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  1. Public Bookmark 4

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    His pillow smells like cinnamon. She feels like crying.

    She squeezes it in her arms, taking a deep breath; it’s meant to soothe her, but the scent only makes everything dizzier in her head. It isn’t that bad. She is fine. Her emotions are just playing up.

    A sharp hiss escapes her, pillow squeezed tight against her as a sharp pain shoots through her stomach.

    …She should call him.

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    Toya is experiencing emotions and sensations she isn't entirely familiar with. Akito gives her all the help and love she could ever need.

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    31
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    17 Dec 2024

  2. Public Bookmark 4

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    akito remembers wanting to die.

    tw: mentions of psych wards/mental hospitals, descriptions of su*c*de methods, su*c*dal thoughts and ideation

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    1,139
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    8
    Kudos:
    86
    Bookmarks:
    4
    Hits:
    767

    10 Dec 2024

  3. Public Bookmark 18

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    "If you don't start dating anyone before you're twenty-five, we'll get married!"

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    Chapters:
    6/6
    Comments:
    59
    Kudos:
    224
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    18
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    2,766

    22 Nov 2024

  4. Public Bookmark 4

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    Tsukasa is a loser and confesses to Akito through a letter and the language of the flowers.

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    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    4
    Kudos:
    61
    Bookmarks:
    4
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    368

    21 Nov 2024

  5. Public Bookmark 9

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    Akito has an umbrella. Tsukasa does not. Akito does not expect what comes from this.

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    1/1
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    8
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    89
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    9
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    440

    21 Nov 2024

  6. Public Bookmark 4

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    “…When I was walking home,” he starts, and his voice cracks so stupidly and yet Toya just looks at him with gentle curiosity. He takes a breath, “I got the pancakes. And some fuckin’ kid came up to me, and…” his voice wobbles, “said I shouldn’t have it, ‘cause I’m fat.”

    Toya visibly winces at the word, expression crumbling after a moment of processing. Akito can’t help feeling guilty– he causes problems no matter what, doesn’t he? His gaze falls to the floor, waiting for his partner to formulate whatever his response will be.

    A moment passes. Another, and there’s a soft, gentle, “Oh, Akito…”

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    Akito feels insecure and wrong in his own body. Toya disagrees with every negative thought he has.

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    98
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    1,011

    21 Nov 2024

  7. Public Bookmark 21

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    A future star's dream is shattered as the result of an unexpected pregnancy. Did his dream still matter? Maybe...it never did.

    Or

    I decide to write a serious fic where Tsukasa is pregnant because all the other ones I've seen are usually unserious and Tsukasa deserves better than that

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    Chapters:
    7/?
    Collections:
    1
    Comments:
    85
    Kudos:
    173
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    21
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    3,821

    15 Nov 2024

  8. Public Bookmark 3

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    Suddenly, a buzzing noise startled the both of them. Tsukasa’s eyes flew open, and he pulled away, breathless. He smiled apologetically at Rui, and pushed himself up to look for his phone.

    “Sorry, Rui, gotta check this one. What if it’s Saki?”

    Rui nodded in understanding, and shifted to help Tsukasa look. Tsukasa flipped through the mess of pillows and sheets, trying to find his phone, and his eyes widened when he did.

    “Fuck.”

    “What is it?” Rui asked, curious.

    “Rui, I need to take my BeReal!”

     

    or: Tsukasa has no choice but to send a revealing BeReal to his friends.

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    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    4
    Kudos:
    69
    Bookmarks:
    3
    Hits:
    599

    10 Nov 2024

  9. Public Bookmark 14

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    Things are different, bad. They’ve already been on this bus for ten minutes more than they were supposed to be; an accident and a closed road has led to traffic that seems to run through the entirety of Shibuya, and being on a different route means he can’t easily tell how much longer it will take like he usually can. Plus, with the traffic and changed route the bus keeps abruptly stopping and starting, and he knows he can only ignore the growing nausea for so long.

    But… he can push all that to the back of his mind. He’s fine. He can focus on his book until they get to the practice studio– the four of them have a show in a week, and they’d rented out a space to have equipment more similar to the venue, thanks to An’s connections.

    Ignoring the discomfort is easy enough. His state hasn’t reached a breaking point. It wont, he’ll make sure it doesn’t.

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    Toya experiences sensory overload and motion sickness on the way to practice. His teammates help him.

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    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    37
    Kudos:
    138
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    09 Oct 2024

  10. Public Bookmark 4

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    For the past few days, Rui had noticed something stirring within himself. It was an uneasy feeling, and no matter how much he tried to push it down, it lingered on. He couldn’t tell why he felt this way. Everything was fine, and everyone was doing so well.

    ..But was he?

    Or, Rui finds himself falling victim to old thought patterns.

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    Chapters:
    1/1
    Collections:
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    97
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    4
    Hits:
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    09 Oct 2024

  11. Public Bookmark 9

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    “Shh, shh, Toya.” The roughness of Akito’s thumb trails his face, gently swiping away a small tear. “It’s okay, don’t apologise.”

    He chokes on a breath. “But, I– I don’t know what else I’m meant to do.”

    “You don’t have to do anything,” comes a soft murmur. After another hitched inhale, “It’s okay, Toya. You can cry.”

    He only manages to fight it for another few moments before he dissolves into tears.

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    Akito visits his partner, who spent the day wallowing in self-pity. Toya can't get a handle on his thoughts.

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    Comments:
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    123
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    9
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    1,143

    11 Sep 2024

  12. Public Bookmark 2

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    It had all started with a kiss.
    Akito never confessed his feelings. He just went with the flow and kissed Toya, asked him to be his boyfriend and moved on.
    Fourteen months later, realization dawned on him. And it was unnaceptable.
    But, when he finally confessed, his boyfriend didn't react at all, which was also unacceptable.
    The redhead had to take matters into his own hands. He had to make Toya explode with feelings.
    It was no easy task, no. But he was determined.
    He would confess, and confess, and confess, until he got a valid reaction.

    Or: five times that Akito tried to confess things to Toya and get the shoujo manga reaction he deserved, and the one time he succeeded.
    (Alternatively: five times Toya didn't kiss Akito properly and the one time he did.)

    Title is from "Meaning of love" by NCT127
    Rated T for swearing

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    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    11
    Kudos:
    47
    Bookmarks:
    2
    Hits:
    341

    05 Sep 2024

  13. Public Bookmark 3

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    Hoshiko feels her heart beating rapidly in her chest, her palms start sweating and eventually the bag slips from her hold as it falls to the floor. Her hand flies up to cover her mouth as a nauseating feeling overcomes her. She turns around and runs towards the direction she came— the front gate.

    She doesn’t even stop to apologize to the few students she bumps into on her way out. Once again, a comet speeding to her next destination.

    More Hoshiko au! (Married Ruikasa fankid!)

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    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    30
    Kudos:
    55
    Bookmarks:
    3
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    378

    01 Sep 2024

  14. Public Bookmark 1

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    01 Sep 2024

  15. Public Bookmark 10

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    “Toya, Toya, it’s okay.” Akito tugs Toya a little closer, running a hand up and down his back, “you’re fine, it’s just fear–”

    A sharp whine cuts him off, Toya pawing at his chest as if he could crawl inside to escape his panic. His breath comes quick, “Akito, A-Akito–”

    “I know, Toya, I know–”

    “—can you kiss me, Akito–?”

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    Toya comes up with a rather unorthodox way of distracting himself from his fear of heights.
    (akitoya week, day 1 - kisses)

    Language:
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    1/1
    Comments:
    28
    Kudos:
    116
    Bookmarks:
    10
    Hits:
    889

    19 Aug 2024

  16. Public Bookmark 7

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    Suddenly, the world around him blurred dangerously and he stumbled. His head pounded intensely, as if a sledgehammer had mercilessly been slammed into his brain. His legs grew weak, black dots filling his vision as his body eventually gave out.

    How had it led up to this?

    Language:
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    1/1
    Comments:
    12
    Kudos:
    147
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    7
    Hits:
    1,447

    07 Aug 2024

  17. Public Bookmark 5

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    “It would be pretty cool if I could jump from here and just- fly away. Like Superman.”

    Language:
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    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    13
    Kudos:
    73
    Bookmarks:
    5
    Hits:
    850

    05 Aug 2024

  18. Public Bookmark 5

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    He stood in silence as he listened to the whirring noise fill the kitchen, and he suddenly felt so alone. He wanted someone there with him, he felt so weak and needy.

    Before he even really realized it, he already had his phone out and was texting Touya, asking him if he could come over.
    —————————————
    Akito is incredibly burnt out and exhausted. He wants his boyfriend to be there with him.

    (This is a vent fic, please read the tags before reading)

    Language:
    English
    Words:
    1,990
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    11
    Kudos:
    75
    Bookmarks:
    5
    Hits:
    924

    05 Aug 2024

  19. Public Bookmark 2

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    Mizuki shares their secret with Ena.

    Language:
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    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    5
    Kudos:
    62
    Bookmarks:
    2
    Hits:
    778

    04 Aug 2024

  20. Public Bookmark 4

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    Akito keeps kissing Toya out of the blue, and Toya is very much confused.

    Things went down hill when Akito messes up one time.

    Language:
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    4,597
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    18
    Kudos:
    89
    Bookmarks:
    4
    Hits:
    967

    19 Jul 2024

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