16 Works by endersgay
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Smutty emo oneshot sequel to Practiced Violence
Shoma and Stephane wake up together...It's a good morning :)
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- Part 2 of Agent AU
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Stephane and Shoma are secret agents who are kidnapped and forced to undergo a psychological "study" where they must choose between violence or sexual acts. As the study progresses Stephane and Shoma find their old wounds reopened and the horrors of their memories begin to merge with their present nightmare.
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- Part 1 of Agent AU
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the shadow of the game by endersgay for sarriathmg
Fandoms: Ender Series - Orson Scott Card, Ender's Game - All Media Types
18 Dec 2024
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Canon Divergence fic where Ender doesn’t leave to lead a colony after the defeat of the Formics. Instead he stays at Command School, spiraling deeper into guilt and self-hatred.
Two years later, Bean goes looking for him…
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an x-men inspired superpower AU of sorts...
Shoma is a telepath who has been given pills to suppress his telepathy for as long as he can remember. The drugs work enough to keep him from hearing any of the minds of those around him...unless he touches them. When Shoma's mind finally starts to crumble after years of hiding who he truly is, he calls his last hope - Stephane, an empath, and the only mutant coach at the elite level.
featuring pyrokinetic Deniss and Koshiro having the cutest little elf ears
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Stephane goes into heat while Chris is out of town and Deniss, Shoma, and Koshiro try to take care of him.
Heats are NOT inherently sexual in this AU! It's more like a really intense period where you just need security and family
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after Japanese Nationals, Shoma is desperate to help Stephane relax
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Every kind of intimacy feels new and fragile now, even something as simple as holding hands. Their unity doesn’t feel simple anymore. How could it now that Shoma has come so close to losing it.
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- Part 2 of something to hold
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Having retired from his competitive career, Shoma becomes painfully aware of just how dissatisfied he is with the more personal sphere of his life. Who is he without the sport that has shaped every part of him? Without the man who has come to mean so much to him?
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“Stéphane…not my coach” Shoma whispered. It was meant to be defiant, like he was daring Stéphane to find another reason to keep them apart. But Shoma could barely keep from choking on the words. Not my coach, not mine.
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Truth will come into the light at the 2023 Grand Prix Final. The pain that Shoma should never have known, the hurt that Stephane has tried to hide even from himself—Stéphane wants to carry it all, even if it destroys him.
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Shoma sleeps so soundly, and Stéphane has been grateful for it during the past month of hiding. But now, just this once, Stéphane wishes he hadn’t run the water in the sink to hide the sound of gagging and coughing, wishes he hadn’t closed and locked the door, he wishes…
’I want him to find me.’ Stéphane thinks with a sudden sob. ‘I want him to gather me up and hold me.’
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- Part 1 of something to hold
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the night after Shoma’s free skate at the 2024 world championships…
it’s been a long day, but Shoma gets to go home now -
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“Shoma, you know I don’t care about…size or anything.” He could practically feel the skin of Shoma’s face heating up against his shoulder. “Your body is beautiful to me–all of it” Stéphane rubbed soothing circles into Shoma’s back. “Not because of how it looks, but just because…it’s yours.” Stéphane bent to press his lips to Shoma’s slightly sweat-damp hair, trying to somehow convince Shoma of just how much he meant it.
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Stéphane struggles with old urges. Shoma holds him until he comes back to himself.
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'I want Shoma. Just Shoma,' Stéphane thought to himself as Shoma’s hands smoothed over his back shyly. But it wasn’t true. Stéphane had spent his youth pretending, telling himself he could live off of love. He would have believed his own lies once, but he could feel their hollowness now.
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When Nathan goes into a sudden stress rut after his gold-medal-winning free skate, he doesn’t know how things could get any worse…then Shoma Uno finds him panicking in the locker room.
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A loud metallic creak sent Nathan’s heart racing. His head snapped up to see Shoma walking through the locker room door. Time seemed to move in slow motion as Shoma stopped in his tracks, his blank, sleepy expression shifting in surprise as he inhaled. Nathan’s heart dropped into his stomach. Because of course. Not only did he go into rut in potentially the most public moment of his life, it had to be Shoma who found him like this. It was like watching a car crash. Nathan couldn’t look away as Shoma’s eyes swept the room before finally landing on him, his lips forming a little “o” of surprise. Nathan held his breath as they locked eyes.
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Soulmate AU where your soulmate’s bruises and scars appear on your skin
Set mostly between 2012–2018
This story takes place in the same universe as "a sacred and ever-present thing" but the fics can be read independently!
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- Part 2 of FS Soulmate AU
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Shoma had hoped a year of retirement would allow him to overcome his feelings for his former coach. But when Stéphane goes into heat unexpectedly at the end of Shoma’s visit to Champéry, Shoma and Stéphane must face the years of longing and denial between them.
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Stéphane looked stricken. His whole body frozen as though he didn’t know whether to recoil or to throw himself at Shoma. “I can’t do this,” he whispered, shaking his head. He looked terrified, on the verge of tears, but his hand gripped Shoma’s so tightly. “I can’t do…casual affection anymore.” Stéphane closed his eyes and his face seemed to twist in pain for a moment. “It only hurts more to pretend.”
“It’s not pretend for me.”
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Shoma learned to hide the pain of his other half before he was old enough to understand what the marks on his skin meant. Stéphane grew up thinking he was alone in the universe.
Soulmate AU where your soulmate's bruises and scars appear on your skin
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- Part 1 of FS Soulmate AU
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Stéphane was so happy for Shoma to have his own special memory in Torino. But when Shoma watches Stéphane’s Torino memory, he starts to see his coach in a new way.
"Shoma has never seen anyone come alive on the ice like Stéphane does. He can see Stéphane’s emotion, his engagement with the music in every cell of his body. He knows it’s a character, that Stéphane’s a performer, but it doesn’t feel like it. It feels like Stéphane, just…more. Like someone Stéphane could be every day if he allowed himself."