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    You’re a gift, Marius had told him once, back when he was still a head taller than his Amadeo, wiping tears away with a less-than-gentle thumb. Get in there and start giving.

    He stares at himself. The bruises Louis’ teeth left on his throat are gone, if they were ever there at all. Aside from a little red around the eyes, a little tremor in the hands, he’s beautiful. He’s always beautiful. Often he asks himself what it might have been like if his maker had allowed him to be anything else, anything but.

    It’s been six hundred years and he still can’t come up with an answer.

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    yeah

  2. Public Bookmark 49

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    It wasn’t love. Armand had lived centuries to know what was love and what was not. Maybe he did love Daniel, maybe that was why he couldn’t bring himself to stay around him long enough to prove it. But Daniel did not love him, and he would not allow himself to push that feeble narrative into the head of someone who he would step into 1000 blazing suns over. He couldn’t bring himself to hurt Daniel that way, no matter how arduous it was to leave him each morning, slinking back into darkness and dreadful silence of his coffin.

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    31 Dec 2024

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    yes yes exactly

  3. Rec 54

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    Armand sucks in a breath. “What did I tell you yesterday about not asking questions?”
    Yesterday ?” Daniel could laugh. “We made out last night! You jacked me off! I came in your fucking hand, man, and I’ve gotten you this far. What do I have to do to make you trust me ?”


    A bloody American summer in the belly of the AIDS crisis.

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  4. Public Bookmark 24

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    Louis finds him in a nondescript apartment in Paris, curled up sideways on the floor with one arm tucked under his head as a pillow and the other wrapped tight around his knees. He’s completely motionless, and as quiet as a lamb.

    A flash of anger floods Louis’s mind at the sight of him—his former lover, the manipulator, the liar—but it goes away as quick as it came. Because the figure on the floor isn’t Armand anymore. It’s Arun: frightened, anxious, and worried. Worried that he’s been abandoned for good, again.

    “Arun,” Louis says, gently. “Arun, can you hear me?”

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  5. Rec 13

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    Your acting of them must grow out of your living in them.

    (Louis and Armand play Rashid.)

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