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cure (in your gaze, i am seen) by autisticthan, ivanstills (autisticthan)
Fandoms: Alien Stage (Web Series)
26 Oct 2024
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Without thinking, Till reached out and harshly shoved the hand that had reached for Ivan's weak body away, Mizi sucking in a little breath of surprise as she drew back. His face flaming, Till apologised quietly.
"Sorry," he said, his own hand coming to rest on Ivan's chest, the thumping of his heart momentarily quelling a quiet anxiety in his chest.
"Don't be." Mizi's voice was understanding and when Till looked at her, he didn't see the girl he'd spent his entire life chasing. In her place, a friend and ally stood, offering him her hand instead. He reached out and grasped it, basked in the quiet understanding and nodded.
in which ivan lives and till is left to figure out what this means for him, ivan and everyone around them.
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The prince shrugged and dug an ember toe into the stone in front of him. His voice was small, reminding Thanatos of the sleepy way Zag used to hold onto his robe after a nightmare when they were small. “I dunno. You’ll be busy with soul collecting. You might not have time to see me anymore. Achilles told me it happens when friends grow up. They grow apart, become busy.”
His heart thudded unevenly at the sadness the prince couldn’t quite keep out of his words, despite the effort. “Zagreus,” Than said and reached out again to place a hand on the prince’s shoulder. “You’re my best friend. I’ll always come back for you, okay? Just wait for me.”
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thanatos realising he's been in love with his prince for their entire lives, only he realises it a little too late.
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Nicky needs to find a roommate who's not afraid of Andrew. Neil needs a place to live. Allison needs to win a bet.
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a product of absence by Ominous for racingshadows
Fandoms: All For The Game - Nora Sakavic
16 Sep 2020
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It’s funny, Andrew thinks, that this would be seen as a curse in any other situation. Two people, thrown apart by time and circumstances, desperately searching for one another.
But Andrew has never doubted Neil’s return. He’s not running, he’s not worried. It’s perhaps the only waiting game that’s been worth it, that he understands, because this bond with Neil has only ever made sense to him.
In another life, Neil made this much clear: they would always find each other in the end.
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26 Jan 2022
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Neil is a successful author with a stalker who seems to know a little too much about his past. He needs a bodyguard for his upcoming book tour. Enter: Andrew Minyard.
I've marked this as Graphic Descriptions of Violence out of an abundance of caution, but I don't even come near the source material here.
“Kevin Day told me about you.” The corners of Neil’s mouth lift the barest degree. It should be an unassuming, polite smile. Should be.
Andrew isn’t convinced. He hums and leans back in his seat. “You know Kevin.”
“We go way back,” Neil explains. He’s not giving any signs that indicate he’s lying, but still. Kevin usually holds his liquor better than he holds his secrets but Andrew thought he knew everyone Kevin has known since Palmetto State and he’d remember if this guy had been in the Nest.
“He’s never mentioned you,” Andrew says.
“I rarely mention him,” Neil replies easily.
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26 Jan 2022
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"You paid for the deluxe package," Neil says as he scrolls through his payment history to find his client's invoice. His system is simple:
Basic Package: Fuck you. A general statement of displeasure and a brief description of the wrongdoing.
Intermediate Package: Fuck you, with passion. Everything in the basic package, but with additional insults. Customizable for an extra fee.
Deluxe Package: Fuck you to hell. Everything from the first two packages, for an extended period of time, and with extra viciousness.
And it looks like Andrew Minyard is the unlucky soul today.
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26 Jan 2022
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“Have you considered the possibility that Neil has chosen you, but believes you have not chosen him?” Renee says. "Have you ever explicitly told him what you want?”
“Neil knows what I want,” Andrew snaps. This is not Andrew’s fault.
“How do you know?”
Because Neil always knows. He is as fluent in Andrew’s micro-expressions as he is in German and French. He knows which head tilts mean “go on” and which ones mean “shut up.” Without ever asking, he learned what it meant to see Andrew wearing double layers of long sleeves, or taking multiple showers in a day, and learned to hand Andrew the car keys.
That has always been the most terrifying thing about Neil — his patience to wait, watch, listen, learn. The prospect that if Neil were given enough time, there would be no part of Andrew that was just Andrew’s anymore.
“He has to know,” Andrew says.
“Does he?” Renee says. “Have you ever known Neil to assume that he is wanted?”
Five times Neil tells someone that he and Andrew aren’t dating, and one time Andrew uses his words to set the record straight.
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23 Jan 2022