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Juwon shivers. “Stop that,” he says, closing his hand around Dongsik’s.
Dongsik tilts his head, blinking up at him. “It’s 'stop this' and 'stop that,' isn’t it? What do you want me to do?”
Juwon reddens, further, at what he’d been hoping for. He doesn’t know what he was picturing—maybe a silent fuck, with no words whispered, but simply the mechanics of going through it, and then washing himself carefully and never talking about it again—but watching Dongsik now, he knows it’s going to be more complicated than that.
Juwon wants. This is what happens when he voices that desire.
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Jung Hwan almost wants to laugh at how close to the truth they are. How all of them are hanging onto his every word—the golden son, the one who spent all his days and nights studying and only took breaks to go play football on the wide-open field underneath the summer sun, the one who got into the academy with ease, graduated with ease, the one who was good.
He had tried so hard to be good. But his mother had taught him to be honest.
Four years after that fateful night in the alley that led to Jung Hwan and Taek getting together, Jung Hwan grapples with his insecurities, his life as he grows into an independent young adult, and how he yearns to let his family, the people who matter most to him, see who he is and what he has hidden for much of his life.
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- Part 2 of 소확행 (sohwakhaeng)
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mom, am i still young? can i dream for a few months more? by gaystcr
Fandoms: แค่เพื่อนครับเพื่อน | Bad Buddy: the Series (TV)
09 Jan 2022
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Sometimes, Pran wants to grip his mother by the shoulders and make her feel the entirety of his quiet suffering. Sometimes, he yearns to shake her, to yell at her, to knock some sense into her head. To make her realise—how long he’s been cutting parts of himself away to fit into her mold. To make her understand—there’s so much of him he can’t be because of the way she’s defined him through this petty rivalry. As she looks back down at the gentle strokes of soft paint that make up a beaming Pat, he wants to yell, This is the truth! You want the truth from me, always! Why can’t you stomach it now?
The progression of Pran's relationship with his mother, the art of him breaking free from her expectations, and the simultaneous pain and relief of being finally understood: told in the big and small moments.
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Now, at eighteen, he swears to himself this will be the time. If he waits any longer, the clock will signal the end of their youth, the beginning of something new. In that upheaval, Jung Hwan isn’t sure if love will manage to fit in.
During the winter of nineteen eighty-eight, amidst a torturous Secret Santa gift exchange and the end of their youth, Jung Hwan comes to terms with himself and his relationships.
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- Part 1 of 소확행 (sohwakhaeng)
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paper planes (soaring / crashing) by gaystcr
Fandoms: นักเรียนพลังกิฟต์ | The Gifted (Thailand TV 2018)
13 Aug 2021
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“We love paper planes because they’re transitory,” he says quietly. “We love them because they arch once in the air, beautifully, before they fall to the ground. Gravity, unfortunately, is an unrelenting force. But what this teaches us is that every single beautiful thing is momentary. Just for a second, we get to see this plane fly, just because of the way it was built, from what we understand of physics. I think, in the same way, we’re transitory. Our lives are just one of the Earth’s long breaths, and then we give out. A friendship sparks into life and sizzles out after a while."
Chanon moves in with Pom after everything, unable to put the feelings that he has carried his entire life for him into words. But then Pom propositions him with an offer he can't refuse.
(Or: Chanon and Pom have sex to feel a little less lonely, a little more held. Somewhere along the way, the love they hold for each other becomes too big to keep locked away in their hearts.)
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소확행 (sohwakhaeng), translated to 'a small but certain happiness', refers not to the intensity of the happiness you experience, but rather the certainty of it. Feeling the rain against your skin, watching the flowers wake up on your morning walk, spending time with the ones you love - all of these sentiments can be defined as 소확행.
Around him, tiny specks of flowers—pyrenean violets, daffodils, poppies—shoot up from blades of grass, reminding him of Daedae, and everything else that he and Taek have grown together and cultivated with their hands. The world quietens down to a whisper so he can listen to his love, soft and kind. The last of the cold wind twirls over his shoulders, shattering gently into something new. Somewhere inside, on a whining radio, Lee Moon Sae hosts Starry Night, breaking off his talk about the weather to sing about everything plush and fresh and new.
After all this time, it’s here.
Spring is just on the horizon.
Watch Jung Hwan and Taek fall in love, figure out what it means to be young adults living in Seoul in the 80s and 90s, and grow up together in this series of character studies and small moments.
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petekao week 2020 by gaystcr
Fandom: จูบให้ได้ถ้านายแน่จริง เร็วๆนี้ | Kiss Me Again: The Series (TV), รักไม่ระบุสถานะ | Dark Blue Kiss (TV)
30 Oct 2020
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a collection of my works for petekao week 2020! featuring the following prompts. d1: protective pete friends to lovers, d2: wedding, d3: lgbt tree, d4: coffee shop au, d5: outsider pov, d6: postcards, and d7: pride.
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