19 Works by LiaIsInLove
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My name is Niall James Horan. Or at least it was. Chances are, if you’re reading this, I’m not alive anymore, so there’s no point pretending. If I am still alive and your name isn’t Niall James Horan, and you’ve stumbled across this somehow, turn back now. I’m serious. Put this down and walk away. You’ll be much happier. Just erase it from your mind, forget about it. Everything will be so much better that way.
Or the one where Niall's diary keeps all of his deepest, darkest, most well-guarded secrets.
Massive trigger warnings for eating disorders, depression, self harm, suicidal thoughts, borderline personality disorder, and mental illness. PLEASE DO NOT READ if this may be triggering in any way.
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Louis Tomlinson loved many things. However there was one thing that Louis Tomlinson didn’t love but rather, he hated with a burning passion. And that thing was a boy by the name of Niall Horan-Tomlinson.
Or the one where Louis Tomlinson had the perfect life until his family finds out that his father had had an affair, which resulted in a bastard child by the name of Niall. Louis thought his family would be able to move past this unpleasant surprise. But when Niall's mother dies and the boy is forced to come live with the Tomlinson's, Louis' life as he knew it is threatened and he must learn to love the boy who nearly ruined his family before it's too late.
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He loved the emptiness that filled him. He loved curling up at night and just relishing in the hollow emptiness inside of him. Because he knew what this emptiness was. He knew exactly what it came from. It came from him not eating. And Niall loved that.
Or the one where Niall has an eating disorder and is addicted to being empty inside.
Massive trigger warnings for eating disorders. PLEASE DO NOT READ IF YOU HAVE ANY POSSIBILITY OF BEING TRIGGERED!!!!
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Harry adored him. Harry was so good to him and Harry loved him so much. And Niall wanted that to be enough. He wanted it to be enough so goddamn fucking badly. But it wasn’t. It just wasn’t.
Or the one where Niall loves Harry, but his Depression is insurmountable.
Trigger warnings for mental illness and suicide. Please do not read if you have any chance whatsoever of being triggered by this.
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- Part 1 of Louder Than Love
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And Harry felt like he was falling apart at the seams. He was trying so hard to keep Niall from splintering into a million tiny pieces, that he himself was beginning to crack. He couldn’t sleep. He couldn’t eat. All he could think about was Niall and how much he needed him to be okay, how much he needed for him to come back.
Or the one where Niall is breaking and Harry is trying his best to save him.
PLEASE NOTE: This is a rewrite/alternative version of my work, An Ocean Of Stars
Massive trigger warnings for eating disorders, depression, suicide, and mental illness. PLEASE DO NOT READ if this may be triggering in any way.
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“I didn’t mean to—“ Louis began but Niall cut him off in scornful disbelief.
“You didn’t mean to throw a water bottle at my face?” He made to raise his eyebrows, but that wound up stretching the cut open further and he hissed as the stinging sensation intensified.
Or the one where Louis accidentally hurts Niall and thinks it's hilarious and Niall is angry at him (but not really).
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It's Just... by To Dance Beneath The Diamond Sky (LiaIsInLove)
Fandoms: One Direction (Band)
16 Nov 2015
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It’s not that he can’t eat. It's just that...
Or the one where Harry explains his eating disorder.
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I need the pain it brings, so bitter and yet so sweet, so reviving and yet so demolishing, so refreshing and yet so cliché.
Massive trigger warnings. Please please please do not read if you have any possibility of being triggered.
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Niall couldn’t believe how stupid he was. He just assumed that the safest place to hide was in plain sight. That if he acted like he had nothing to hide, people would actually believe him. But no. He was wrong. Dead fucking wrong.
Or the one where Liam finds out one of Niall's biggest secrets.
Trigger warnings. Please please please do not read if you have any possibility of being triggered.
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Harry would not stop talking about how much he wished he could have the amount of willpower Niall had and how he wished he could be like Niall. And Niall just…
Niall couldn’t fucking take it anymore. “It’s not a matter of willpower,” he’d groaned, head in his hands, face screwed up. Harry had scoffed then, not believing him. “It’s not about willpower,” Niall’d repeated more forcefully.
“Well if it’s not about willpower, then what is it about?”
Or the one where Niall tells Harry his deepest, darkest, best kept secret.
Triggers for eating disorders. Please, please, please don't read if you have any chance of being triggered
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They asked me if I felt safe. I said yes. I knew no one would hurt me. I wasn’t scared or anything. I just wanted to die. That’s why I was there, after all. But I didn’t feel like they would hurt me. I didn’t care about anything at that point. I just wanted to sleep.
Or the one where Niall reflects on what it means to be safe.
This may be triggering. I am by no means vivid, but if there is any possibility that you could be harmed or triggered in any way, shape, or form please do not read this.
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And Harry felt like he was falling apart at the seams. He was trying so hard to keep Niall from splintering into a million tiny pieces, that he himself was beginning to crack. He couldn’t sleep. He couldn’t eat. All he could think about was Niall and how much he needed him to come back.
Harry was afraid of going to sleep each night because he didn’t know what the next day would bring. He lay awake every night, sick to his stomach, terrified of what he was going to find in the morning. Because mornings were bad. Mornings were the unknown. Harry didn’t know what state he was going to find Niall in, or if he’d even find Niall alive anymore.Or the one where Harry is trying desperately to hold Niall together
Massive trigger warnings for eating disorders, depression, and mental illness. PLEASE DO NOT READ if this may be triggering in any way.
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Why couldn’t they understand? He needed it. Couldn’t they see that? He needed to be in control.
Or the one where Niall has an eating disorder.
Massive trigger warnings for eating disorders. PLEASE DO NOT READ IF YOU HAVE ANY POSSIBILITY OF BEING TRIGGERED!!!!
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The thing is, Niall’s unhappy.
Massive trigger warnings for mental illness and suicide. Please do not read if you have any chance whatsoever of being triggered by this.
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But nothing can really pump life back into the dead now, can it?
Or the one where Niall is on suicide watch.
Massive trigger warnings. Please please please do not read if you have any possibility of being triggered.
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Sometimes being alive hurts.
Massive trigger warnings for mental illness and suicide. Please do not read if you have any chance whatsoever of being triggered by this.
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It’s not that he can’t eat. It's just that...
Or the one where Niall explains his eating disorder.
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Then indeed insanity had descended.
Or the one where Niall descends into psychosis.
Or the one where this was originally an English class assignment (an Imitation of Virginia Woolf's "To the Lighthouse") that I decided to turn into a one-shot because I can.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 812
- Chapters:
- 1/1
- Kudos:
- 15
- Hits:
- 1,105
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“Niall what’s your favorite feature?” The interviewer asked, leaning forward slightly in her seat.
My scars, Niall didn’t reply. It’s not like he could just say that, after all.
(Or the one where Niall explains why he is not ashamed of his illness)THIS IS MASSIVELY TRIGGERING. I AM ABSOLUTELY BEGGING YOU NOT TO READ THIS IF YOU COULD IN ANY WAY SHAPE OR FORM BE HARMED OR GET ANY IDEAS BY THE INCREDIBLY SERIOUS THINGS I AM DISCUSSING. I WILL TAKE THIS DOWN IF I THINK IT IS TOO TRIGGERING.
PLEASE DO NOT READ IF YOU HAVE EVEN THE FAINTEST POSSIBILITY OF BEING TRIGGERED