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    As a kid, Simon had loved learning about space, and the planets, and the entire solar system. To Simon’s innocent soul, the universe was simply a concept, an exciting thing that inspired Simon to explore the world and to appreciate life as he knew it. He grew infatuated with the stars and the galaxies, and he was left in awe when his primary school teacher had explained the concept of a black hole to him.

    Yet, as he’d grown up, he realised it was all a lie. Space, and the black hole itself, was a whole lot of nothing. He’d read reports of astronauts who had been in space for a long period of time, read stories of astronauts that the Earth could never bring home, that humanity could never save – they wrote about how space was cold and lonely and so fucking far away from every thing and every one they had ever known.

     

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    Ethan and Tobi talk to Simon.
    Simon crumbles once more.

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    It stirs something in Simon-a possessive,ugly thing he tries to keep buried but can’t deny.No matter how many strangers Harry kisses,no matter how many fleeting touches he shares in with them,Simon is the one Harry comes back to.He’s the one who sees Harry unravel,completely undone beneath his touch.

    He doesn’t know whether to count it as a blessing or a curse—these nights they keep falling into.Simon is too attached,too in love,to stop them.And Harry?Harry is too careless to.

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    After concealing their relationship for a year, Simon and Harry break up – though only Josh notices the heartbreak of the younger boy.

    Misery makes for strange bedfellows – as Harry and Josh decide to seek comfort with each other.

    Green with envy, Simon is desperate to win Harry back. But can he make peace with his demons?

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    The secrets out.

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    A collection of short pieces or scenes I have written about the Sidemen that I will never finish, or that will never make it into longer fiction, so here you go. Enjoy!

    (very much inspired by @harry_mate and their 'Sidemen Snippets' book)

    PLEASE NOTE:
    - I am currently NOT taking requests
    - Any trigger warnings will be at the start of specific chapters

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    Taking oneshot requests

    will do any sidemen ship, and some other youtubers that i tend to watch (seen in character list)
    wont do ships with cal (freezy OR lux) as i dont watch them and dont see their personality enough to write them, or anything illegal.

    i can write smut and fluff, and im going to try my best if given an angst prompt, but im not confident with it.

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    'When you go, lock the door behind you, and leave the keys under the mat. Jide went out, but he knows you stayed. I told him you were sick.'

    He groaned out loud as the memories came flooding to him. Simon giving it to him like he had no time to spare, as though their time together was limited. The roughness of the sex, and the lack of eye contact. He winced as he felt his dick twitch, and he caught sight of the slight bruises that had formed on his wrists.

    He placed his hand on his forehead, as he looked next to him. Simon was nowhere to be seen, and the house was eerily quiet - all he could hear were his own sharp breaths.

    It seemed as though they would just go back to how they normally were. For some reason, Harry seemed slightly opposed to the idea, but decided not to dwell on it too much. That was a conversation with himself for another day.

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    Just some Sidemen drabbles/snippets that will probably range from 100-500 words. Will aim to post them daily!

    Will include both romantic and platonic relationships, will pre-warn about romance <3

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    “You and me, we’d never last if we was together, would we?”

    It’s Josh’s twenty-seventh birthday, and he can’t quite remember how this conversation started.

    Ethan’s leaning against the bar as he says it, feet crossed at the ankles, a dangerous sway to his body, like he’s seconds away from toppling over. There’s a beer in his hand, fingers clutched tightly around it, knuckled and strong.

    Josh doesn’t know why that’s the image that he remembers the most from that evening: not all the fun he had with his mates, not all the drinking and the partying, not the jokes and laughter. No. What he remembers most is the way Ethan had looked at him as he added with a smirk, something bright glinting in the pretty hues of his irises, “I’m too fast, and you’re too slow.”

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    OR: a study of differences; a study of similarities.
    Passivity versus activity. Take your pick.

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    Ethan finally gets what he wants most, if only for a night.

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    Ethan loves Harry, angst, sadness, you know the drill

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    Other than Ethan’s quiet snores beside him on the bed, snuffling like a cautious badger, the only thing that relaxed Josh to his core was the rain falling outside.

     

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    A little Behzerk moment in the early hours of the morning.

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    simon: send nudes?

    harry: what the fuck?

    In which Simon is, kind of, a beg, but Harry is apparently okay with that.

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    Simon realises the depth of his feelings and invites Harry on a Christmas trip.

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    All Simon could hear was yelling, glasses being broken, and loud music pounding against his skull. He couldn't see properly, people packed all around him, overwhelming him. His head was spinning, as well as the room entirely. He was being shoved around, he could feel his face swelling and bleeding. He wanted to throw up and cry at the same time. He could feel someone's hot breath behind him, as well as hands groping him everywhere, fists being tossed around. He felt sick. His ears were ringing and he felt like he was being split apart. He could hear sirens blaring off into the distance, like an angel on his shoulder telling him to keep going.

     

    Simon Minter goes out for drinks and gets assaulted. The boys are there for him.

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    He thought about Vik, about Harry, about Behz, about how they were all so young, despite only being a few years younger than Josh, but he felt that the age gap was increasing every day, especially as of late; Vik could run laps around all of them if he put his mind to it; Harry could sit on the floor for hours without being in pain; Ethan’s knees popped but never ached; although Josh walked, and ran, and boxed, he tired more easily, and his bones seized up like rusted iron at the first opportunity.

    It was safe to say that Josh loved his friends. He loved them a lot, and because of that, he wanted to be better for them. He didn’t want to die anymore, he knew that, fuck, he’d known that weeks, if not months, ago. He just… he wanted to be better.

    He just didn’t see how he could achieve that in a sustainable way, in a way that wouldn’t be without setbacks that upset more than just him.

     

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    Josh plays golf with the Cals and Randy.
    He opens up to Freezy in a way he never had before.
    Josh finally, finally, thinks that he’s moving forward.

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    Simon did not expect ‘The Price is Right 2’ to be one of his most challenging shoots to date. Then again, he can never be certain of anything when it comes to Harry.

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    And Vik… Vik flinched. He fucking flinched. ‘I know,’ he said. ‘I’m sorry, Harry.’ His expression turned vacant, and, to Tobi, it looked like Vik was simply a mannequin, staring blankly in front of him, looking right at Tobi but not seeing him, not seeing, or registering, anything.

    A warning light flashed at the back of Tobi’s mind.

    (Something’s wrong. Something isn’t right. Something is very, very wrong with Vik).

     

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    The one in which Vik has a soft spot for Harry, even if it means he's hurting himself in the process.

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    Ethan, out of surprise, goes to grab Simon by the shoulders by swinging his arm around him, and Simon jumps back and gasps out in fear. Ethan looks over at Simon and sees the horrified expression on his face. He starts to shake, eyes wide open with his mouth slightly agape. He immediately looks worried and confused for his best friend.

    "Simon?" Ethan whispers to him, the others not noticing yet. Simon shuts his mouth tight and stands tense as he stares at Ethan with wide eyes. He looked terrified, like he was just threatened at gunpoint or something.

    He then started to hyperventilate, unable to stop himself and Ethans heart dropped to the floor.

    "Simon!" He yelled, which finally got everyone's attention as they saw Simon was beginning to have a panic attack.

    OR; Simon wakes up full of anxiety and he ends up having a panic attack due to trauma

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    Things have gotten bad again. He couldn't believe it. He thought he got better. But apparently not.

    Years ago, when he was living with the two Cals, he went through a horrific depression. He wasted his life away and it almost cost him his life. Thankfully to the Cals, the helped him get better. They were honestly all he had, after trying to commit.

    OR; Harry's depression gets bad again and he has a bad day and tries to kill himself. Tobi comes in and saves him from the inevitable.

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    “Stop fuckin’ staring at me like that,” he snaps, with more bite than he ought to, a rabid dog backed into the corner, teeth bared, hackles raised, “you look… you look fucking stupid, bro.”

    It’s an insult that sounded weak even to his own ears, and Ethan’s face heats up with a flush of embarrassment. Christ, it’s like he’s a kid again.

    “I look how you want me to look,” Josh replies, this strange, flat neutrality to his voice that seems out of place with his usual cadence. It’s like he’s hollow, like he’s not… like he’s not real.

    Right.

    He’s dreaming, ain’t he?

    Nothing about this is real.

    “Fuck this, I’m going to bed,” he blurts out, suddenly, turning on the balls of his feet and starting to walk back into his bedroom. The ground feels unsteady, calves and thighs aching, burning, like he just can’t hold himself up, anymore.

    “You’re already asleep,” Josh calls out to him.

    Ethan flips him off. And, as he does so, he doesn’t turn around.

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    OR: Ethan starts dreaming about Josh. It gets worse. He doesn't know how to cope.

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