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Buck’s never been wanted, not really. That’s the truth of his existence, at the end of the day. Born as a saviour only to fail. Neglected by his parents, left by his sister, the only person to make life worth it back then. When he finally, finally decided enough was enough and ran away from home, he thought, stupidly, that being the one to do the leaving might mean that he’d stop being doomed.
It doesn’t. Because now Eddie’s leaving. And it’s worse. It’s so much worse, infinitely worse, in ways Buck can’t quite comprehend. If Tommy leaving was a blow to his self esteem, Eddie leaving – it’s nothing short of an atomic bomb, leaving nothing but dead plants, rotting carcasses and devastation in its wake.------
Episode Coda to 8x08 Wannabes
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- Part 2 of buddie canon season episode codas
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21 Dec 2024
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Buck used to never mind the rain, he loved it.
The rain doesn’t bring him joy anymore. It brings rapidly changing atmospheric pressure, and cold, and pain.or Buck deals with a chronic pain flare up
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16 Dec 2024
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Eddie knows exactly what he wants tonight.
Buck whines when Eddie draws back, firm grip keeping him in place.
“I’ll clean up here,” Eddie says. Buck’s eyes are half-lidded and trained on his mouth. Sliding one hand to brace against the side of Buck’s neck, Eddie tilts his jaw up with his thumb so their gazes meet. “Bedroom. I’m right behind you.”
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09 Dec 2024
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And maybe it’s the fact that Tyler is open and non-complicated and so unashamed that it makes Eddie feel like he doesn’t have to be either. Or maybe it’s just that Eddie’s so fucking sick of hiding, of letting people see him for who he’s not, of playing this suffocating role that he’s feeling a little impulsive. Either way, Eddie opens his mouth and what comes out is—
“I do, actually.”
Tyler raises a singular eyebrow at him.
“Swing for the same team, I mean.” He blows out a slow, calming breath, making eye contact with absolutely nobody, and then announces at large, “I’m gay.”
or, eddie tells three secrets.
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04 Dec 2024
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His mind is already flashing with a thousand possibilities; snapshots of every work-related accident he’s encountered in his seven years on the job, the all-too-familiar of image of Eddie’s body unnaturally lifeless in the hospital bed, breathless in a way that never fails to make Buck want to claw out his own lungs and transplant them into Eddie’s chest. Already scrambling for his keys, heart alight in terror, he frantically chokes out, “What happened? Is he okay?”
There’s a pause on the other end of the line. “Actually,” a rustle of files, “We were calling about a girl by the name of June Foster."
Buck’s mind blanks.
“We believe her to be your daughter.”
or, the story of how buck discovers he has a six-year-old daughter, spirals a bit, becomes an astronaut in training, kisses the love of his life, makes lasagna, and learns that his heart might just be the perfect place to build a home, all in seven days.
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- Part 1 of june-verse