chaote
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“Stop…Stop trying to get me out of here.” His own voice haunts him, empty and mechanical. Something in his throat hurt. His mind felt stuffed with cotton. Coming to the conclusion that it was dry felt like pulling teeth. He wondered if he has teeth left to pull. More blood plinked to the cold metal floor when he pushed his tongue up to the roof of his mouth.
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Helmsman Sollux with a smattering of self loathing, and solutions which may not be the best for everyone.
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You’d given up on him.
On sleepless nights you still skim through swathes of grey punctuated by warm yellow, smiling softly at the dumb arguments, his wise ass comments and your overly defensive retorts.
Sometimes you cry. Sometimes you hate him.
But all the same, you’d given up. You stopped looking out of the window every morning, stopped having that naked sliver of hope crushed every night. It had taken you a while, but you even have a boyfriend now. You love him. Sollux doesn’t come up in your thoughts as often as you used to, and when he does it’s in the little things, like the way Dave eats his pizza cold and insists it’s better that way. You smile and laugh more and think to yourself that you’re healing.
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You don’t know when it started. The not feeling anything thing. You have a guess, but it doesn’t really matter. It’s not like you hadn’t deserved it. Point is, you lost yourself and you never got yourself back.
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In Which Sollux Captor, After Suffering Trauma Off-Screen, is Depicted as Being Incapable of Forming Healthy and Longlasting Bonds with Others.