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    If you're reading this, you know what his backstory looks like. Don't get mad at me when you're triggered by abuse and violence. You should know what to expect here.
    You are responsible for your own triggers and avoiding them.
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    A fic of Astarion's origin. Based on some canon facts, as well as some theories, but largely headcanon.

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    The group's excited chattering about how they were going to besiege Cazador's palace died down to a murmur when Tav guided Astarion toward Their tent with a hand on the small of his back. Most had assumed for weeks now that he and Tav had a sexual relationship of the wicked-vampire-seduces-naive-monk variety, but here was deliciously public confirmation of their suspicions.
    "Stay with me tonight," Tav said under Their breath. Astarion made sure to tilt his head so it looked like Tav whispering sweet nothings to him. "I think you should keep out of any direct line of sight while there might be more hired thugs lurking about. And if we're in the same tent, I can protect you."
    "I'd love to, darling."
    "Do you need anything from your tent?"
    "Not a thing. I've been dying to wear one of those sets of cozy pajamas you're always wandering around the camp in."
    Tav smiled brilliantly. "What's mine is yours."
    "Oh, I hope so."
    Astarion hustled ahead and lifted the flap of Tav's tent with a gracious flourish to let the monk enter. Then he made deliberate eye contact with each of the judgmental glares aimed at him from across the campfire before stepping inside with a sassy roll of his hips.

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    When Lavare and Evelyn end up on the nautiloid, kidnapped and inserted with tadpoles that will turn them into monsters, the pair of sisters go on a quest along with a ragtag party to try and save themselves from the grim fate. Everyone is a little weird, but they all need to work together to get through this mess. Between a wizard that might blow up, an elf who might eat the party, the cleric and fighter snipping at each other, a monster hunter and a woman who didn't end up a monster after all, things are not off to a great start. On top of all of that, a seemingly half-crazed tiefling who can't even remember who own name, do they have the odds to even make it through this journey?

    Lavare is enthusiastic enough to believe they can make it, but her older and more experienced sister doesn't feel the need to hand out trust to anyone just yet. Still, it's safer in a group than it is alone. It's going to be dangerous enough just getting to Baldur's Gate, when they actually reach it then it's really going to get messy.

    And the amnesiac Dark Urge, helped along by Karlach when it seems like no one else can believe in her, is terrified of her own place in the world and what it means when she starts to learn it.

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    One-shots/drabbles following the events of "Perfect Slaughter."

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    Two months after the fall of the Netherbrain, Astarion and Asanna head back to the Arcane Tower in the Underdark since he can no longer walk under the sun. Old memories may still haunt Astarion, but it's also the start of a new adventure as they try to figure out what to do about the matter of the spawn they freed.

    This is set post-game, so fair warning that there are spoilers for everything from Act 1 to Act 3.

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    “You know, darling,” Astarion suddenly said, a smile playing about his lips, “if you want to keep me all to yourself, we could just go back to the Elfsong instead of heading to that dusty old mage’s tower—so long as you remember to mind the drapes in the daytime. Honestly, a free room in perpetuity is the least that the city owes us when they should be giving us the entire inn.” He took her hand gently and turned it over to kiss it, his fangs lightly grazing her skin.

    “My bright and beautiful star,” the wizard said with a sigh, withdrawing her hand to brush her long silvery hair back, “you had that look again just now—the one where you’re a million miles away. What is it? And have you truly suddenly decided that life as an innkeeper is for you?”

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    “I was given... a drug... Underdark mushrooms...” his throat was tight, the words broke and cracked as he did his best to explain what was happening. He took a breath and let his shoulders slump as he gained himself. Gale was talking, but he couldn’t focus on the words. Instead he listened to his voice and let it ground him. It was so different from the one grating at the inside of his skull. Gale was worried about him when his master only wanted to hurt him. Gale loved him. He and Wyll had said as much every day for the few months the three of them had been together. His master loved him too, but only in ways that proved he hated him.

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    Astarion wakes up post Nautiloid crash and finds himself in a Worg-pen.

    He finds out Vampire Spawn are perfectly capable of going feral- and what it means to trust again.

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    Durge has absolutely no memory, a violent bloodlust that can overwhelm him at any given moment and a nasty backseat passenger lodged in his skull. Jean Grey didn't think she'd be crawling out of her own grave, resurrected yet again - but here she is. Two people who wouldn't normally have met, thrust together when a nautiloid crosses the planes.

    Somehow taking on the role as leader to a ragtag group of adventurers, Durge tries his best to overcome the dark urge that threatens to consume him while facing an identity crisis and fighting to remember a past lost to him, putting his future path into question. Meanwhile, Jean didn't sign up for dimension hopping to a strange world without modern comforts, joining a dangerous quest to a stop to a powerful psionic cult or being a target for manipulations.

    Working together, they must navigate their mission and new personal relationships without succumbing to corrupting influences - or they might be doomed to fail against the Dead Three. But, the wheel of fate need not turn ever to the dark, sometimes you just need the right people by your side.

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    "First," said Gale. "Do not kill any thinking creatures in Waterdeep unless you must to protect yourself or you have my express permission."

    As Gale spoke, he could feel the weight of his words sinking into the person sitting across from him. It was like casting a spell, but took no effort. Astarion had been staring hollowly into his goblet of blood, but at this he made a faintly interested noise. As if the rule were novel and he was considering the shape of it.

    "Second, you will obey me in all things," said Gale. There didn't feel like there was any honest way of softening that. Astarion didn't make any sound at all.

    "Third, do not leave the tower without permission." Astarion made another speculative noise, considering this one too. But then his shoulders hunched and his eyes skittered down, as if he didn't want to look at what was about to happen.

    "Fourth," Gale said, and paused. He started with some context: "There is a tressym upstairs."

    Astarion's head twitched. He looked up at Gale, blinking, startled. He had the air of someone who had been bracing for a blow and instead had just been handed a balloon animal.

    "A what?" he asked.

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    One year after the events of the game, Astarion crashes down hard. Time for him to unpack everything Cazador has done to him. Meanwhile Halsin tries to take care of the physical and mental health of that non-functional mess that is an Astarion who no longer has anyone to abuse him beside himself.

    Or, Astarion's long journey toward acceptance, self-love and adulthood. Halsin tags along to watch over Astarion's very struggling and traumatized steps and to catch him when he inevitably falls.

     

    Complete List Of Trigger Warnings Inside

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    Astarion is cured but his mind haunts him. Gale learns what happens when you displease a goddess.

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    Perhaps if he were a better man, he would have stayed. He would have died on familiar docks, surrounded by his friends, standing tall over one of the greatest victories the Sword Coast had ever seen. The bards would never stop singing of him, the vampire who chose to burn rather than let his love fall into madness on her own.

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    The Dark Urge couldn't kill her sister, and loses her mind in turn. Astarion finds it harder than he expected to let her go.

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    What if Astarion was betrayed by the Dark Urge and handed over to the Gur Hunter?
    And what if another kind of hunter saved him and set his life on a new course, one that would ultimately lead him to cross paths with those who had abandoned him?
    Follow the story of Astarion and Ashara, a young naive Ranger with an interesting secret of her own as they reluctantly team up to investigate the source of the Illithid scourge.

    WARNING: CONTAINS MATURE THEMES

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    Gale is teaching at a university and Astarion is a successful lawyer. Life is good... come what may. A few rather predictable obstacles compromise their happiness.

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    "I thought you might like it," I spoke so softly I worried the wind had carried my words away, but Astarion faced me, one eyebrow quirked in curiosity. My gaze flickered over to him, then swiftly away. "You do like it, don't you?"
    "Yes, I do." There was a warmth there, in his voice. Not the melted chocolate, sun-warmed honey kind he could turn on and off at will, but something fonder. Clearer. Like the tinkling babbling of a stream and the rustling of leaves.
    "Good, then."

    An Astarion fic that begins the night he tries to feed from you. First person female reader.

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    3092 DR

    Once a master thief, Astarion Ancunin now keeps a low profile working as an engineer on Rivington Station, one of the eastern sectors premium space stations.

    But pulled into old habits against his will Astarion is soon haunted by old monsters, and hunted by new.

    It will take all of his wits to survive the cold expanse of space with all its demons and all of its devils.

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    Astarion's world is turned completely upside down when he's snatched from the streets of Baldur's Gate and has a mind flayer tadpole inserted into his eye. Things get even stranger when he escapes the nautiloid only to find himself stranded in an unfamiliar modern world full of humans. He'll need help to get by in this new place and to find a way back to Toril.

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    When he wakes up, he's not himself. Not that he can remember what being 'himself' even means. All he has is a pounding headache and a name, 'The Dark Urge'.

    Oh, and memories of the real world and over 500 plus hours of playtime in Baldur's Gate 3.

    Now he's stuck inside the game, with no idea how he got there or what the fuck is going on. And very quickly, he'll realise that the real world of Faerun is nothing like the game. Shit hurts, there's no maps, fast travel, or save scumming. And people are far more complicated than simple video game characters.

    If he can keep himself alive and make it through this, perhaps there's something waiting for him in Faerun, a life he can build for himself. But the urge is just as real as everything else, and it's out for blood.

    All he wants is to find his freedom before the game kills him or the urge overtakes him.

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    If you like slow burns, morally grey characters, consequences and urge-fuelled angst, this fic is for you.

    Act 2 is ending. Updates every 3-4 days.

    Currently editing some earlier chapters, so for now the noblestalk is both a flower and a mushroom until I catch up 😅

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    But … But that would mean …
    That would mean everything might have been real. The villagers might have been right. And Gale …
    Gale might have just found a fae in his backyard.

     

    After his divorce, Gale moves to the countryside in search of a quiet life.

    He finds more than he bargained for.

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    This spawn — starved, abused, and whored out by his master had a lifetime of bitterness and resentment pent up inside. His humanity had been stripped, beaten out of him by every reminder that he was owned for eternity. He was a beast but unable to let the beast out and gorge on the blood of the innocent. There had to be anger underneath this veneer of charm, a need for revenge. He would not be a sacrifice for Bhaal tonight — he would be His next acolyte.

    Bhaal’s Chosen stalks the night for a victim and finds a vampire spawn looking for the same. As they get acquainted, he finds Astarion too tragic to kill and instead turns his daggers on his master. He sees potential in the abused spawn, however, and takes him under his wing to mould into his perfect killer.

    Astarion suddenly finds himself liberated by an even deadlier monster than Cazador. Will this crazed fanatic be his salvation? Or is he merely trading one bondage for another? And everything changes once he catches the attention of the Dead Three…

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