You Make Me Feel Like I Am Home Again
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This Part of Love by Taste_is_Sweet
Fandoms: Marvel Cinematic Universe, Marvel, Marvel (Movies), Captain America (Movies)
28 Jun 2014
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There was an intimacy to this that Steve had never had before. They slept in the same bed sometimes, sharing warmth in the winter, and it was hard to have any kind of privacy in such a tiny apartment. But this felt bigger than that, somehow. Maybe it was the unthinking trust in the way Bucky let Steve move his head, or just the fact that Steve had never combed anyone else's hair, let alone for someone he cared about so much.
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- Part 1 of You Make Me Feel Like I Am Home Again
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I've Always Been Yours by Taste_is_Sweet
Fandoms: Marvel Cinematic Universe, Marvel, Marvel (Movies), Captain America (Movies)
16 Dec 2014
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Bucky's in Steve's apartment when he comes home.
(It warms him, though, to think of Bucky using his apartment, that he might feel comfortable there regardless of how he got in. It makes Steve happy to know that Bucky's been able to eat decent food and get clean, hopefully feel safe enough to sleep. And the fact that Bucky went to Steve's apartment, out of all the thousands he could have chosen anywhere in New York City…
Well, Steve doesn't want to think too hard about that part, because he doesn't want to hope.)
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- Part 2 of You Make Me Feel Like I Am Home Again
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Shapes Supposed to Be Hearts by Taste_is_Sweet
Fandoms: Marvel Cinematic Universe, Marvel (Movies), Marvel, Captain America (Movies), Arrow (TV 2012)
25 Apr 2015
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Oliver Queen and James Buchanan Barnes have a lot in common.
("He's not actually a veteran," Felicity said at last, then looked up, worried. "But what happened to him…he was a prisoner of war. He'd tell you that's not true, but, from what little he's told me…yeah." She rubbed her nose, then re-clasped her hands and lowered her eyes. "And he was tortured," she went on softly. "For a long time. They trained him to fight. Made him…made him do things." She bit her lip. "Awful, terrible things that no one should do to anybody. But he did. And it…it changes you. When you have to do that."
Sam cleared his throat. "Yes it does." His voice creaked anyway, but it was a little hard to speak normally when his heart was suddenly going like he'd been trying to lap Steve Rogers. "This friend of yours," he went on, trying not to sound eager. "What's his name?")
Written for my Live Journal Intoabar Community prompt: Felicity Smoak meets...Sam Wilson.
(This fic takes place before Arrow S03X20: The Fallen)
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- Part 3 of You Make Me Feel Like I Am Home Again
- Part 2 of Fancy Meeting You Here
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This Was a Battle by Taste_is_Sweet
Fandoms: Marvel Cinematic Universe, Marvel, Marvel (Movies), Captain America (Movies)
02 Jan 2015
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Bucky thinks he's lost. Natasha finds him.
(Natasha was worried again, afraid for Bucky. It was the weary resignation in his voice, like this was a battle he'd always expected to lose.
She didn't show it, just blinked slowly at him. "You're speaking English now."
He shrugged, but then slumped against the wall, shoving his hands deeper into his hoodie pocket. With his shoulders hunched and his head down she couldn't see his face, but he looked vulnerable and sad and very, very young. "I might lose it again."
"Will you?" she asked, knowing damn well he wasn't talking about the writing. She licked her lips, glancing at the box again and the fist-sized holes in the wall just above her head. "Did you come here to kill yourself, James?" It was difficult to keep her voice calm, but she did. It would do Bucky no good at all to know she was fretting over him, or that they'd all been terrified about what he might do to himself, after what happened.
Bucky shook his head, which was comforting, but he wasn't surprised or even upset that she'd asked. She wished he were. "No. I came here in case I had to.")
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- Part 4 of You Make Me Feel Like I Am Home Again
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If Ye Be Worthy (the Stubborn as a Brick Wall Remix) by Taste_is_Sweet
Fandoms: Marvel Cinematic Universe, Marvel, Marvel (Movies), Captain America (Movies)
13 Jan 2015
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Bucky didn't even glance up from beating the trembling heavy bag to death. "You're gonna tell me that being turned into the Red Room's assassin and then Hydra's fucking attack dog for seventy-whatever years wasn't my fault and that Tony was talking crap and you can't think of anyone more worthy to hold Mjölnir than me."
"Well, you're right," Steve said, only barely surprised. "So why the hell are you still down here?"
The look Bucky threw him was too resigned for a glare. "Because we both know that's bullshit."
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- Part 5 of You Make Me Feel Like I Am Home Again
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Lonely Dragons by Taste_is_Sweet
Fandoms: Marvel Cinematic Universe, Marvel, Marvel (Movies), Captain America (Movies)
20 Jan 2015
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Bucky was sitting in the corner where the railing met the building, cross-legged and hunched and of course in the ridiculous moose hoodie plus a quilt around his shoulders. It was the quilt Tony had ordered with vintage Howling Commandos and SSR symbols all over it—score—but the overall effect of Bucky sitting alone and all bundled up like that was just tragic. And adorable. But mostly tragic.
"You look incredibly tragic out here all by yourself like this. Just saying." Tony decided he wasn't going to have to holler for help or call one of his suits, so he fully committed to stepping out onto the balcony. It was, as he'd surmised, fucking cold. Maybe less so if one was wrapped in an awesome quilt and a ridiculous moose hoodie, but still. Tony tightly folded his arms, wishing he'd had the foresight to grab a hoodie himself—or a quilt—instead of just coming out here in his Sisters of Mercy tee-shirt. "Really, you're like, a lost kitten. A lost kitten with antlers. You do know we can afford light and heat and stuff, right?"
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- Part 6 of You Make Me Feel Like I Am Home Again
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A Precarious, Fragile Thing by Taste_is_Sweet for tigriswolf
Fandoms: Marvel Cinematic Universe, Marvel, Marvel (Movies), Captain America (Movies)
31 Jan 2015
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"I didn't know he did that," Tony said. He knew Bucky liked tucking himself so far under Steve's arm that it was like he was trying to climb into his armpit. But he'd always stayed upright, just kind of plastering himself against Steve's side. This blanket thing was new.
"Seventy years of skin hunger," Steve said. His voice was just as soft, but for a moment his eyes flickered hot with anger, bright as the candy-colored screen. "He was always tactile. Now, when things get…well, sometimes it helps. The contact."
And it looked…nice, the two of them together like that: Comfortable. Familiar. Safe. Tony knew what a precarious, fragile thing it was, to feel safe in the middle of the night.
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- Part 7 of You Make Me Feel Like I Am Home Again
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An Everyday Kindness by Taste_is_Sweet for 74days
Fandoms: Marvel Cinematic Universe, Marvel, Marvel (Movies), Captain America (Movies)
11 Feb 2015
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"What is that?" Bucky asks softly.
"Snow," Steve says. The word lodges in his throat, making him cough. "It was…" He swallows. "That's what I saw when the Valkyrie was going down." He's trembling. He clasps his hands on the desk to keep them still.
"You said you got the white for me. Because of the train." Bucky sounds puzzled.
Without the drawing in his immediate line of sight Steve's able to wrench his eyes towards the window, then flinches when he sees the snow covering everything. It's New York, he thinks. It's New York and you're inside and warm and you're not frozen and you're not going to die. "It was. Just, not all of it. I'm sorry. I didn't—"
Bucky's incredulous snort cuts him off. "Are you apologizing for the train not being your biggest fucking trauma for once?"
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- Part 8 of You Make Me Feel Like I Am Home Again
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Like the King of the World by Taste_is_Sweet
Fandoms: Marvel Cinematic Universe, Marvel, Marvel (Movies), Captain America (Movies)
15 Feb 2015
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"I wish you hadn't seen Titanic."
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- Part 9 of You Make Me Feel Like I Am Home Again
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Impossible Odds and Untold Hardship by Taste_is_Sweet
Fandoms: Marvel Cinematic Universe, Marvel, Marvel (Movies), Captain America (Movies)
11 Mar 2015
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"I understand," Steve says, sadly. "Really, I do. It's your birthday, of course you should be able to do what you want, even if that's nothing." He sighs even more gustily. "You have every right to lie there like a big lump and sleep the day away. And completely ignore your boyfriend, who loves you more than anything—"
"Not enough to let me sleep in, apparently," Bucky says.
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- Part 10 of You Make Me Feel Like I Am Home Again
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As Good a Place as Any by Taste_is_Sweet
Fandoms: Marvel Cinematic Universe, Marvel, Marvel (Movies), Captain America (Movies)
04 Apr 2015
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"It was a retreat," Steve goes on more calmly, then has to swallow against something a little too close to nausea lodged in his throat. "They put—they brought me there to help me get my head on straight. Their psychiatrists were sure it'd help me to get away from everyone. And, and they showed me how to set up video calls. If I wanted. It wasn't a prison."
"Video calls," Bucky says flatly. He stares at Steve so long that Steve has to force himself not to avert his gaze. Bucky's eyes are huge and horrified, and he pushes his fingers through his hair again, then leaves them linked on the back of his head. "Stevie," he says, and his voice cracks. "Stevie, don't you even know what they did to you?"
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- Part 11 of You Make Me Feel Like I Am Home Again
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As Big and Bright as the Stars by Taste_is_Sweet for Brumeier
Fandoms: Marvel Cinematic Universe, Marvel (Movies), Marvel, Captain America (Movies)
08 Apr 2015
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"Are you okay, Bucky?" Steve demanded. It was too harsh, but his heart was still racing breakneck in his chest and Bucky's arm looked like it'd exploded. There were tiny, intricate-looking pieces scattered all over the table, some trailing wires as delicate as hair. It was exactly like the pictures of Hydra torturing him. "What are they doing?"
Tony looked at him like Steve had lost his mind, which didn't feel too far off. "It's okay, Pop Ice," he said. "Your heart will go on here is just fine."
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- Part 12 of You Make Me Feel Like I Am Home Again
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Antelope Down (Fifteen Points) by Taste_is_Sweet for Squeaky
Fandoms: Marvel Cinematic Universe, Marvel (Movies), Marvel, Captain America (Movies)
17 Jun 2015
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"No, the tower isn't under attack. That was just Bucky and Steve," Tony said to Pepper, blinking in astonishment as the two men crashed through the doors to the stairwell. He looked at Natasha, who had barely glanced up from her newspaper. "What the hell was that?"
She shrugged gracefully. "Lions and antelopes, apparently. Bucky just got ten points."
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- Part 13 of You Make Me Feel Like I Am Home Again
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We're All Stupid When We're Hurting by Taste_is_Sweet
Fandoms: Marvel Cinematic Universe, Marvel (Movies), Marvel, Captain America (Movies)
01 Oct 2015
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Bucky knew no one would ever put him in the chair again. He knew he was safe here. He knew Tony could fix his arm without hurting him. Of course he did. But it didn't make a damn bit of difference to the terror that shook him like a dog at just the thought of sitting down and stretching his arm out for Tony to fuck with. Might as well stretch out his neck to have his throat slit. Hell, that'd be easier.
Easier to die. Yeah, he was losing his fucking mind.
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- Part 14 of You Make Me Feel Like I Am Home Again
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You Only Scare the Bad Guys by Taste_is_Sweet
Fandoms: Marvel Cinematic Universe, Marvel (Movies), Marvel, Captain America (Movies)
19 Feb 2016
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The girl nodded solemnly and Bucky took the bear in his hands. It'd looked enormous in her arms, but seemed terribly small with his fingers wrapped around it, like it'd burst if he squeezed too hard. The bear's fur had been worn to felt in places, with uneven stitching where rips had been repaired with more determination than skill. Bucky had to force himself to look back up at the girl's big, adoring eyes. "What's his name?"
"Winter Soldier Bucky Bear," Mabel said, like it was so obvious she couldn't believe he was asking.
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- Part 15 of You Make Me Feel Like I Am Home Again
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More than Enough by Taste_is_Sweet for Squeaky
Fandoms: Marvel Cinematic Universe, Marvel, Captain America (Movies)
07 Jun 2017
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Steve froze, then violently shrugged Bucky away. "How could you?" he snarled, clenching his fists like he was about to launch himself into a fight. "How could you do that to me?"
Bucky blinked in dawning horror. "Stevie, whatever you're remembering, it was a dream. It didn't really happen." He reached for him again. "Can you—"
"Don't touch me!" Steve shoved him hard enough to send Bucky stumbling back into the wall. "Don't you touch me." He was crazed with anger, shaking with adrenaline. "I loved you. I trusted you. And now you really think you can just pretend nothing happened? Fuck you." He swiped viciously at his eyes. "I don't want you here. Get out."
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- Part 16 of You Make Me Feel Like I Am Home Again
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This is the Ghost Story by Taste_is_Sweet
Fandoms: Marvel Cinematic Universe, Marvel, Captain America (Movies)
13 Sep 2017
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You can't have amnesia if you're not supposed to remember.
("I don't want to forget you," Bucky says wistfully.
Steve looks half-asleep, but he blinks and lifts his head. "What do you mean?" he asks. His smile is puzzled. "Why would you forget me?"
"After maintenance, when they'll wipe me and put me in Cryo," Bucky explains. "I'll forget you again, and I don't want to. You're the best handler I've ever had.")
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- Part 17 of You Make Me Feel Like I Am Home Again
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Because You Are Nice by Taste_is_Sweet for darkmoore
Fandoms: Marvel Cinematic Universe, Marvel, Captain America (Movies)
17 Feb 2018
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It was a small package in a white protective envelope, with a neat slit at the top where it'd already been opened.
Inside was a plastic sandwich bag holding something soft and blue, and a greeting card with a Bucky Bear on it. The card's front said, Happy Birthday to an Amazing Six Year Old!
Bucky blinked. "It's not my birthday."
"At least they got your mental age right," Sam said.
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- Part 18 of You Make Me Feel Like I Am Home Again
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Bucky Barnes: Soft Sculpture by Darkmoore by darkmoore, Taste_is_Sweet
Fandoms: Marvel Cinematic Universe, The Avengers (Marvel Movies), Captain America (Movies), Marvel
02 Apr 2019
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Please note this is not a fic, so don't be disappointed. ♥
A while ago, the incredibly kind and amazingly talented artist Darkmoore made me a doll of Bucky Barnes in his moose hoodie! After far too long I am finally sharing it here.
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- Part 19 of You Make Me Feel Like I Am Home Again