i loved you like the sun
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you had to kill me (but it killed you just the same) by pessimism4ever
Fandoms: 原神 | Genshin Impact (Video Game)
20 Nov 2023
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He closes his eyes and waits for the punishment to be doled out by the only person who deserves to give it. He's kneeling in all his worthless repentance, not to the archons, but to the one person he’ll ever owe his penance to. Religion had died on his tongue the second he’d been born in a godless land, but his faith in their brotherhood is what thrums in his blood and drips out of his shoulder blade.
He wonders for that split second what dying will feel like. If the pain will permeate his whole being or if it’ll be a single second of agonising pain and then nothing at all. If the heavens will continue to cry over his traitorous body.
If his brother will cry over his traitorous body.
The day Kaeya confesses, he loses a father along with a brother.
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- Part 1 of i loved you like the sun
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and i can go anywhere i want (just not home) by pessimism4ever
Fandoms: 原神 | Genshin Impact (Video Game)
13 Nov 2023
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“Please, just don’t let him hate me,” his hands clutching the cold vision as if it were a lifeline, “it’s all I’ll ever ask from you,” Kaeya promises, but all he gets in return is wind and rain.
There is no change — no sudden light, nor divinity of any kind. There is no sign that the Archon had even deigned to listen to the cursed non-believer that lays begging at his statue, nor heeded the worthless promises of a boy with nothing to offer but inherited devastation.
Kaeya runs to the nearest statue of seven and begs for the Anemo Archon's help after his and Diluc's fight.
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- Part 2 of i loved you like the sun
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a lot to pine about (a lot to live without) by pessimism4ever
Fandoms: 原神 | Genshin Impact (Video Game)
30 Nov 2023
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He exhales and closes his eyes, and for a split second he entertains the idea of running after Diluc, pretending they had just run into each other, pretend he hadn’t been watching the Winery for hours now, legs numb and chest hollow. He craves that warm familiarity of exasperated sighs, frown adorned lips and cherry-red eyes that know him better than anybody else.
He thinks it’s all sorts of fucked up that he feels more at peace and ease with a Diluc that hates him than anywhere else. Diluc wasn’t his brother anymore, but he automatically makes Kaeya’s skin stop buzzing under his clothes and his bones fit into place under his skin.
The thought stays as it is — just a thought. He doesn’t act on it, doesn’t move from where he’s sat and just stays there, stuck in place and time.
Kaeya reminisces and ruminates over a lost childhood, a ruined brotherhood, and all the feelings that come with turning 21.
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- Part 3 of i loved you like the sun