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    Buck kissed him. It didn’t feel like a declaration the way kisses usually do. It didn’t feel stifling. It felt like a plea. It felt like exactly what he said, like don’t go. Buck is still getting over Tommy, and Eddie is straight, and the two of them—it’s easy between the two of them.

    The engine roars and Buck turns to look at him, eyebrows raised as if asking if he’s ready. Eddie nods, swallows, and puts his head back. Buck kissed him, and they won’t talk about it, and Eddie’s fine with that because really, Buck’s the only thing that’s ever been easy for Eddie.

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    or Buck kisses Eddie in LA. Eddie kisses Buck in El Paso. They figure out what that means somewhere along the way to bringing Chris back home.

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    21 Dec 2024

  2. Public Bookmark 32

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    He wraps Mitch up in a fluffy white towel, taking the opportunity to pull him close again. The steam-clouded bathroom is warm, and smells of their chamomile shower gel[...]
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    [...]Auston knows how much he loves being overstimulated, so he doesn't let up, letting Mitch writhe against him, egging him on even more. He'd stop if Mitch used his safeword, but Auston knows he won't.
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    or, tender filth :)

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    16 Dec 2024

  3. Public Bookmark 9

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    Mitch takes a hit. Auston cleans up.

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    16 Dec 2024

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    William has a sneaking suspicion that his two best friends are in love with one another.

     

    or: Five Reasons William Thinks Auston and Mitch Are in Love (and One Reason He Knows They Are)

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    01 Dec 2024

  5. Public Bookmark 52

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    Juniors was—Mitch would say it was enlightening, but all he really managed to do was drunkenly make out and exchange quick handies that the other boys brushed off as bros helping bros. It just left Mitch even more confused than he had been before anything happened. Then Steph came along and he could push it down, tell himself it didn’t really matter because he had a girlfriend who he thought he could love forever.

    But the Leafs got the first pick, and he’d spent a little too much time watching Auston’s highlights, dreaming of what it would be like to play with him if he got the chance. It had sparked something in him that he hadn’t felt before, and then he met Auston, all shy smiles and quiet cockiness, and—.

    If Mitch is being honest about it, he’d had a crush on Auston’s hockey before he ever even met him, meeting him just pushed it past the point of no return, and Mitch is pretty sure that sums up how completely fucked he is.

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    25 Nov 2024

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    It’s not like Buck needs anyone to tell him what his issues are. They might as well be written on his forehead in bright red marker. He’s not ignoring it or anything; Buck just doesn’t see the point in re-litigating them every time he feels like this, every time he feels like a dog that got sent back to the pound. It’s not like he doesn’t have his friends and family, and Tommy is sleeping right next to him, but there’s a hole in Buck’s chest he’s had since he was born and he still doesn’t know how to fill it.

    When the 118 is closed for reconstruction after an earthquake, Buck is a floater for different stations around the city. He tries not to let it get to him. Much.

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    19 Nov 2024

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    Just before Eddie tells Buck he loves him, he’s pretty sure they’ve been building up to this for months. Just after Eddie tells Buck he loves him, he realises he’s deeply misunderstood this entire situation.

    And Buck? Well, Buck didn’t even think they were dating.

    (Aftermath, and then: the road less travelled, with the benefit of hindsight.)

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    18 Nov 2024

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    Eddie gave up in July.

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    10 Nov 2024

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    In the comedown, Eddie lets himself drift. He waits for it—the shame, the guilt, the panic over thinking about his best friend while he got himself off.

    It comes, but not for the reasons he expects. Eddie melts into his mattress in the aftermath of his orgasm, and doesn’t stop thinking about it. He’s gay. He finds Buck hot. Buck is his best friend, his co-parent, his partner in just about everything. Buck likes men too. It’s a possibility, a real one. Eddie can see a future with Buck, and that’s when the panic hits him.

    Eddie wasn’t a good husband. What he has with Buck right now isn’t worth losing. Eddie is in love with his best friend, but he thought that about Shannon too—and look where that ended up.

    or: Eddie fucks an ex-priest, has a crisis of faith, and figures it out.

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    03 Nov 2024

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    But going alone is like—it’s a death knell. And Buck is trying, he really is, but it’s Halloween. You can’t break up with someone on Halloween.

    He spies Eddie walking up the stairs, totally focused on his phone. Eddie, who is also planless for the weekend barring some natural disaster or miracle of the prodigal son returning home. Eddie, who had gleefully been the Tubbs to Buck’s Crockett—because Buck is totally Crockett, okay?—without complaint. Eddie, who likes dressing up for Halloween.

    or: Buck wants to do a couples’ costume, and Tommy doesn’t want to do it. Eddie volunteers.

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    30 Oct 2024

  11. Public Bookmark 88

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    A few days before his first date with Buck, Eddie comes to the fire station early to work out and blow off some pent up steam. Only problem? Buck's already there.

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    Written for 9-1-1 Gotcha for Gaza

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    28 Oct 2024

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    After dinner, Buck wedges himself on the couch between Hen and Eddie. Maybe, if he’s squeezed between them, he won’t be able to feel that weird creeping sensation over his skin anymore.

    He drums his fingers on his knee, trying to focus on the TV. Eddie jolts next to him.

    “Sorry, did I bump you?” Buck asks.

    Eddie shakes his head. “Nah, sorry. Just..” He sighs, rubbing a hand over his face, and Buck feels it again—that pressure, running over his nose and his cheeks and—

    Eddie drops his hand and the feeling stops.

    Wait.

     

    Or, Buck and Eddie wake up one morning able to feel each other's touch. They make the most of it.

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    16 Oct 2024

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    Buck’s not sure how it happens, but they find themselves falling into a rhythm. Buck goes on dates, not all of them as disastrous as the first, but none that warrant a second one, and afterwards he makes his way over to Eddie’s. They watch TV; they work on Eddie’s yard together; Buck starts teaching Eddie how to be a better cook.

    And if Buck finds himself looking forward to seeing Eddie after his dates more than the dates themselves, well, that’s normal, right? It probably means nothing.

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    13 Oct 2024

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    “There’s cookie dough on your face.” Buck whispers, and—

    “Huh?”

    “Cookie dough. On your face.” Buck repeats, not pulling back. “Cheekbone.”

    Eddie rolls his eyes. “Are you serious?”

    He loves an idiot. Seriously. Who cares about some chocolate on his face when Buck could be kissing him right now. He’s about to wipe it off when Buck catches his wrist. He tilts his head, and—

    Fucking Christ.

    He licks Eddie’s cheek.

    Eddie's tired of waiting.

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    13 Oct 2024

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    “Which do you think makes you feel most loved?”

    Eddie thought for a long moment. Too long, maybe. Then he shrugged, “Honestly, Buck? I have no idea.”

    Buck’s brows pinched up. “What do you mean? When have you felt the most loved?”

    “Don’t make a big thing of this, Buck. Promise?”

    Buck made a show of crossing his heart, brows still raised curiously.

    “I’m not sure I’ve ever… really felt loved in a relationship? I’m not convinced that I know what makes me feel loved…”

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    After finding out that Eddie doesn't know what his love language is, Buck sets about finding out for him. He begins a five week experiment, one for each love language, to figure out which will make Eddie feel the most loved.

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    05 Oct 2024

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    “Buck, there is no way a woman has actually said that to you.”

    “Eddie, I swear to you, the first time we hooked up she told me that she wanted me to give her some of my baby batter."

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    In which Buck has recently ended things with Tommy, Eddie wants to explore his sexuality, and they decide to start sleeping together. As friends, of course.

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    05 Oct 2024

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    “Stay with me,” Buck blurts out the second Eddie’s eyes meet his. “We’ll pick up Chris after my shift ends in a couple hours, and you guys can—you can stay with me. Don’t get a hotel.”

    “Buck,” Eddie says, a searching look in his eyes. “You don’t have to do that. This is—this isn’t your mess to deal with, I can figure it out.”

    “I know I don’t have to,” Buck argues. “I want to.”

    or; Eddie and Chris move in with Buck after a fire. Buck breaks up with his boyfriend, buys a house with Eddie, and realizes he's in love. In precisely that order.

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    03 Oct 2024

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    Eddie thinks, as he munches on a fry, that he’s angry. He’s angry that Buck was ever wronged, that Buck even felt he had to give him that look. He’s angry that he can’t just fix it, that he’s not good at fixing things but he’s really good at messing things up. He’s angry because he’s afraid of failing when Buck needs him.

    He’s angry at Buck because he’s not here, and he’s angry because it’s easier than grief, because Eddie thinks this might be a type of grief. Because he misses Buck when he’s right there, because Eddie thinks this might be another thing like all the other things he needs to deal with, the things he pushes down so deep because just letting them sit around is enough to hurt.

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    or Buck gets turned into a kid. Eddie misses him like crazy.

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    28 Sep 2024

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    Missing Chris is less of an emotion these days and more of a physical entity. He’s sure everyone can see that he’s slowly hollowing himself out, that he can’t do much of anything else.

    But when Jee laughs at him trying to get his tongue to touch his nose, and Mara loops one of her arms through his to keep him from tossing the rest of his cup in the garbage, Eddie feels solid again.

    Maybe he likes yellow birthday cake ice cream after all.

     

    (or, gerrard messes with the team's schedules and eddie 'i just drove my son to flee the state' diaz is the only option to watch mara and jee-yun after school on tuesdays, which, shouldn't be a problem at all, right?)

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    12 Sep 2024

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    Dean and Cas, a long stretch of highway, and 36 questions empirically designed to make two people fall in love.

    As if they weren't already.

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    11 Sep 2024

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