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   The Sudden Obliteration of Expectation by JulietRose

   Fandoms: Dear Evan Hansen - Pasek & Paul/Levenson  

   • Explicit
   • Choose Not To Use Archive Warnings
   • M/M
   • Complete Work

   12 Jun 2020

   Tags

   • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
   • Evan Hansen/Connor Murphy
   • Evan Hansen
   • Connor Murphy
   • Jared Kleinman
   • Zoe Murphy
   • Alana Beck
   • Heidi Hansen
   • Cynthia Murphy
   • Larry Murphy
   • The Voice In Evan's Head
   • Self-Harm
   • Past Suicide Attempts
   • Suicidal Thoughts
   • Depression
   • Anxiety
   • Panic Attacks
   • Child Neglect
   • Abandonment Issues
   • anger issues
   • Self Confidence Issues
   • ADHD
   • Eating Disorders
   • Past Hospitalization
   • Pills
   • Explicit Sexual Content
   • only consensual sex
   • Homophobia
   • Internalized Homophobia
   • f-slur
   • Weed
   • Protective Connor Murphy
   • Slow Burn
   • (kind of)
   • more like a slow burn that explodes
   • Obligatory For Forever Scene
   • Lots of Crying
   • Angst
   • Fluff
   • Smut
   • Angst and Fluff and Smut
   • Larry Is Not A Bad Dad
   • they are doing their best
   • Evan Is Annoyed By Zoe: A Saga
   • 10-20k word chapters
   • Alternate Universe - Everyone Lives/Nobody Dies
   • there's no such thing as ooc connor
   • unless you count alive as ooc
   • Hurt/Comfort

   Summary

   The majority of Evan’s thoughts after falling were not very coherent. Most of it was fairly obvious and to be expected after failing to kill yourself: there was the realization of what happened, the crushing sense of failure, and the pain. The pain was blinding. His head spun and it felt like gravity was working in reverse. But all of that was still preferable to what came after he went numb.

   Series

   • Part 1 of The Sudden Obliteration of Expectation

   Language:

   English

   Words:

   107,085

   Chapters:

   8/8

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   Bookmarks:

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   19,668

   Bookmarked by Escalate_Effect

   23 Aug 2020

   Bookmarker's Collections:

   • Must Read Again

   Bookmarker's Notes

   This is honestly the best story I've read in- well, probably ever. The author got the characters personalities so well and it was just- I don't even really know how to explain it with words.