. “I’m hungryy,” he slurred.
I huffed and said, “You’re more than capable to get your butt up and cook for yourself.”
He rolled his eyes and sluggishly got up, “You could have gotten me something from the fridge.” I rolled my eyes, hit me and walked to the other room. Chenle was playing video games with Jeno and Renjun. The room had a white aesthetic, had cloud-like fluffy pillows, and posters lined the walls like an art gallery. I felt as if I was being watched like I wasn’t alone. Suddenly, a bunch of screams echoed through the dorms, as Jisung burst through the doorframe. “There’s a fire. We need to go, now!!” he said as he grabbed my hand. He ran with me out of the building, only grabbing his phone and a couple of snacks. The sirens in the distance only now became loud enough to detect, but as we reached the exit, I slipped.
Jisung’s eyes widened as I groaned in pain, clenching my ankle. “Mark, you need to get up. Please, you need too.” The flames were engulfing the dorm, and the smoke became thicker and thicker. I coughed for a long time, it seemed like forever. “Just go!” I yelled as tears filled my eyes. Jisung tried to pull me back up onto my feet, but it was no use. “Help!!!” he screamed as he frantically tried to pull me back up. “Jisung, it’s alright,” I said as I let go of his hand. “MARK! PLEASE!!! GET UP!!” he screamed as tears streamed down his face. “It’s alright. I’ll see you soon. Thank you.” I coughed more and more the flames now at my legs.
Jisung’s eyes were filled with terror as he coughed. I could hardly see his face, but I knew he was crying. Tears streamed down my face as I saw him slowly walk away. “I’m sorry, Mark. I’- I’m sorry, I can’t save you. I’ll never forgive myself because I couldn’t save you,” he said in between coughs and sniffles. “Jisung, it’s alright…I’m not afraid anymore. Thank you, and tell everyone I’ll miss them.” I couldn’t breathe and I felt the flames engulf me, it was the worst pain I’ve ever felt. I screamed in pain, the firefighters were not in time.
I felt my life slip through my hands, my tears seemed to evaporate because of the blistering heat. I felt like I was melting, I closed my eyes and muttered my last words. “Thank you.” My eyes slammed shut as I felt a relief of my pain and the sky opened up to let rays of light through. I began to float up to the sky, soaring higher than the birds. Awaited me were the faces of those who I’ve known before and a million others. I was face to face with a golden gate decorated with pearls and many gemstones that glistened in the bright light.
I woke up suddenly with tears streaming down my face and my chair damp from the tears. The dorm was silent, I was alone and I hated it. I hate being alone now. “It’ll be alright,” I told myself as I wiped my tears and got up. It was about 9:00, I slept for 2 hours. It was a nightmare, but in the end, it calmed me. Is that really the afterlife? It seems to be that now, I was somehow looking forward to seeing more of Heaven.