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    originally published on Wattpad on 4.25.24, and completed in early Aug 2024

    in which Castiel slowly loses his grip on reality.

    (my biggest SPN story yet!!)

    please heed to the tags if any of that triggers you!! there will be no other warnings

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    Human feelings are new to Cas, if not in contents then in intensity. This leads to a certain conversation with Dean going… differently.

    Cas stays in the bunker, with Dean now having to do his best to hide him from Sam and Ezekiel lest the angel decide to leave.

    Being locked in a room with Dean while figuring out how to be a human might end up harder than Cas expected.

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    After being kicked out of the bunker on his own, Cas struggles. Dean finds out, and is there for him.

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    The Non-con, Violence and the abusive relationship is not between Cas and Sam so don't worry. :) I'm listing this as explicit just to be safe. More tags will be added as the fic goes on. So please read the tags. The title of this fic is from a Nicole Dollanganger song.

    Sam Winchester was found after being hit by a car. Wandering the streets with a broken wrist and hallucinating the devil. He ends up in a psychiatric hospital, where he meets Castiel. A far too slender blue-eyed man, beautiful enough to be a fallen angel.
    This is their story.

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    Castiel Novak is a depressed kid, whose father is abusive. And Dean Winchester is the new guy in school and probably Castiel's lifes sunshine. (English isn't my first language so I am sorry for my mistakes in advance.)

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    (Croatoan/endverse fic) They were both drowning, but there was an understanding that they were both drowning together. Even if they didn’t know how to help one another.

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    !This fic includes self harm Reader / viewer discretion is advised!
    Anyway here's an angst fic about Castiel struggling with self harm, guild and general just mental issues
    [Castiel has been struggling with self harm and guilt the Winchester's try to help but Castiel tries to hide his habits]

     

    The timeline is a bit unclear

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    Castiel Novak is weird. He is antisocial, and he is weak. Or, that's what the other kids say. He's often bullied for being the autistic outcast, but he manages, mostly.
    Dean Winchester is popular. He is charming, good-looking, funny and charismatic, and no, that is not Castiel's description of him. This is a general painting of teenage girls.
    They couldn't be more different.
    (Though considering how stubborn they are, they'd probably find a way)

    Trigger warnings are listed in the first chapter notes, please please be cautious if any of the things there may trigger you!
    (Also first Destiel fic let's gooo)

    (NOT DISCONTINUED!!! I really want to continue this as soon as I can, but there's just too much going on right now. Hoping to get back on track as soon as I can! <3)

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    Regards, Castiel.

    3 times Cas punished himself,

    ...and 1 time Dean showed him how much he was worth.

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    Castiel is years past healing from a mental breakdown that landed him in the hospital for several months, until a certain green-eyed heartbreaker somehow strolls back into his life and starts to bleed into every aspect of Cas' life that apparently wasn't as stable as he thought.
    Dean's just looking for safety; relief from the oppressive weight of his depression when he stumbles across a kind and genuine college student who just doesn't want to feel lonely anymore.
    Sam wants more than the complicated relationship he has with his brother, but after years of abuse and misunderstandings he's afraid that he and Dean will never be able to move past the things that tore them apart in the first place.
    Gabe wasn't trying to make things difficult for Castiel, but unfortunately Cas has the worst taste in men and in his defense, Dean is nothing like what Gabe was picturing.

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    Cas and Dean have loved each other for a while now, (since they first met) But neither of them knows how to tell the other and doesn't want to risk there friendship falling apart. There minds are there own worst enemy, that is, until they find the heart, they find those forbidden words and it all fits into place.

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    https://archiveofourown.org/works/16677319/chapters/39108538
    (link to part one is above.)
    Dean tells him to go, and he does... right into the arms of two desprate hunters looking for the winchesters, and for a good time. When Castiel finally escapes he has been raped and is terrified. Experiencing the sudden loss of his abilities for some unexplained reason, and an oncoming major breakdown, he cannot decide what to do. Can he bring himself to go back to the winchesters, and Bobby? If he does, will they figure out what happened, or will he have to tell them? Will he stay where he is, and possibly bleed to death? Who knows, the light at the end of the tunnel just might end up being hellfire.
    FYI I stink at doing summaries.
    (Thoughts are in these things.)
    I'm not up to date on the happenings of the series. I have watched up to the fourth, almost to the fifth season of supernatural. So, the timeline is going to be off, bobby is alive, there are some quotes from later seasons in here. I can't really explain much more about it. If you read it, enjoy. If you don't, I accept your decission, and hope you find a nice story to read.
    Also there is the possibility that this is out of character.

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    Title is from Karma Police from Radiohead. (Tw at start of fic)

    With Charlie dead they don't know what to do. God can help but they take the easier way out

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    "Being in pain isn’t a sign of weakness.”

    “Not to you. You’re human.”

    It comes out before Sam can think better of it. “So are you now.”

    Cas tightens his jaw visibly. “No, I’m a soldier. I fight, or I die fighting.”

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    A love story, that is probably overdone about two people who have met online and live far away from each other but still love each other.

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    Told firmly by Sam to get a grip, Former Amateur Boxer Dean Winchester steps back into the ring many years after retirement, to give him something to focus on after a heart breaking, break-up with his lying and manipulative ex Lisa.
    For a change, Dean has no intentions of fighting. He's there for an outlet and to take his mind off things... that's until he meets the last person he expects to find in a backstreet Gym in New Orleans. The Angel. Castiel Novak.
    Face to face with a legend Dean is surprised by the former professional, he's nothing like he'd imagined him to be and seems to be hiding hints of a past that may be even darker than his own.

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    Lucas, Gabriel, and Castiel find themselves at the mercy of their Uncle Zachariah who took them in after their parents demise, eager to teach them that the reason their parents died were for their sins and determined to set the boys on the path of righteousness. Eager to please, Castiel does his best to keep his Uncle happy, to do as he's told, even as his brothers fall apart around him. When Castiel wakes up one morning after dreaming of a boy, he realizes he's failed.

    He's bad, dirty, wrong. And according to his Uncle's teaching, his doom is sure to be upon him.

    Dean Winchester, however, doesn't see it that way. And though Castiel is losing faith in himself, in his family, in the religion he's lived and breathed for the last ten years, he'd finding something stronger.

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    Castiel knew today was coming. The pressure had been building, growing, weighing down on him. Everyday became harder and he questioned if it was worth the effort.

    Was he worth the effort?

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    Destiel College AU
    Depressed!Cas Protective!Dean

    When Dean and Castiel find themselves roommates, the two form a profound bond and soon fall in love. However, Cas has a deep, dark sadness he holds close to his heart, and only Dean can cure it. The two go through ups and downs and dark times, but battle together through it all.

    *TRIGGER WARNING* self harm, suicide attempts, depression, etc

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