Work Text:
But you didn't
Written by KaramatsuGirl42
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Remember that day when I spilled juice all over your fashion?
I thought you'd yell at me
But you didn't.
Remember that day when we went to Chibita's oden, we left you and went home so you can
pay for the tab?
I thought you'd be angry at me and gloom about it
But you didn't.
Remember that day when we left you alone on our special birthday trip?
I thought you wouldn't talk to me anymore
But you didn't.
Remember all the things you had to sacrifice and give up just for me?
I thought you'd abandon me
But you didn't
There were lots of things you didn't do
But you put up with me
Helped me
and Protected me
There were lots of things I wanted to make up to you
When the kidnapping incident happened.
But you didn't.
If there was anything in this world he wanted to do, it was this.
" if this'll make them happy ... So be it. "
He said with a serene smile that had a hint of sorrow hidden within.
He used to think they were equal, connected and always will be on each other. If the whole world hated him for his painfulness, he expected his brothers to wait for him to come home, waiting for him.
But that never happened, things started to change.
Whenever he comes home, he was never welcomed, they stopped greeting him and stopped talking to him. No spark of conversations from his brothers to him, no interactions, no mentioning of his name. It was like he was never was there, like he was invisible.
When the kidnapping incident happened, his brothers picked pears over his being. It was proof that they never give a shit ton of love on him.
Pears over his life, it left a large permanent scar in his heart, knowing they abandoned him, it hurts.
He convinced himself many times that there was probably possible reasons why, that they actually loved him, that they just never showed it. But the constant abuse and being the butt monkey for years, never uplift his reasons.
It's too late. He thought.
But I never wanted to do this, I never did. His eyes watery, but he forced himself not to even dare shed a single tear.
" I, Karamatsu Matsuno, second born son of the Matsuno household. 23 years old, here and now, hereby withdraw and execute my right to live. "
He let out a painful chuckle, hint of sadness in it.
" Bye bye. "
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There were faint yelling, desperate calling of his name and sobbing. He felt he was on a bed, but it was moving, moving fast.
He squinted his eyes, scanning on where the hell he was. Whenever he turns his head, piercing pain struck everywhere in his body. All he could see was a white long hallway, his vision blurry, people were surrounding him. Significant colors caught his attention, he squinted his eyes harder to figure out who was wearing those colors
those colors that were very much familiar. His body, head to toe, was sore.
Before he could close his eyes once again,
" KARAMATSU! "
His name was mentioned, it had the tone of a desperate child who was lost, hint of sadness within it. He only smiled weakly, someone announcing his name before he is gonna extract from this horrible yet 'worth it' life, was an exquisite feeling.
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When Karamatsu went inside the emergency room, Osomatsu was pacing.
Walking back and forth trying to figure out something.
Why did he did it?
Why did he jump?
What made him jump?
" Osomatsu - nii san. " Choromatsu caught his elder brother's attention,
Osomatsu looked at his younger brother, who had red puffy eyes, wet cheeks from all the crying.
" Choromatsu it's fine, " Osomatsu wrapped his arms around him, hugging him and patting him from behind. " Karamatsu's fine, his fine. " He could only hear hiccuping coming from his brother, his other younger ones was also crying, Jyushimatsu still had his smile, but it was frail and his eyes were pouring waterfall, Todomatsu just hugging Jyushimatsu, he was even messier, he was sobbing and crying loudly. Ichimatsu was sitting on a hospital bench, had a Knee-to-Chest position. He had a dark aura, a sad aura, per se.
" It was obvious, he attempted suicide. " Ichimatsu said in a raspy tone, but it was shaking like he was about to burst into tears.
" Shut it, Ichimatsu. " Osomatsu snarled, he didn't want to start any arguements.
" What do you expect?! We've been treating him like shit for years! Wouldn't be surprising that he finally snapped and did it! We were the reason! " Ichimatsu hissed, but he didn't want to say that, he didn't want to be part of the reason why Karamatsu did it.
" I said shut up, Ichimatsu! I don't have time for this! " Osomatsu lets go of Choromatsu and approached Ichimatsu.
" This isn't the perfect timing and perfect place to argue. " Osomatsu stared daggers at Ichimatsu.
" Wow, for once you're reasonable. " Ichimatsu said sarcastically.
Osomatsu launched a punch at Ichimatsu's face, causing him to fall on the floor, he groaned in pain.
" Now you've done it. " He got up and charged at Osomatsu, pushing him and pinning him down the floor.
Ichimatsu was hissing, punching and scratching Osomatsu, Osomatsu only did punches and kicks.
" AHEM! "
They all locked stares at the doctor.
" If you want to start a fight, do it outside. " The doctor sighed.
" D-Doctor, is Karamatsu okay? " Todomatsu and Jyushimatsu begged a positive response from the doctor.
" Well.. "
"He is fine, he managed to survive a 5 story building drop. "
They all sighed in relief,
" But, he is in a coma. The hard drop on the ground caused him to led to a comatose. If he doesn't wake up, we don't have any other choice but to extract his life. "
Their faces was the exact opposite, Todomatsu looked like he was about to bawl out like a child.
" Can we.. Can we see him? " Choromatsu suggested, he was desperate to see Karamatsu.
" Yes, yes you can. " The doctor walked off.
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When they went inside the room, they had horrid unpleasing faces on them.
Many medical equipments and all that bandages, it must hurt real bad.
A Ventilator was placed near his nose and a breathing cup is placed on his nose and mouth.
A Monitor screen that helps the doctors and nurses to keep note of Karamatsu's heart rate, breathing, level of blood pressure as well a the intracranial pressure.
A Nasogastric Tube that is placed through his nose and goes into the stomach, helps him suction out the contents of the stomach and also can be used to directly insert liquid food inside Karamatsu's stomach.
EKG Leadwires, bunch of wires that are connected to his chest to help measure his rate and rhythm of his heart.
And other Medical equipments that are used for a patient that is in a coma.
Some of his brothers bawled out like a child, Osomatsu walked towards Karamatsu, squinting his eyes of the horrid sight he is seeing. Seeing his own younger brother on a bed, in a coma, because he attempted suicide.
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Jyushimatsu reached for Karamatsu's hand, gently lifting it up to his cheeks.
" K-Karamatsu - nii san.. Please wake up.. " Jyushimatsu was crying, his eyes were red and puffy and some of the tear droplets drip on to Karamatsu's hand.
Please wake up, Karamatsu.
Once you wake up, we'll fix this
we'll work together
we'll stay together and we won't treat you like shit anymore.
So just... Wake up soon.
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