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Neil just wants to get through his school years at Welton with little to no problems. All problems are simultaneously solved and caused when golden boy Jeffery Anderson's little brother decides to give Welton, and Neil, a shot.
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AU where Todd actually goes to Welton for more than one year. Starts in fourth grade and is mostly third person limited based on Neil.Heavily inspired by the format of All The Young Dudes
Previously titled 'through the years'
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06 Dec 2024
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whoever you are holding me now in hand by celestial_kitty
Fandoms: Dead Poets Society (1989)
09 Dec 2024
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Neil Perry was six years old the first time he felt the sting of his father’s cruel words seep like poison into his skin. In a local supermarket in the small town of Wilmington, Vermont that the Perrys called home, the neatly stacked apples on the quaint wooden display were fresh and crisp.
“Rose, what are you doing still holding his hand in public like that? He’s in the first grade now, he ought to start to become more independent. Boys don’t hold their mother’s hands at this age,” he sneered.☆☽☆
Todd Anderson knew all about shame. If there was one feeling that always returned to him like home, year after year as he got older, it was shame. Shame for feeling different. Shame for hardly being able to get a sentence out without stuttering. Shame for being inferior, inferior to Jeffrey.
A mostly canon-compliant DPS story, folliowing the events of their time at Welton and focusing more on the inner thoughts of characters (mostly Neil and Todd). Focuses on Neil and Todd's relationship, Todd's issues with anxiety, Neil's issues with depression and not being able to follow his own path. Despite attempting suicide, Neil lives, and the story continues to the end of the poets' final year.
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06 Dec 2024
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Even Neil Perry, a purely good man though everyone knew him to be, was not spared from the ill-making feelings which made men fume at their own luck, which made them maudlin and spiteful. Even Neil Perry, good man though he was, could not escape the grasping, clutching hands of jealousy.
Or in which Neil finds Todd’s secret notebook of love poetry and is immediately driven mad by his own speculations; Charlie is amused and, while not all-knowing, somehow much smarter than his dumb friend. Todd just wants to know if his bed has eaten his book again.
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02 Dec 2024
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Todd Anderson enters Welton his junior year believing that everything inside of him is worthless and embarrassing. He doesn’t want the world to see him because he’s afraid of being a disappointment. He’s not used to being accounted for.
Neil Perry is a fine student at Welton. He lives to please others. He lives to serve his family and to play the part of the dutiful son and the golden boy student. When he finds something to live for that isn’t what his father wants he feels alive for the first time. He begins to live for himself.
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Neil and Todd change each other’s lives, and fall in love along the way.
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23 Nov 2024
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Five Sons Mr and Mrs Bennet Never Had by biichan
Fandoms: Pride and Prejudice - Austen, AUSTEN Jane - Works
27 Aug 2010
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...for, of course, they were to have a son. This son was to join in cutting off the entail, as soon as he should be of age...
(A series of what-ifs exploring in turn the possibilities had any of the Bennet girls been born male.)
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15 Nov 2024
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Professor Keating was aware of just how special his connection with his students was. He knew they saw him not only as a teacher but also a mentor, and he tried his best to rise up to the task. He knew he was out of his depth, however, when a pair of his best students confessed to him what they felt for each other.
This, he was not equipped to handle. He could only keep their secrets and hope.
Or, alternatively: Todd and Neil come out to Keating and try to make sense of their feelings for each other
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14 Nov 2024
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Questions Todd Anderson Had While Reading Romeo and Juliet by PiscesVanity
Fandoms: Dead Poets Society (1989)
11 May 2021
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"It’s then that Todd wonders if you have to read poetry or if it can be seen in someone’s eyes. If that’s so, Todd can see it, the begging, romantic verse in Neil’s eyes."
Todd Anderson has to read for Romeo in John Keating's class and Neil answers all his questions along the way.
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12 Nov 2024
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'Around March of their junior year, Todd considers seeking out the advice of his friends on this matter. Perhaps the Dead Poets could hold a discussion on the idea of love. They could read a line or two from the Bronte sisters or Jane Austen. Maybe a flex of the hand is admittance enough of all the wrong hands you’ve dealt.'
Todd Anderson knows ten things about himself. By putting these truths into the world, he learns ten things about Neil Perry, too.
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11 Nov 2024
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the accumulation of unbearable things by smoosnoom (moonsooms) for bookinit
Fandoms: Dead Poets Society (1989)
17 Jul 2023
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“I don’t think it’s stupid,” Neil says, and there’s that ache again, the kind that keeps haunting him. “Do you think you’re just – ordinary to me?”
Todd doesn’t look him in the eye. “I didn’t say that.”
“You don’t say a lot of things,” Neil points out, and Todd huffs something between a scoff and a laugh.Neil, Todd, and the intricacies of living together.
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10 Nov 2024
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invent love (invent the river) by smoosnoom (moonsooms)
Fandoms: Dead Poets Society (1989)
07 Mar 2023
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Neil is the sort to go looking for his friends, and, by proxy, Todd. Neil is the sort to go looking for Todd.
It’s a strange realization, being looked for. Being wanted around.
Five different moments spent at the bridge.
Inspired by this scene.Bookmarked by sararanel
09 Nov 2024
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“No reason,” Neil bluffs. He chews on his cheek. “I just had a question. That’s all.”
“Oh,” Todd replies, a little mumbled. He yawns. “What was it?”
Neil stares up at the ceiling. Carpe diem, and all that, he thinks. The sentiment feels a little too large to carry.
He asks, “Have you ever been in love?”Neil auditions for a play, accidentally reads a poem, and falls in love – not necessarily in that order.
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09 Nov 2024
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Joy to the world! Christmas is coming to Welton, but despite the picturesque snow on every inch of the grounds, not everything is eggnog, mistletoe, and chestnuts. Finals are upon the Poets, and stress runs high. Neil agonizes over the perfect gift for Todd. Todd agonizes over his feelings for Neil. And Charlie manages to get caught in the middle of it all.
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09 Nov 2024
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“Do we get second chances in this life, Todd?” Neil asks him like he expects a negative answer. Todd doesn’t give that to him.
“Yes. We do. I know it.”
“Do you?” Neil grins, playfully elbowing him. “Did you at least wait to take it? That second chance? Until the world was more peaceful? More kind?”Ten years after the death of Neil Perry, Todd Anderson wakes up with a second chance.
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06 Nov 2024
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To Love and to be Loved is the Greatest Happiness by BeeDoingHerBest
Fandoms: Dead Poets Society (1989)
30 Sep 2021
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Six times Todd cared for the Poets (and one time the Poets cared for him).
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05 Nov 2024
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After Neil finally stood up to his father and began to take care of his own mental health, Neil thought the worst was over. But that’s not how life works.
When Neil’s father unexpectedly comes back into his life and he watches his boyfriend, Todd Anderson, get sick, things all go to hell. Suddenly, all the progress that he’s made the past few years feels futile.
But this summer, things seem to be looking up. At least Neil hopes they are.Or alternatively, a modern day AU where Neil is still extremely in love with Todd, Todd is Going Through It, Charlie and Knox are the most nauseating couple, and Cameron really needs a boyfriend.
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- Part 3 of Maybe I Need You
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03 Nov 2024
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This pain was internal - not in the same way that his lungs had burned after his momentary dance with death - it was excruciatingly internal. As if someone had ripped his heart clean out, had decided that wasn't enough, and had then climbed within the empty spot where his heart had been and replaced it with themselves.
Todd knew this hadn't happened, had told himself that it was nothing like that whilst knowing that it was also completely alike to it. Because Todd Anderson was in love, and it was abnormal, and it was bad and sinful, and he would never have the pleasure of reciprocation.
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31 Oct 2024
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My dearest beloved,
It is with great relief that I finally write to you. I think it doubtful for my words to ever reach your ears, but spare me this chance to lend you a piece of my thoughts — and only a piece, for I must write with caution lest I be discovered.Neil, amidst his own internal emotional conflict, accidentally stumbles upon letters Todd had been writing in secret to an unknown recipient. Neil (an idiot) continues to intrude on Todd's privacy by reading each new letter in secret, continuously agitating over their purpose.
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28 Oct 2024
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Todd is a loner new kid with more than a few secrets that threaten to eat him alive. Neil is a bright boy surrounded by friends and opportunities, who can't figure out why he's lonely despite it all. They've both got rough issues to work through—and only time will tell if they can manage to do it together.
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27 Oct 2024
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"Neil feels something in his chest light up. Like a firecracker or an atom bomb or something else that could self-destruct at any moment. It aches in a dangerous sort of way.
'God', Neil thinks to himself as he follows Todd into the house to help him with boxes. Why had he thought being roommates with Todd was a good idea in the first place? He’s going to suffocate on these feelings; they’re getting too wedged in his windpipe. 'God, you lovesick bastard, you’re so, so stupid.' "Or, alternatively; a modern day university AU in which Neil lets daddy issues prevent him from telling Todd how he feels, Charlie doesn’t know how to knock, Meeks and Pitts are the only characters with brain cells, and the Neil Perry Support Group is born.
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- Part 1 of Maybe I Need You
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26 Oct 2024
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Neil Perry is not, in fact, a very talented poet. It is rather intimidating to find out that his roommate is.
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26 Oct 2024